yummmmmm!!!

You Auckland ladies (or those visiting!) i can TOTALLY recommend Zavito in Mairangi Bay, oh my god yummm! prices reasonable and food was just gorgeous! we had a great night out!!

we got some garlic pizza breads for starters, and then for Entree i got Calamari squid done in garlic and sweet chilli on some mesculin, and ohhh heaven in a mouthful!! then for my main i got Terakihi (prob spelt that wrong - fish!) on a risotto and salad, and i could hardly eat much of the salad let alone finish the main! it was massive! the guys that had steak totally raved about it and my SIL had a stuffed lamb dish, and apparently that was devine too. oh and yes i got my Lemon Lime and Bitters!!! was very rapt! then we decided from there, lets not have dessert (so piggy i ate so much yesterday!) but lets go into Mission Bay for icecream! haha so over the Harbour bridge into the city we went and we went and had icecreams at one of the icecream shops there, yummm, we got home around 11.15 so for us 'oldies' on a 'school night' it was a late one! but it was lovely!

Today my Mum is coming up to stay a couple of nights with my other sister Belinda, Adele (the older of the 2 sisters - 17) has been here since Sunday. so im looking foward to mum getting here! Then tomorrow night Mum is babysitting for Kaylee and her 2 cousins while Darryl and I and my SIL & BIL go out to Darryls & SILs mums 60th birthday party at Sky City, so another night out this week! lol in one week, 3 nights out for dinner and one lot of takeaways, am i taking it easy, HELL YES!! haha

apparently though i need a house bitch for the next 6 or so weeks, so applications are open!

oh and Aucklanders, please be careful out there on the roads, watch out for a pretty blonde behind the wheel of a crappy bluebird.... shes scary.... and may have cooties... approach with caution...... :p xxx

taking it easy!

thanks for all your concern :) and yes i am taking it easy!!!

although i did make the mistake of going shopping this morning, not for much just a few items for Kaylee and a couple of pairs of shoes for her and some hair products for me, oh and i did cave and buy myself a couple of new singlets, i wasnt going to because im not going to be pregnant too much longer to justify buying new maternity clothes, but damn its just too hot!! everything i have is black and long sleeved and im very pleased to say the last few tops i have brought recently have NOT been black! one has been a turquoisy colour, one has been brown, and todays ones are white, lol see! not black!!! but anyway, it was enough to start the pains again, i texted my midwife this morning to let her know things are ok etc, and then i went out for lunch and sat down for 3 hours, was great!!! had a beautiful BLAT with heaps of salad, just the way i like it! i hate it when i order a BLAT (Bacon, lettuce Avocado and Tomato on a nice foccocia bread with chutney) and it comes with one bit of lettuce, NO NO NO! haha i like lots of salad!

i have a new craving... Lemon, Lime and Bitters drinks, ohhh yum, ive had 3 in the last oh 12 hours! terrible really, but so nice and refreshing!!! and im going out to dinner tonight with Darryl and my SIL & BIL and all i can think of is not the food, but that i hope they can make me lemon, lime and bitters! haha

my midwife just texted me saying she hopes i was taking it easy and not doing anything, lol i told her about my long lunch, and i get "now THATS what im talking about!!" i didnt however tell her about the shopping and the fact im off out to dinner tonight... hmmm may just get a growling for that!! but im doing ok! i promise! a lot of sitting down, a lot of drinking fluids, a lot of ordering other people around!! :p

i ended up figiting last night, i got SO bored in bed, when there isnt much on tv, and your sick of sudoku and youve read all your mags, what do you do!! lol so i came out and finally got through the wee mountain of paperwork i had sitting on my desk! felt good to do it all! ive been putting it off for ages.

Baby has definatly dropped substantially, i can feel her bum so much lower than usual, and i can feel movements a lot lower than usual, but she has been pretty quiet today too, compared to the last few days (i say this as i get a huge kick!) and Braxton hicks have started up quite regularly too! Also in the last half an hour of so the cramps have started again, but hey, im in constant contact with my MW and am just going to be reallllly lazy for a while! haha

ok, call me the shopping bargain queen, i have to share with you! haha i went for a bit of a wander around our local outlet stores and i used my last puff of hairspray today, so i had quite flat lifeless hair, so not me! haha, anyway, they have a hairproduct outlet store, that just so happens to stock my FAVE brand of all time (joico) that i dont buy that often because it is SO DAMN expensive! (im talking $30ish for a 300ml shampoo - ouch!) BUT i got the next size up (500ml i think) shampoo and conditioner $30 for them both! score! AND a huge mousse and a huge hairspray (both Joico) for $20 for them both! ok yes, it does still seem expensive, and like i say because of the cost of them retail i VERY rarely buy them (special treat!) but ohhhhh i could not pass up those prices, especially when i was out of shampoo and conditioner and hairspray and was using the cheapest crappiest mousse (because i ran out of the good stuff!) i do love my hair products! :) (cant you tell!) ahhh im in heaven just smelling the bottles! haha

The weather is just too damn good to be stuck inside, id go stir crazy!!!

