Tin Ass Carla!!

thats what i feel like today, SUCH a tin ass! lol usually its Darryl who gets the freebies, the cheap things, the bargains, today its been me!! i should really be working (have a few things to research for the business) i have all relevant pages up on the screen, i just keep surfing blogs and trademe instead! lmao!

ok this morning i used the "buy now" on a change table for $30!!! usually they go for (that type) over $100! but the person was new to TM and didnt know what it would fetch, hehe yay for me! so we will go and pick that up on the weekend, considering i was thinking about $200 for a wooden one (this isnt wooden, but it will do!) $30 rocks! it does have some damage on the change pad, BUT i just accepted a fixed price offer on a gorgeous change pad, reserve was $35, i accepted the offer of $26, they retail for well over $60! and its immaculate and hardly been used! SCORE! so that is one more thing to get to tick off my list!so really, if you think about it, all up its $56 for a change table that will look lovely and should of cost me well over $100! veryyyyy happy!

30 Weeks today :) so very exciting! will try to get Darryl to take pics tonight, all depending on how late he gets home.

Back on July 31 i posted that the neighbours (remember the washing on the line going green for over 6 weeks?!) had a backpack on the washing line for over 2 weeks, well, guess what, its still there! the world is FULL of rather odd people! damn i hope they dont read this! (well hey, you never know!) but if they are, HI!! come over for a cuppa tea! i dont bite!

i have a confession, today, i have not stopped eating, lol and i havent really eaten anything healthy either, apart from a banana and a couple of oranges, i have had, wait for it, nearly 2L of chocolate milk (yes you did read that right!) a mince and cheese pie (and now i remember why i dont usually eat those!) chocolate yoghurt and a few timtams, triple choc fudge of course! now i dont know about you, but i blame baby, lol must be food that she is craving, yes unborn child, i blame you! lmao, oh and is it a contradiction that ive just brought the new Healthy Food Guide today too??? ahhhh dumb arse! i will SO pay tonight when im all bloated and bluch.

HUGE congratulations to A Mummy Losing It and Jodi on the births of their daughters, VERY cool! cant wait to see pics!!!! WELL DONE to you both!

Happy Trails..... :)

Pleasant times :)

its been a lovely past couple of days really, even though Darryl wasnt home all weekend (worked Saturday, went Drag Racing Sunday, he came 2nd, was very happy!) i have just listened to my body, taken my time doing things, relaxed a lot and enjoyed being a Mama and being pregnant, its been pretty cool, Darryl brought a Stethascope (sp?) on the weekend and we are pretty sure we can hear baby inside (HB etc) but it may be my pulse... who knows, its pretty cool anyway! Nearly 30 weeks along, and i feel so unorganised, there is still so much i need to get, and so much i want to get (2 different things, lol im working on the NEEDS first!) so many clothes to wash, things to set up etc. hey we will get there, realistically we have at least 7 weeks to go, but could go as long as 12 weeks to go, so still plenty of time, but i do get slower day by day! lmao

im very much looking foward to going into Labor this time, looking foward to giving birth and remembering it (i dont remember very much from Kaylee) looking foward to being allowed to listen to my body, and being the person in charge of what i want to do and how i want to do it, but in saying that i will do whatever it takes to get this baby out happy and healthy, if i need a C-Section, so be it, if i need an epidural, so be it, if i need full intervention like last time, hey, i know what i get at the end, and it is ALL worth it. i will take whatever is thrown at me and work with it, we shall see what happens! ultimatly things going well i want a waterbirth, that was the plan with Kaylee, but never eventuated (oncall MW had never done one before, which i didnt find out until i was in the hospital!) as much as im not one for swimming, i love a bath, i love the way i feel soothed in the water, esp around period time, or when i have an achey back, LOVE the water! but like i say, what will be, will be!

Emily came for a visit on Sunday afternoon, was very lovely to finally meet her, it has been talked about enough! and we just "clicked" and talked and talked, its cool meeting someone from online, esp one you have been emailing heaps, i liked the fact that (because sometimes you just cant tell in an email!) i havent offended her yet! lol god knows i offend a lot of people, unintentionally of course, i just have MAJOR foot in mouth disease! and that she interprets my emails the way i mean them (does that make sense??) basically we think a like (i think!) and that works well, lol so yeah, talk talk talk, was very cool, and we didnt eat THAT much fudge and timtams! lmao!