Update: 6pm

Midwife has ordered bedrest for at least the next couple of days, although i may do a sneaky and still go out to lunch tomorrow as i planned! But her orders are "dont you do a damn thing, you stay in bed and read or watch tv and let everyone else do it for you, any little change you ring me and its straight to hospital!" bossy bugger she is! so ive just ordered Pizza (Hells) for dinner and back to bed for me, days like these i wish i had a laptop so i could still go online while in bed! will update again tomorrow, but if i forget dont panic, if anything happens and its not on here, Kate will post for me on hers (wont you mate!) so if neither of us say anything, means there is nothing to be said! xxx

feeling 'odd'

i have no other way to explain it, i just feel very strange today, i have been awake since around 2am, managing to get back to sleep around 7ish and then getting up at 9.30ish. ive been quite achey and crampy, when i woke up at 2am it felt like minor period cramps, my first thought when i woke up was 'my damn period is coming!!' hmm yeah ok thats not going to happen just yet, then the weeing started! i have been back and forth to the damn loo since 2am more often than you could even imagine, honestly!

i ended up getting very frustrated at around 4am, because all i wanted to do was go to sleep, but my tummy was a bit achey and every time i got comfy i had to get up to pee again! (i have no idea how much a bladder can hold, but holy shit theres a lot of wees in there!) ive said to Darryl so many times, i need a damn bedpan! (i can hear you go ewww!) its so frustrating, and with my sore hip, so hard to get comfy, that once i actually do and start drifting off to sleep, only to have to go to the loo again, which means i have to move, which hurts, i have to wake up, which sux, and yeah, very draining and pretty devestating for this hormonal, emotional, preggy woman right now!

baby has been so incredibly active today, and i think what the cramping is, is baby descending down into my pelvis more, maybe engaging i dont know, i dont remember feeling like this until i was actually in labour with Kaylee, but of course at 34 weeks, its a bit early for baby girl to come just yet! but with baby being so active, my poor puku is taking a bit of a battering! so im just having an easy day, ive done some scrapbooking, eaten some vegetable Sushi (fresh and homemade of course!) and now im drinking chocolate milk!

Kaylee is asleep in bed, and im pretty much thinking of having a wee nap myself! but yes, i do feel rather odd...

Update: 6pm

Midwife has ordered bedrest for at least the next couple of days, although i may do a sneaky and still go out to lunch tomorrow as i planned! But her orders are "dont you do a damn thing, you stay in bed and read or watch tv and let everyone else do it for you, any little change you ring me and its straight to hospital!" bossy bugger she is! so ive just ordered Pizza (Hells) for dinner and back to bed for me, days like these i wish i had a laptop so i could still go online while in bed! will update again tomorrow, but if i forget dont panic, if anything happens and its not on here, Kate will post for me on hers (wont you mate!) so if neither of us say anything, means there is nothing to be said! xxx

101 things to do in 1001 days

I said to Kate today that i had done a list, but wasnt sure on posting it yet, but on my way home, i thought, if i dont post it, apart from myself, who else can share my achievements? because each time i mark one of these off, it will be an acheivement.

Some of the things on my list are very short term goals, some are things that may or not be accomplished by 1001 days, but hey, worth a shot! Dreams are free, and if you dont dream and strive for the best you deserve, life will get dull and really, whats the point in a dull life??

101 things to do in 1001 days

26 September 2006 - 23 June 2009

1. Give Birth
2. Breastfeed! (I KNOW I can do it this time!)
3. Take up the guitar again
4. Take up the Keyboard again
5. Do a makeup/hair/wardrobe course (or get a consultant in)
6. STOP wearing black!
7. Wear clothes that FIT
8. Wear shoes that aren’t men’s!
9. Update my computer skills (do a course)
10. Employ a worker (or 3!)
11. Buy a business
12. Buy a house
13. Tour the South Island in a Maui Campervan
14. Reach 1000 Feedback on trademe!
15. Wear a swimsuit
16. Read Novels again, not just mags!
17. Get creative with my cooking, cook a new meal every week!
18. Have all my photos in scrapbooks
19. Save money for more than a month!
20. Have monthly pedicures
21. Grow my fingernails
22. Learn how to use a hairdryer!
23. Sit down outside with a bottle of Lindaur, a crayfish and my fave music and bliss out with some close friends and NO kids!
24. Have another bbq like the one before our wedding, that rocked!
25. Meet lots of new friends
26. Don’t forget my old friends :)
27. Make contact with some old school friends and try to meet up
28. Try new food
29. Have a degustation dinner at a flash restaurant
30. Go on a bike ride
31. Bungy jump
32. Go White Water rafting
33. Go in an airplane
34. Go to New York at Christmas time
35. Visit Australia
36. Finally have NORMAL iron levels
37. Apart from a mortgage, be debt free
38. Update my first aid certificate
39. Get my full license
40. Do an “evil” Sudoku (can do easy, medium & sometimes hard)
41. Learn how to post photos properly in blogger!
42. Take a Japanese cooking course
43. Take a gourmet cooking course
44. Get a genuine Louis Vuitton Handbag (ouch!)
45. Have several pieces of Trelise Cooper in my wardrobe (and Kaylees too! Haha)
46. Sew clothing to sell
47. Make a patchwork quilt each for both girls
48. Go to a Tarot Card reader
49. Do more research into my family history
50. Walk at least 4 days a week on a regular basis
51. Make homemade chocolates (ive never been able to!)
52. Do Kickfit classes
53. Take a self defense course
54. Go Blonde
55. Write a will
56. Pay off Visa’s
57. Go on a wine trail
58. Learn how to swim properly
59. Have a weeks holiday away with no children, just Darryl & I
60. Learn how to use the camera properly!
61. Go back to Paihia with Darryl and the children, and stay for at least a week
62. Go fishing
63. Snorkel
64. Go to the tip of the North Island
65. Go to the very bottom of the South Island
66. Do a scrapbook page of # 64 & 65 to prove it! (think it would make a very funky page!)
67. Go camping in a National Park
68. Make the library a regular trip
69. Read Shakespeare
70. Go to the Ballet
71. Get our wedding photos done on Canvas
72. Get professional family portraits done once baby is born
73. Go to the Matakana farmers markets
74. Go to the Historical Village in Howick
75. Go to the snow in Winter time
76. Make financial investments in shares
77. Wear Jeans and look HOT!
78. Go to Rainbows End and actually go on the rides!
79. Go to Movie world in Australia
80. Set up an aquarium at home (probably just goldfish!)
81. Buy Tara (our dog) a new collar
82. Buy new baking trays for the oven
83. Do the Harbor Bridge climb
84. Stay in a 5 star Hotel
85. Have a photo wall in our hallway
86. Spend a whole week eating to the ‘Healthy Food Pyramid’ and nothing else (serving sizes/amounts etc)
87. Sponsor another World Vision Child (already sponsor one)
88. Go a whole month Organic – food/products, everything organic, just to see if its any different!
89. Go to Monterey Park (hey its just down the rd! we have NEVER been!)
90. Have clear skin – entirely clear, not a blemish in sight
91. Go to Symphony in the park
92. Subscribe to the Healthy Food Guide (like ive been meaning to for MONTHS!)
93. Make my blog more interesting looking – learn html code
94. Go on a ‘date’ with Darryl once a month for the whole 1001 days (and beyond I hope!)
95. Find a babysitter!
96. Buy a big poofy flash bathrobe with slippers to match, JUST for me!
97. Read a novel from a genre I wouldn’t normally read
98. Stop being afraid of my own creativity in Scrapbooking
99. Go for a walk in the rain with no raincoat or shoes
100. Go to a concert
101. Make a new list!


So there you have it, most of my short term dreams and goals and just because's.

Had a lovely weekend, very busy, but still productive, and had a lovely day today, the sun is just amazing and SO warm! Spent the morning out at Kates and my younger sister (who is with me for this week) entertained the girls while we nattered away about childbirth and scrapbooked, it was GREAT! we are on the lookout for a Monday Nanny, hehe applications welcome! it was so nice even though the kids were there, that we were still able to be uninterrupted.... bliss!

Friday!!

LOVE Fridays! even though Darryl usually works 6 day weeks, Friday just always feels so relaxed, Friday nights and cruisy, the messy house doesn't matter, just relaxing and I love it!

I'm a little guttered, I brought a gorgeous top off a Maternity website, it arrived today (was going to wear it to Darryls mums 60th on Saturday next week) and I LOVE this top, its even nicer than I thought it would be, lol probably because its NOT BLACK and everything I have right now is black! But its a halter neck, and anyone who knows me knows, well, I have lovely big boobies! (have gone up to at LEAST an F cup since being pregnant! Have to go for another fitting in a couple of weeks!!) anyway, lets just say the cross over bits from the halter that go over my boobies, don't exactly cover them too well... Can anyone say Anna Nicole??? haha THATS what it looks like, I LOVE the top, and think it looks kind of hot (don't need a bra as it holds them up) but wayyyy to revealing for anything that a Mummy does, or for the poor people that this Mummy tends to be around for social occasions (might cause a few heart attacks you see! or minor strokes, or just general family slutty gossip!) ahhh so I'm in two minds with what to do with it, do I send it back and get my money back (there is that option) or does it look too bad wearing a halter style top with another top underneath? (if that makes sense?) because I REALLY like this top!! I'm so pissed that my boobs are just too big for it! I don't wanna send it back! haha oh and BTW its 2 sizes smaller than a top I would have usually brought, and it does fit wonderfully! If I had smaller boobs it would be just perfect! BUGGER!

so now I have to find something new to wear next Saturday, *sigh* what a poo!

Nothing too exciting going on here really, just making the most of what little alone time I have left with my beautiful girl, she just cracks me up every day, however she has started smacking if she doesn't get her own way... hmmmm not too sure how to deal with that one, pulling her hand away and saying 'that is naughty we do not smack" then distraction, seems to be working for now!

busy weekend ahead, all going to plan we will be doing a bit of birthday present shopping (my nephew turned 4 last week) and then off to see Darryls cousin who had her baby girl recently, then Sunday Darryl is away all day on a car cruise, stopping in Morrinsville at Grandmas house to pick up my sister Adele who is spending the school holidays up with us, personal live in Nanny (she will be getting paid) NICE! I'm looking forward to it! She wont be a slave to us though, hehe, she used to live with us, so has a lot of friends up here that she has kept in touch with, she will be going out at nights, and I'm sure during some days too, but it will be nice to have an extra hand around the place! Sunday I will be going to Daniels (my nephew) birthday party with Kaylee, I have a bit of a busy week ahead too I think! Monday morning we are catching up with Kate, Natalia and Amelia, with my sister up it means Kate and I will hopefully be able to sit and relax and goss (and maybe scrapbook!) and my sister can keep the girls occupied, hopefully its a nice day and we can send them to the park or something! Tuesday I have a Coffee Group at a cafe local to me (its actually where I had my shit wedding reception lol they have new owners now and apparently its beautiful!), and Thursday Kaylee, Adele and I are meeting up with my SIL and niece and another lady due around the same time as me that I haven't met yet, for lunch or brunch (hasn't been decided yet!)

My midwife came on Wednesday, everything is lovely and normal, which is nice to know! haha BP is at my lowest ever (its always been normal and still is, just lower than my normal, if that makes sense!) which I think shows how at ease I am right now, no stress at all in my life, its nice! I know in a few weeks when baby comes that will change, feeding issues, sleeping issues etc all have to be learnt again! so my MW will come again in a fortnight, and then weekly from then on with 1 week off first as she is back off overseas! Lucky thing! so in that week I will meet her back up if we do so need her, but I don't think baby will be prem at all. Better not be, I still have things to do! My MW is very relaxed, which I think relaxes me, she's a total contrast to my first mw (that I had with Kaylee) where everything was done by the book, very structured, you talked about the basics of your pregnancy and did a birthplan and that was it, lol I'm sure the mw I have now knows my life story and I know hers! Not to mention the fact that I bumped into her at the shops last weekend and we can stand gossiping for ages! Definitely makes me feel that I have made the right decision with her! The MW I had with Kaylee didn't actually attend Kaylees birth, it was her weekend off, my mw this time around doesn't have weekends off as such, she has her days off around the days that babies come! Like I say very cruisy and relaxed, which brings me on to my "birth plan" for lack of a better way to describe it, because to be honest it isn't a plan at all!