We just had a lazy dinner last night, Darryl went and got Roast, which our local one rocks, lots of peas and carrots and they STEAM roast their potatos, pumpkin and Kumera, most places deep fry roast, icky yuck. so it was nice not having to cook! i just had a voucher arrive in the mail, i cashed in some Fly Buy points (LOVE my flybuys!) and we are getting a 6L Russell Hobbs Slow Cooker, will be very cool esp once baby arrives, just chuck some meat in the cooker in the morning, sauces, veggies etc, by evening, dinner is done! easy! esp when i can buy the cheaper cuts and they will be just perfect! ($3 steaks rather than $8 steaks, what a difference to our bill that will make!) cant wait to get it and try it out! Darryl has to go and get it though as the card is in his name.

Im typing this and trying to settle Kaylee into bed for a sleep, we had a very busy day today and i would of thought that she would be tired, im determined that she WILL have a sleep, i need a rest too! lol im buggered! we went to the Zoo and met up with Kate, Amelia and Natalia, was nice to have a goss and a walk outside in the sunshine, beautiful day out there, seemed a shame not to do anything! unfortunatly Kaylee thought it a great idea to SCREAM all the way home, for no reason, i stopped at the fruit shop on the way home and just left her screaming in the car (its in full view of where i was shopping, im not THAT bad a mum!) by the time i got back she had calmed down (just a tanty of course! she wanted something i wasnt going to give her!) but now she just wont have a nap! dammit!

ahhh the joys of 2 year olds! lmao

the problem is she is stubborn like her Mama!! :D

Something to think about....

Are you who you say you are??

I mean think about it, we are all online, all hiding behind our computer screens, all anonymous really to the outside world, how do we know you are legit??

Just something that popped into my head last night in bed, was thinking about how many people out there online are attention seekers, freaks, or predators, and that’s a wee bit scary, especially when if you don’t know who you are reading (i.e havent met them personally or know them through someone else – like I know a lot of you) if you didn’t know me through other people or personally, would you think I was legit?

Ive been sucked in before, and it was at a weak time for me, I was on Anti Depressants and I was feeling damn shit. Now I have huge self confidence, no sign of depression returning (fingers crossed!) and I couldn’t give a flying fuck what others think of me, and im quite happy to take things with a grain of salt.

But are we too trusting of other peoples stories??

And does it really matter anyway?

At the end of the day it’s a computer and we can turn it off, ignore those who we don’t want to associate with online (not saying its any of you!) but there are some sensitive people out there where words online can hurt their already fragile soul. I know, i have been there, and when you are at a weak point, even the smallest comments are insensitive and can hurt.

Then there are some wierdos :)

Just thinking out loud really, have a great day!

xxx

Lazy days :)

I realllly should be doing housework, lol the house was lovely and clean and tidy yesterday, but Cyclone Kaylee has swept through every damn room, especially the bathroom, because its so much fun to empty EVERYTHING from the drawers and cupboards into the bath, and even more fun to put toothpaste on her toothbrush and brush the bathroom mirror! then of course its only natural to shove her toothbrush all the way up inside the bathroom tap, ew lol, so its just mess really, books, toys, bikes, crayons, blocks, clothes, a quick pick up and vacuum (and yes bathroom clean! lol) and it will be spick and span again. i just cant be bothered, lol will do it tomorrow maybe! haha lazy days!

i thought it would be a lovely day today, the sun was out, the birds singing, but its got very cold and a wee bit blah looking, so im not too sure what to do with my day really! reading books, playing games and colouring in sounds like great fun right now! lol (oh and i may see if Kaylee wants to play too, lmao)

ahh well, nice quiet weekend, just how i like it! i have a couple of beautiful visitors coming tomorrow arvo, so im looking foward to that, (and timtams... haha!) and with a really busy month ahead of me, its nice to do not much!

have a good one :)

Moving on up!

hehe i have that M People song in my head, was realllly popular when i was at Primary School, "time to break free, nothing can stop me!" haha

feeling really good, we have had a mini green light in our Business plan, which just rocks, for a few days it was basically "it may happen, we hope so" now its looking pretty damn good. VERY exciting, VERY scary, but a real positive change in our lives hopefully!!