I had all these ideas when I got pregnant this time around, about what I DIDN'T want, Kaylees birth was so hard for me, and by the time I realised that it affected me more deeply than I imagined, it was too late, feeding issues, Post natal depression, depression while in late stages of pregnancy, all tied in together, and I really wasn't a happy chappy, I look back at the photos of me with Kaylee just after birth, or the photos of me while still pregnant, and I look so pale, and so down and so passionless, I compare them to photos of me now, albeit I don't take the best photos! But I'm such a different person, in my looks, in my personality, in my state of mind, I didn't like me then, I thought I did, but there were always "but...." In those sentences I liked this but I didn't like that, I liked this idea, but this stopped me from doing it, I didn't trust my own instincts, I didn't trust my own thoughts and ideas. I still have certain people put down some of the choices I made when Kaylee was born, and I used to feel as guilty as hell, but I realise now, if I had not of made those choices, I cant say where I would be right now, as much as having Kaylee was one of the best days of my life, it started something very grey for me too, something very lonely, I know now that I made the best choices for my whole family, and god help anyone who tells me otherwise, I don't listen to ANYONE who trys to tell me (of course if I ask for opinions or help its different!) how to look after my family, I know I do a fantastic job, I have a beautiful child to show for it, she's amazing, so intelligent and funny, and naughty and cheeky, and well behaved and scary, all at once, no bastard can tell me that I haven't done a good job with her. Now haha I got sidetracked! Where was I going with this!!!! Oh yes, "birthplan"

we have decided that whatever happens, will happen, where-ever it happens we will decide on the day, pretty cruisy aye! haha I will book into North Shore Hospital, and if on the day I decide that I want to go to hospital, then we will, however if I want to stay home, then my MW will come to me and we will do it all at home, I'm right inbetween 2 hospitals, so if things get too bad we will call an ambulance and go to the hospital. There are no strict plans in place, and we wont be putting any strict plans down, if I need drugs, I will have them, if I don't need or want them, then I wont! The ONLY thing that is put down as strict is Vitamin K, baby (as Kaylee did) will Definitely be getting that, that's our choice and our choice only, I don't care about what anyone else did or didn't do, but its what we think is best for our family. But yes at the moment, the further along with this pregnancy I get, the more comfortable I am with my body, and my mind, and the ability I will have to cope, and the more comfortable I am with having this baby at home. And its nice that my MW is relaxed either way too, she only lives 5min away from me so it will be no biggie to her at all coming here first. She wrote in her notes on Wednesday under the bit where it says where have you booked in she put "hospital or home" lol she did joke that we don't want baby born in an ambulance, and I told her Kates story (the placenta fascinated her when I told her about it Kate, ill have to get you to email me the pics again so I can show her, if its ok with you of course!) lol but hey que sera sera!

Have a lovely weekend people! And hey, if you have a wine, have another one for me!

cheers!

Just Cruisin!

Today has been just a lovely cruisy day at home, i even got some scrapbooking done! hows that for a mini miracle! haha i havent actually done my hair at all today, and Kaylee is still in her PJs, but it was nice to BLOB and not have any plans, i know yesterday i said i would go to the beach maybe, but it was just too windy today, hopefully once the weather warms up taking Kaylee to the beach will be a common thing, she just loves it!

33 weeks along tomorrow, wow, 7 weeks until the big DD! IF i make it to my due date! (haha) but chances are i will definatly see my due date in this time! Midwife pops in a gain tomorrow, so it will be nice to have another gassbag and checkup on baby! looking at the pics of me pregnant with Kaylee, i look like im carrying a lot different this time around, popped out right in front. Darryl thinks i look more pronounced (for lack of a better word!) because im smaller this time around, so baby doesnt have a shitload of room to move around, i think its because my placenta is anterior too, so im carrying everything right out front. But whatever it is, its still pretty cool, im really enjoying this last trimester of being pregnant.

Got heaps of my auctions closing on Trademe tonight, so thats really cool, most have bids, so im planning on putting the money onto a layby i have for breastpump and steriliser, so more things to cross of my lists!

bit late with dinner tonight, have eye fillet steak defrosting, i think with mashed potato and steamed veggies it should make a nice meal, i still have my massive orange craving, lol i have Darryl stopping at the fruit shop to get me some more! i just cannot get enough! yesterday i had a freshly squeezed orange/pineapple/lemon juice at Tank juicebar, then i came home and altogether had 5 oranges and 2 grapefruit throughout the course of the day!

backpack is still on the washing line btw! ;0

FRUSTRATING!

is how i would describe my email situation at the moment, SO DAMN FRUSTRATING! i KNOW that i have emails just waiting to pop into my inbox, i even sent one to myself this morning (from my other email account) and that still hasnt arrived! its making it really hard to trade on Trademe as im sure people think that im not making contact or paying them, when really i just havent had their emails!! (i get a bit paranoid like that! i like to keep my nice feedback!)

anyway, had a nice easy day today, went out to St Lukes, met up with Kate, Amelia and Natalia, had a nice morning tea and a chat and a wander around some of the shops, i dont think we can do them all anymore, not like pre-children! haha hours of shopping! never again! i got Kaylee a few things to put away for Christmas and for when the new bub arrives, so they are all put away for a couple of months, but im pretty broke at the moment, have spent WAY too much on trademe recently! haha. Both older girls got grizzly at around the same time (lunch time, what do ya know! haha) so we parted ways, and my darling daughter screamed all the way home in the car! man it drove me mental!

She did however sleep for over 3 hours, NICE! i got a bit of research done (just for things to do with my coffee group) had a peaceful lunch and relaxed for most of the arvo while Kaylee slept! was nice! Darryl got home early and we all went for a walk down to the park, even Tara (our dog) was nice to get out as a family, Darryl usually takes Kaylee on his own while i get dinner prepared, but i thought i would go for a walk too, nice to get some fresh air, albiet damn cold!

Have nothing planned for tomorrow, which is nice, might even think about (if its not windy or raining!) taking Kaylee out to the beach for a play, im sure she would love it! there is a lot to do around here if i put my mind to it, i just have to keep my thinking cap on and keep active for my daughters sake really, she loves being stimulated, learning and doing new things, as her mother its my job to provide all that for her, some days i just get lazy!!!

Terrible!

Is my spelling and grammer, lmao, so sorry! your the ones who have to read it! ive just been going back some posts, having a read of my life (as you do) and i realised that im pretty bad at getting my sentences straight..... ahhh well, such is me! :)

Had a busy weekend, I overdid it on Saturday and waterblasted the back cobblestones and picnic table, did a bit of lawnmowing too, but Darryl took over and did the rest of the mowing, apparently, im not that good at it! HA! thats ok, means i never have to do it again (last time i mowed lawns was when i was pregnant with Kaylee, must be a nesting thing! the back gardens are done, and our entertainment area now looks lovely and clean and tidy! cant wait for BBQ season! Blogger BBQ anyone! haha, i have the room! but SHIT i was sore last night! it really took it out of me! then i had to tidy and clean the house, and then had visitors for dinner (yeah, REALLY overdid it last night!) thank god Darryl cooked (Lasagne YUM!) and our visitors didnt stay too late, so straight to bed to read for me, nice!

This morning after a sleep-in i just spent the morning pottering around the house, i was going to go out and finally get these damn curtains for our bedroom, but i decided i was too tired and sore to be bothered! lmao, maybe next weekend! then i had a few people over for a "booklook" basically a Tupperware party but kids books, was great to see Emily, Kate and Natalia (shes just so beautiful!) again, and a couple of other friends came along, unfortunatly several people chose not to make it, but hey, you always get that at these things! could say something about a couple of people there.... but hmmm... you never know whos reading!!! Nutters.... but im a kids book freak, i LOVE the idea of my child reading and learning with the help of books, i find it sad when i come across children whos parents done find the time to read to them. it teaches so much! (ive always been a bookworm!)

now i have easy dinner in the oven for Kaylee, and Darryl and I are trying to decide what to have... honey chicken on spicy noodles Darryl wants... im happy to order a Pizza.... haha but of course i know what i will feel better after... so cooking i will do!

Heaps of my things are selling on TM, and in my head i have already spent the money! terrible really, there isnt too much more that i need, so its quite nice to get things i want now, and have little treats for me too, love it!

just thought i would quickly mention too, im having a bit of email trouble, not sure if its an xtra thing, or an internet thing, but im having emails come through not in 'real time' as such, some emails are coming hours or even days late, so im not sure whats going on, if i dont reply, it doesnt mean i am ignoring you!!! its real frustrating though, so i hope whatever it is sorts its shit out real soon!

Happy!

Kate mentioned on a comment recently that I seem the happiest now, than from when she first met me, so around about 3.5years, I have spent some time just wondering why that is, a lot goes on in my life that I don’t put on here, nothing good, nothing bad, just stuff. And really nothing matters at the moment, I don’t care about the trivial things in the world, I don’t care about my weight (of course I love seeing the scales go down and I still try to remain as healthy as I possibly can – without obsessing) and I have realized that I DO MATTER! The things I do, DO COUNT! Im not only a Wife and Mother, but I am my own person too, even though I am things to other people, I can be something to myself as well. And finally, this has all clicked into place, and its made me happier! Has it made me a better person? Who knows? Maybe, maybe not, im sure I could find people to argue both sides! (haha!) im enjoying living day by day, im enjoying the sunshine, im enjoying just being alive, being free to do whatever I want, I mean really, who do I have to answer to? Im an adult, I make my own decisions, my own destiny. By being happy, it means my family are happy, Kaylee is happy, Darryl is happy, its a joy to be alive.

I have ‘friends’ who everything is just so damn onesided, I am always the one contacting them, inviting them, taking care of them, a wee while ago I thought, hmmm, I wonder what would happen if I stopped contacting/ringing/texting, would they give a shit about me? Would they be wondering how I was doing? And no, I haven’t heard from them. But im sure I will, when they want something, or someone to help them, but hmmmm maybe just maybe I will be busy…..

I have to look after ME and YOU (YES YOU!) have to look after YOU too! I read a lot of blogs (still adding to my sidebar, ran out of time when I was doing it the other day) and find more daily when others email me links, or new people leave comments (Hi everyone! Don’t be shy! Leave a comment and say HI!) and a lot of you out there (and NO this isn’t directed at anyone in particular!) have let yourselves go! Why? Why are you not your own priority anymore?? It doesn’t have to cost money to look nice, or to feel nice and by god it helps your self esteem when you do look and feel nice, TREAT yourselves! YOU DO DESERVE IT! STOP making damn excuses for your life the way it is, if things are crap in whatever you are doing, only YOU can change that! Small steps towards big goals people!

Because im happy, because I care about you, and because I want you to be happy too.

Peace out

32 weeks!

Belly pic time! excuse the BAD hair, bad clothes and bad lighting! lmao, this was taken late last night and i couldnt be bothered making my hair tidy! haha

The other pic is Me and Kaylee back in December at my Grandfathers 80th birthday, i didnt realise how noticable my weight loss (of course ive noticed in clothing and with Darryl telling me i have no arse!) really was, you can really see it in my face....... oh dear!