I have been quite sore in my lower back, hips, bum region, had the same thing with Kaylee, just baby getting bigger, im waddling like a damn duck, and i tell you i LOVE getting into bed at night, its just such bliss! lmao ahhh well, only 10 more weeks (round about!) so thats not too long to wait to get comfy again i reckon!

not really too much to report in the land of Carla :) Kaylee and I are off out for Hot Choc and cake with Kate, Amelia and Natalia tomorrow, which i am very much looking foward too, then have to spend the afternoon at home waiting for tradesmen to come and get measurements to give the landlords quotes for a new splashback around the kitchen, will make cleaning SO much easier! just have a plumber here at the moment (no sorry ladies, hes not hot, very pleasant though!) putting in a new waste disposal and mixer, so its like christmas! lmao we still havent found any new curtains we like for the bedroom, but know that when we find them the landlord will pay for them, so that is pretty cool and stress free.

but hey, who knows how long we will be here for now!!! EXCITING!!!!!

SO hungry!

lol the last few days i feel like ive done nothing but EAT, fresh fruit salads and home made sushi have become a firm fave, lol but i did make a couple of batches of chocolate muffins (bad i know! i made Darryl take them! i REALLY wanted to make some of the Lemon muffins Karen makes, but im out of eggs :( they are such lovely muffins!) and just cant stop eating! it doesnt start until around lunch time, but from then on, lol try and stop me, but in saying that, my portions arent big at all, and im getting full very easily, but im REALLY enjoying food! especially home made sushi, OMG YUM!! the one i have chilling in the fridge at the moment is just basic, carrot, cucumber and tuna, but with the soy sauce it is devine! i need to start experimenting with fillings a bit i think, lol MEL any ideas mate!!! :) lol why i didnt start making it sooner is beyond me!

had my MW visit today, very exciting as from here on in she is coming every fortnight, rather than monthly, my iron stores are low (surprise surprise, lol they have been all my life!) so back on the iron melts for me, otherwise everything is happy and healthy and my puku is measuring 29cm at 29 weeks so everything is bang on perfect! Starting to talk more about the birth now, but the MW has known right from the start what we want to do, and shes really cruisy and a bit like me "go with the flow!" i have firm ideas about what i DONT want, and looser ideas about what i do want, but at the end of the day as long as we have a wonderful outcome i dont care about the journey too much.

anyway Kaylee is in bed asleep, so im going to go and start a new book that i brought, nice and quiet, bliss! lol

brrr chilli!

its a little bit cold today! im half expecting it to rain, i hope not, but its just so cold and dark, perfect day to stay home!!!

we stayed at Darryls Sisters and Brother in-laws house for dinner last night, lol talk about preggy cravings, the guys felt like roast dinners, R & I went BLAH! no way! we felt like Thai, lovely fresh, light Thai, lol so one husband went one way to get roasts, the other husband went the other way to get Thai, and ohhh the Thai was GOOOD!!! but we had to come home earlier than planned, Kaylee decided to be a poo and not go to bed (we are there all the time, she is used to sleeping there) and throw tantrums, which unfortunatly carried on ALL night! 1.30am i was up making her a bottle to see if that would help, shes in the kitchen throwing the hugest tanty because she wants a biscuit! uh yeah i dont think so! (we dont actually have any biscuits at all in the house!)

so the mood has carried on this morning, lol i brought out some clothes to dress her in, just trackpants and a top, nothing flash, we arent going anywhere, and she looks at me and say "no mum, not that, they yucky!" little monkey! i have to keep ontop of this one i think!!!

Kaylee is amazing us, every day new words and sentences are being said, just blows us away! bit scary to think though that we have to be so careful with what we say now, incase she repeats it infront of others! lol

decisions decisions.....

im just going to type here, just to get it all out, lol it may not make sense because i cant say much right now, but i REALLY need to get this down in order to get it straight in my head, lol feel free to ignore me!