And for the life of me i have NO idea how to get the pictures where i want them in Blogger, lol how do i get the pictures inside my paragraphs! (if that makes sense!) pain in the arse!

I have to BRAG!

i cant really brag about my girl too much in 'real life' (but i do!) lol as with certain friends, they think im comparing or saying my child is better than yours (which im not, im just SO proud of my baby girl!) but im SO excited i had to tell you! :)

Kaylee has known how to count to 10 for a wee while now, which has been great, but we just thought it was repitition (us doing it with her over and over again) which im sure has helped a lot, BUT this morning in bed with her reading books we got to a counting book (The Tadpole one Kate, she LOVES it!) and she loves pointing to the numbers and telling me what it is, but of course its always in order either from 1-10 or 10-1, today i skipped a couple of pages, and she still got the number right, i went randomly through the book pointing at the numbers and getting me to tell her what it was, no order at all to my page flicking system, and she got every damn number right! i was SO blown away by it! so i pointed to a few numbers in other places, she still got them right! she actually KNOWS the numbers, im so excited! lol may be a small thing for some, but this is HUGE for me! and i just had to share!

i have Maia today (Neice) so trying to get her and Kaylee into bed for their afternoon sleeps, man what a mission! Kaylee has trashed her room, Maia is in our room and i checked on her only to find she was going though my drawers! little monkey! they spent ages chatting to each other through their doors, and finally, its silent! lets hope it lasts!!!!!

oh oh and im real excited! got the Curtain Supermarket brochure in the mail, and there are curtains that we just love! so hopefully we will pop in on Saturday and get new curtains, means our room is finished and prepared for baby girl (apart from a few photos maybe to go up!) another thing off the list! yay!

its a beautiful day today! sun is shining, birds are singing! our neighbours have a Kowhai Tree, just a small one, but its out in flower at the moment, and the Tuis are back singing, its just beautiful, i stand at my kitchen watching them, lol im sure the neighbours think im some kind of weirdo perve! ahhhh well! :)

proper post under this list :)

Copy and paste the list and bold what you have done.... Just bold the things you have accomplished in your life:

1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with wild dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said "I love you" and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Eaten fugu (pufferfish)
89. Had a one-night stand
90. Gone to Thailand
91. Bought a house
92. Been in a combat zone
93. Buried one/both of your parents
94. Been on a cruise ship
95. Spoken more than one language fluently
96. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show
97. Raised children
98. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Written articles for a major publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111.Riden a bike
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

Life is S L O W .......

And I LOVE IT!

Because I know in several weeks time I would have WISHED like anything that I had of relaxed these last few weeks, and regretted not doing it, so do I feel guilty for not doing much? NUP!

Im finding bits and pieces to do with Kaylee, we tend to spend ages on the floor (yeah, ouch!) colouring in, or doing puzzles, playdough, or flash cards, today's activity consisted of tidying up the lounge, lmao, Kaylee did it all on her own, I just told her what to do! few more months of this and I will have a housekeeper all ready and waiting! lol she really enjoyed it, and every time she put something away would clap and cheer and say "We did it! yay!" ahhh mean mummy making my 2 yr old do housework! Kaylee just loves feeling included, as long as she has her own little job (like in the bathroom the other day, I was washing the windows and basin, and Kaylee had her own cloth washing the tiles around the bath) she is happy, and 'just like mummy!'

We had a pleasant weekend, Darryl worked Saturday so Kaylee and I went to the in-laws farm for a visit, as much as it was pissing down and horrible weather, it was nice to get out of the house, my SIL was there with her 2 kids and the 3 kids played, MIL and I went and got Pizza for lunch, just nice and relaxed. well... kind of.... hehe

Darryl finished work around 2.30ish so we met him back at home and went out to Mitre-10-Mega, we were on a lawnmower mission, we have had everyone's hand me down lawnmowers since we met, (Darryl just fixed them up and they worked not a prob!) and its been GREAT not having to buy one, but since the last one went "nunga nunga nunga CLUNK pssssss" the next one we got loaned, just SUCKED, and I really got sick of the useless lawnmower person that we were paying $20 a time for, so I made an executive decision and Lawnmower shopping we did go! SHIT those things are expensive! holy poos! we were looking at the wrong end at the start and gawking at the farkin $1800 for a lawnmower! we didnt like much of what we saw at Mitre-10-mega in the end, (price wise!) so went into the cafe there for a hotchoc and pottered around collecting small bits and pieces that we needed. I bumped into someone I knew at the checkouts too, just as Kaylees having a tanty (lasted about 15min!!!!!) because she didnt want to go back in her pushchair, and she had to, no questions asked! so unfortunately I couldnt talk long, im sure my face was burning, lovely daughter!

Then onto Mitre-10 (not mega, hehe) to see if they had anything different in the lawnmower section, you wouldnt think so being the same business, but they did! even all the prices were different! so we found something suitable at a more reasonable price, but of course, its raining, and the lawns are still, as yet, unmown (GRRR!)

im finding at the moment, that maybe that "nesting" instinct is kicking in, i cant remember having it with Kaylee (I think where i lived had something to do with it, as did my emotional state of mind), so its all a bit new to me, especially how emotional i get at little things that need doing, just seems so overwhelming! i think i will feel SO much better once the back yard is cleaned up, then i can start using it again and feel nice about going out the back! just need fine weather to do it in though unfortunatly!