We have had the opportunity arise to make some pretty important business decisions, not straight away, but things will start happening within the next few months, at the moment we are self employed, but if we do what we are thinking with the people we are thinking of then we will indeed have our own business as such with huge potential and room for expansion, going into it with a consultant and business manager who are VERY intellegent and know what they are doing, if we dont do something now, will the opportunity ever arise again? maybe, maybe not, we have a lot of debt (business - ird) over our heads already, do we want to add to it? it may be worth it, it may not, more risk, we have a baby due in November, so a young family, it means moving, not far, but still moving which is a huge mission anyway, and i love it here, adore it actually and will probably be an absolute mess knowing i have to leave even though it means that maybe we will be SO much better off a few years from now than we have ever imagined we would be. it means Kaylee wont be able to go to the kindy i planned to put her in, will have to wait until 3.5yrs for public kindy, it means that i have to rehome my cats (because of where we would have to go) which i HATE the idea of, and it means putting up with very little (space, assets, income) for a few years to get there, can i do that with 2 kids? i dont know, it means that i will as such become a work at home mum, doing invoicing, telephones, bookings, accounts etc, a lot more than i do now, but if i do it, it means we dont have to pay someone and i can still stay at home with the kids, it means employing a couple of people, wow at 24 i never thought i would ever be a business owner and a boss, but i may just be. it means business meetings, proposals, buy-outs, closures, openings, more meetings (where do you buy a preggy business suit from! i may just need one! lol) it means stress, but it means great earning potential, huge income (eventually), paying off all debt, expansion into different areas, buying our own home, having assets, investments, brand new cars, overseas holidays, being able to afford more than 2 children (at the moment we just cant) everything we ever dreamt of in as little as a few years time, but its still a risk. all else fails we can always go back to what we are doing now, knowing there is steady money rolling through, but the risk is there, the inconveniance, although short term, is there, ahhhhhh ok, really i just had to get that all down, in a way to get it straight in my head. LOTS to think about.... i think we will regret it if we dont take that risk.

ok!

Mel, yep i LOVE Japanese food, YUMMMMM the main thing i am missing while pregnant is Salmon Sushi, ohhhh im so sending Darryl out for it as soon as baby is born, raw Salmon Sushi, DELISH!!!! would love to hear any recipe ideas you have, we have heaps of great Asian food stores etc around. im wanting to try the new recipe on tv from food in a minute for the meatloaf, yummmm it looks really good and quite low fat (im sure you could get the fat even more down) so will give it a go and if its a hit i will post the recipe! id hate to recommend something thats crap!

TGIF - i tell you what, i need a wine right now, lol or a stiff rum... do you think sniffing it would be ok?????? ahhhh ok just juice it is!

cheers!

Whats your family fave?

dinners i mean, are you like me and have the same things over and over just because you know its easy and quick and nutricious? for us its chicken stirfries with a different sauce each time, lol i love finding new sauce ideas! at the moment i love cooking the chicken in Masterfoods Thai Seasoning then adding liquid chicken stock when the veggies and noodles go in, yummmm nice and light but tasty too! honey/soy sauce/garlic/sweet chilli sauce/oyster sauce are staples in this house, just to make stirfries easy! another dinner we have often is Spaghetti Bolognaise, from the very easy (jar of dolmio on mince on noodles!) to the more creative (fresh tomatos, grated carrots and other vege, onions, garlic, maybe some beans added - a little more preperation and thought with a bit of cheese and sour cream on the top!) but in a way im kind of sick of having the same things, dont need any thought, just wandering aimlessly to the freezer/fridge/pantry/oven because i know these meals off by heart, and it gets a little boring!

So whats your fave recipe/dinner? can you share? make my life just that little more creative, and maybe a fave in your house can turn into a fave in mine one day too :)

28 weeks today!!! there is something about reaching 28 weeks that i LOVE, i dont know why, its more just a private milestone i think, but its still pretty cool, 12 weeks until my due date. very neat!

lol i had a phone call this morning from a friend, and when i answered she said "wow you nearly sound like YOU again!" so my voice is obviously starting to get better! thought that was pretty cool.

Had to go out yesterday morning and get new tyres on my car, so i wandered around the streets for a bit then popped into the warehouse for a look, then Kaylee and I sat in a cafe, lol Kaylee was very cute, she thought she was so cool with her Gingerbread man sitting up with mummy at the proper table, gabbling away! shes amazing me every day, new sentences, new words, even her actions, a real little girl, no longer a baby, but always MY baby!!!!

i cracked up last night watching "the amazing race" i love that show! but the blonde couple was SO smug at the end when they bet the "hippys" and then Phil said "this is however a non elimination round!" lol TOO funny! GO THE HIPPYS!

just a nice lazy day at home today, tonnes of washing to get through, and no doubt the Playdough will come out, books, blocks, lol lots of fun!

here you go then :)

me taken right now, lol and a little missy who decided to get out of bed and have a nosey!!!

What IS normal?

i mean really, WHAT constitutes NORMAL??? in life you hear comments, you may even make them, "well thats just NOT normal" or "act normally" etc, but really, who are they to say, what is and isnt normal? you may have normality for your own household, and for you and yours, that is what is normal, but how does that make someone else not normal? just something that popped into my head and had to share, i myself enjoy being weird :)

have a wee peek at my ticker (no silly, not THAT ticker... lol get your mind out of the gutter!) up the top of the page, can you believe how this baby is growing!! if i didnt look pregnant before i definatly do now!!! we are gradually getting all we need, only a few things left now, change table, buggy carry cot (just because i want one! lol) sterilizer and breast pump, we got a front pack on the weekend so that was one more thing to "tick" off our list! and i have a whole set of drawers FULL of clothes.... lol may have to start hanging things up on hangers shortly to make more room! i was the same with Kaylee, started buying baby clothes (all off trademe, nothing is new! lol but it all looks it! bargains! love them!) as soon as we found out she was a girl and had a HEAP of clothes, and i dont regret it for one minute, yes there are other things more practical that i could spend my money on, but hey, WHY THE HELL NOT! i have this huge passion for baby clothes, love them! i cant wait until another month or so and i will wash up everything, all her blankets, nappies (white cloth nappies, GREAT spill cloths for you first time mums! always have something protecting your shoulder, you wont regret it!) cant wait!

i for some reason have a craving for fresh salsa.... but i did the food shopping this morning and wandered right past the red onions, avocado and tomatos, didnt feel like them at the time, so didnt get them! i feel like fresh salsa over grilled chicken with a salad and balsamic dressing... yummm, give me an hour, lol ill feel like some thing else! dinner tonight is home made butter chicken on rice with pompadoms, lol realllllllly bad for you, but yummmm havent had it for a while! one thing i did get today was some Oranges, nice NZ ones on special, and YUMMM they are so good, im onto #3! oh yeah, and i got chocolate milk... but we wont go there! lol never send a pregnant woman food shopping on an empty stomach, whoa you think its bad if you havent had breakfast beforehand, add on being pregnant and its double wammo!

i stepped on the scales the other day, something i havent been making a habit of since being pregnant (dont really see a point sorry peeps! im pregnant, i cant control it, just go with it!) more because i was curious about what they would say since i have been sick, welllll i am 13kgs (YES thats right!) LIGHTER now than i was when i got pregnant! i dont think i look it, my clothes show it, lol until i threw them out! but im a little sad that im not looking as hot as i thought i would having lost that amount of weight! BUT then i remember that i am pregnant with this stomach out the front of me, lol so yes, i have finally gone under that dreaded 100kg, (about 98 now) seems weird that really i havent slogged my ass off to do it, its just something my body has done itself... just go with the flow i say.... and if your not pregnant, have another wine!

i have foodtv going on in the background, not really paying attn its low carb cooking... they are doing something with soybeans.... ohhhhh yummmm just gotta try that..... (Not!) not a big fan of beans, but cmon people if your going to eat healthy eat NICE!!!!!

just as an offside (lol yeah ok, like this post hasnt been one whole offside!) does anyone own a Magic Bullet??? what do you think of it?? ive just sold my huge beasty food processor/Blender and want something smaller and they look ideal (cheap on TM!) hmmm spose i could always resell it again if i dont want it! lol

"Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without action." -- Benjamin Disraeli

Getting Organised!

Im trying to become more organised in my household. Since being pregnant (and sick, and sick again!) things have become so unorganised, and so behind, that just living in the house has been hard and frustrating! so im trying to bring more organisation in to the house which in turn will bring me more time with my family and more health and harmony around when baby comes! makes sense?? lol sounds all hippy aye! but i know what im talking about! im just sick of not keeping up and then feeling sorry for myself for not keeping up, and end up wasting the precious time i have in this world instead of doing something about it!