Sunday we all woke up early, and decided instead of lying around in bed watching What Now (hehe) we might as well do something, so we went into Westfield Henderson and did some more shopping, i brought my first Maternity Bra this pregnancy (have been using the ones from Kaylee, SUCH the wrong size!) but what cracked me up, is that i dont consider myself to be THAT BIG (ive seen a lot bigger pregnant woman out there!) but i got the BIGGEST maternity bra in the shop! Darryl was amazed at that, i was a bit too, um hellooooo bigger ladies get pregnant too! but now i have a general idea of what size i SHOULD be wearing lol, one bra shop i went into didnt even sell maternity bras.... weird....! we also found a gorgeous wee outfit for baby, will probably use it as her "coming home" outfit, we have Kaylees first outfit all kept in her "special box" along with a NZ Herald from the same day as her birth and also the Herald where Kaylees (and Amelias! and Avas! hehe love having friends with babies exactly the same age!) birth announcement is in, and other Kaylee memorabilia that we keep adding to it! so we will have a "special box" for baby too, as an adult i love looking through my old baby books, first school books, drawings, etc, and these boxes will be gifts for our girls on their 21st birthdays, to hopefully show to their children too. but yes, got a very sweet outfit for baby, one more tick off the list!

My Sister (Adele - 17) is coming to stay with me for the holidays, she hasnt said how long she will be up for, but it will be great to have her, shes off to Uni next year (either Palmerston North or Christchurch) so it will be the last holidays for a while that she can spend with us, we have said to her that we will pay her to be our housebitch for a week, lol just to get out and do things with Kaylee that im finding hard to do and help me with cleaning etc around the house, it will be nice to have a hand! My Mum and other sister (Belinda - 14) are coming to stay for a few days as well, prob at the end of the first week, one last catch up with Belinda too, as she will be going to live with my Father at the end of the school holidays down in Wellington. so im very much looking foward to having them all come to stay, i know Kaylee LOVES the attention she gets! VERY spoilt! its just great! works out VERY well actually as Darryls mums surprise birthday is on the 30th and we were all worried about babysitters for Kaylee and my neice and nephew, the person we had in mind hadnt got back to us yet, Mum and Belinda have kindly volunteered, for FREE! hehe such a weight off my shoulders knowing that they wont have any probs with the kids and will be able to feed them and get them into bed not a problem!

Im off shortly to Neurolink to have my hips hopefully fixed (put back into place), i cannot wait for the aromatherapy massage afterwards, just devine! and i also cannot wait for the good nights sleep i will be getting tonight, hot bubble bath and bed i think, so a bit of a pamper afternoon ahead for me! cant wait!

Look Mummy, i dressed myself!

LMAO, my VERY stylie child :) Summer dress (refuses a cardy or jumper!) sneakers and a beanie... hmmm new High St Fashion maybe?????

im in a naughty mood, really craving sweet stuff, so have made chocolate fudge (yes again... sad really, twice in a month!) and chocolate truffles, ohhhh yummmmm, but i feel SO bad now for making them, because i know now that i have made them, someones got to eat them, and, well, the baby made me do it :)

31 weeks, can you believe that? i know i say that every week, but time is just flying, i ordered a carrycot for my buggy and a kiddyboard to go on the back of it (for Kaylee to stand on while im pushing) today, so they will arrive the start of October, which will be good to have! ive been busy writing a shopping list of things i need too, nappies, wipes, muslin clothes (god knows where they have gone, i had tonnes!) baby bath wash (hmmm nothing smells better than a freshly bathed baby!), curash powder, bottom balms, nipple creams, breast pads, sanitary pads, the list seems endless! whyyy arent i more organised this time!

ive been busy washing windows today, with little miss tutu fingers they get marked, a lot! and hopefully this weekend and next weekend we will spend outside, spraying weeds, gardening, waterblasting, house washing, then its all done and i will be just a little less grumpy!! i know Darryl is going to spend Saturday installing security grills for our BILs new factory, but as long as he gets those DAMN weeds sprayed and the crap taken to the dump, i will be happy!

boring reading today aye!! to be honest we are keeping life nice and cruisy, its good, but like i say, bit boring! im starting to get a bit tired in the afternoons, and tend to just blob and do not much, or lie down and do a Sudoku puzzle, just rest and relax, and its really quite nice! i find that even vacuuming the house tires me out, im exhausted at the end of it! but im happy as long as i get a wee bit done at a time, feels like i havent done NOTHING all day!

oh yeah, and the backpack is STILL on the washing line..... lol

Daddy and Kaylee, washing the car

Holy Moly..... 2 year olds!!

Someone please explain to me why it is that one day they can be just amazing wee creatures, real placid, lovely, inquisitive, helpful, cheerful, happy, then the next day, TOTALLY OPPOSITE! So yes, Kaylee is in her bedroom screaming, and i have come online for some "peace" while eating the Luxury Flake that Darryl had "hid" away from me, huh, not very well aye! if i could have a stiff rum right now i blardy would i tell you!!

today started at 3.45am, Kaylee woke up screaming, must of been nightmares, we finally got her settled, and she woke up again at 6.15am, and has been up and awake since, nice... i got out of the shower later on this morning and found her with my lipstick, EVERYWHERE! its something she knows she not allowed, so tried to hide it, under my damn bed! over her pjs (thank god i hadnt dressed her yet!) face, in her hair, on her hands, up her nails... yeah... nice... not! thank god she didnt get it on the carpet, its only on the valance, thats ok, i can handle that. but MAN, so defiant, EVERYTHING is "NO!" or "DONT WANT IT!" ive lost track of the amount of tantys that have been had today, the amount of activities i set up to do with her that have been pushed onto the floor because "dont want to!" she had better wake up in a good mood i tell you, otherwise i will be packing her barbie bag and sending her on her way!!!

Yesterday however was great! i looked after my neice Maia, and they had a great time, we went out to chipmunks in the morning, the girls played and i sat back with a hot chocolate and magazine, was lovely! we came home and after lunch they had a little play then both down for a sleep, when they woke we went outside and rode bikes (ok they did, i watched!) and drew on the concrete with chalk, they had a big bubble bath and then dinner until Maias Dad collected her at around 6.30ish, it was busy and full on, but nice, and i got the housework done, 4 loads of washing and the vacuuming... stark contrast to today where i havent got a damn thing done at all!!!!!

Midwife came today for a visit, baby has moved to my right side now, hence the pain in my right hip, shes really pushing into it... nice! i will go to Neurolink soon hopefully (as soon as Darryl can get me the appt!) which will help, but really its just something i have to put up with for the next however long im pregnant for, not nice! baby is growing nicely, but the midwife did say, i dont think you will have a big baby, not like Kaylee, (8pd7 2 weeks early) but hey, we wont know until i push her out aye!

This is a bit of a downer post isnt it!?!, to be honest, im feeling GREAT! apart from the pain in my hip, mentally and physically i feel fantastic! (apparently i look pretty damn good too... lmao!) i look back to how i was at this stage when pregnant with Kaylee, and my state of mind was so different, we were nervous of the unknown, now we are like, well, shit, we did it before, we can do it again! at least we know what we can expect this time, know where to get help this time, know WHEN to get help this time (if needed), and we have such a better support network this time too, it all helps!


RIP - Steve Irwin, The Crocodile Hunter - he will be missed by many, and i really feel for his family right now. :(

Family weekend

We had a really lovely family weekend, something we havent had in a long time, Darryl only did one job yesterday (couple of hours, compared to all day Saturday usually) then we went out to Albany for a look around, we are SUCH impulse buyers and got Kaylee a cool dolls pram, very sweet and she just loves it, i really wanted to pick up my slow cooker from Noel Leamings which i got through flybuys, BUT they dont stock them (that type), could get them in, BUT its not listed as a flybuys pressie, so they wont do it! EVEN though i have the voucher for it! lol so a phone call will be made tomorrow i think to flybuys to sort it out! Then out to Drury we went to pick up our $30 change table, it is VERY cool, a lot nicer than we expected, only a couple of years old!!! so we were rapt at that, we then came home and rearranged our bedroom, set up the cot, bassinet, change table, and have it all ready and waiting now! very cool!

Then today, Darryl had a sleep in, well deserved i might add! i cooked a big breakfast, bacon, eggs, baked beans (yuck, not for me!), toast, juice, was nice to have brekky as a family for the first time in a long time! Darryl and Kaylee then went outside and washed his car (as you can see by the pics, Kaylee had a great time!) we then got Kaylee redressed and went out to Long Bay for a play on the beach and lunch, it was so beautiful out there, lunch was a flop, cant say we will ever go back there unless someone else is paying for it, really dissapointing as i wanted a really nice lunch for Darryl, we would of been better off getting fish and chips and sitting on the beach eating them! lol ahhhh well, never mind! then out to Darryls parents to do the family thing for a bit there and on to Darryls sisters (shes sick at the moment, not nice) to see how they were doing, i offered to have Maia tomorrow (same age as Kaylee) so im trying to work out whether i should take them to chipmunks (indoor playground at Albany) or if its a nice enough day take them to Mairangi Bay Park (all enclosed) so they can ride their bikes, might see what the weather does tomorrow i think!

not too much else to report really, feeling fine, still really sore, waddling like a duck, nothing new there! lol just slowly getting prepared and ready, 66 days to go....... :D

Cant get blogger to load pics for some reason, so will try again tomorrow :)

In the Summer time, when the weather is fine....

lol one of the neighbours has the stereo cranked, must have a new reggae CD or something, sounds VERY cool, lovely and summery and im boogying around the house! (ok, im hobbling, my hips are killing me! but its a hobble kind of boogie!)

First day of Spring! very cool! its quite overcast today, but still a really pleasant temperature, makes for a nice day, pity i have a bad hair day and have woken up with crap zits, ahhh well, cant win em all! but hey, at least i can get all the washing done!

i had all these things to talk about, so i got Kaylee into bed and settled and sat down on the computer, and drawn a mind blank! lmao

Fathers Day on Sunday, of course, we have planned a lovely family day, cooked breakfast, late lunch at a restaurant (just Darryl, Kaylee and myself) and then go up to Darryls parents for afternoon tea, ahhh love it! im very much looking foward to just spending time together, at the moment its a bit of a rare occurance because of all the going ons, we will have to factor in going out to South Auckland at some stage in the weekend to pick up the change table, and the weeds around our house are absolutly desperate for a spray, we have such a Westie house at the moment (no offence westies! im generalising!) clutter EVERYWHERE outside, its driving me mental! every time Darryl brings something else home i do my nana! lol here i am complaining about the backpack on the neighbours washing line, shit, i wonder what the other neighbours say about our damn mess right now! i tell you what, if it was stuff i could lift and move, then i would, but its all heavy and metal (just have to have a trip to the recyclers) there is no way im going near weed killer right now. i told Darryl im happy to do the waterblasting, lol thats fun, but all the heavy/chemical stuff, baby thats up to you! just DO it!

arghhhh Darryl just rang me, grrr i could slap him sometimes! (love you hun!) hes driven up somebodys arse and rooted the front of his Ute.... his fault of course, not paying attention, but GRRRR!!! thank god for insurance, we will just let them sort it out! i wonder how much this is going to cost us though (no claims bonus, excess fee etc - being a business vehicle, grrr!)

and the sad thing is, all i can think about is immmm hungry! lmao, but i have NO idea what i feel like, eggs on toast appeals, but we have no bread! hmmm maybe a cheese and tomato omelette... yummmmm

i REALLY feel like chocolate... but we have none, and really im sure baby would appreciate something more substantial!

and really after all of this blabber it shows that i actually cant remember what i really wanted to say, lol so just take this one as a babble post!

until next time!