Ive also decided that my food has got boring, and consistant, same things over and over and over again! i want to try NEW things, and NICE things but still HEALTHY things, so have set a goal to try 1-2 new dishes a week, ive decided to get a Slow Cooker, so things like cheap beef (no fat!) will not only save us money, but end up yummy and melt in the mouth, with very little effort, we are also still needing a new frying pan... its been a pain without one, we feel so limited! lol ever tried making Spaghetti Bolognaise in a wok???? I love food and i love cooking, but due to lack of my own organisation i end up with 30min at the end of the day to whip something up real quick, and its just easier to do a stirfry or bolognaise. GET CREATIVE!!!

anyhoo, ive decided today that im bored, lol apart from going to the Dr, i have not been out of the house in 2 weeks!!!! so tomorrow (Darryl is working today) it has been decided that we will not stay home AT ALL! LOL i want out! lmao you should see all the Sudoku puzzles i have finished, its all i have been doing! lol

Darryls parents rang before and have offered to come out for dinner and bring it with them!! OK i said! lol doesnt happen often, im not going to turn that down! lets just hope that there isnt a too bigger reason for the visit, other to just visit..... you never know...... lol

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." --Ralph Waldo Emerson

Friday!

Ive been Tagged, lol twice! cheers Mel & Rach! but i realllly cant think of anything more weird about me that alll the weird stuff i have posted lately, when i do i will do a post just for you! :) (oh im sure there is stuff, lol dont get me wrong, i am one WEIRD person!)

dont really have too much to say, feeling a tonne better again today which rocks, apart from the cough there is NOTHING wrong with Kaylee at all. Belly is getting bigger every day, which is cool, Braxton Hicks i get usually first thing in the morning and last thing at night, they dont hurt, but its amazing how hard my stomach gets!! (first time in a while i can say i have a firm belly!)

Anyway i thought i would share a few photos :) (if i can work out this damn blogger!)

Thursday

Thursday has rolled around again, man these weeks fly! im in a really weird (YEAH when am i NOT! lol) mood today!! watch out!!!

Firstly, just something that bugs me, lol you know those verification thingis when you leave a comment on someones (mine included) blog? lol does anyone else CRINGE when its a huge one and become relieved when its only little!!!! lol just sharing!

Martha Stewart, im watching her on TV at the moment (Sky Channel 38 food tv, my fave channel!) is it just me, or does she seem to ask really dum questions..... lol she just asked how to whip an egg white.....

oh and Wendy is definatly Bobs "Assistant" not his wife, according to this link on Wikipedia and who would of thought that are forums around that discuss these things!!!! Google is great!

im slowly starting to feel better thanks everyone for your kind comments! i had to delete that post to post the post just posted (LOL!) so the post just posted would appear up the top and not get lost! i did have to share you know! but your kind comments were and are definatly appreciated! i still have not much of a voice and a terrible cough, but i have energy and am managing to eat a small amount of food, keeping my fluids up too which is all helping wonderfully i think! the cough drives me nuts though, just so persistant!!!! im guttered though as tonight im missing out on going to dinner with my coffee group, im sure they would rather they didnt have my germs!!! Kaylee has been doing well for a few days, she too has a persistant cough, but hopefully they will die away soon!

mmmmm they are baking a cake on Martha Stewart (well she isnt, her guest is) now i feel like cake! lmao, i haved baked for months and months! very rare baking happens unless its bikkies for Darryl!! but ewwww ok, its a fig cake, lol looks yuk.... whats a fig??? LOL cant say ive ever had one!

yeah, might have to go and do something productive.... dont really have much more to talk about!

The Paradoxical Commandments by Dr. Kent M. Keith

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

More ramblings :)

See! once i start, i cant stop! lmao

this is a bit of an ongoing post, been writing it since i finished the last one! its amazing when your writing this stuff, how many memories come back, and thoughts, and feelings.

I used to worry all the time what others thought of me, how they thought i looked, acted, came across, if they thought i was weird, a bitch, mean. then i had an AHA moment about a year ago, and i realised WHY on earth should i give a shit what anyone else thinks of me? worrying about it all the time just worried me, and i became a much happier person when i stopped caring! As long as i kept myself healthy, and happy, my children and household are healthy and happy, why should i worry about what anyone else thinks?

My favourite colour is yellow, dont know why, it ALWAYS has been, ever since i was a tot, everything had to be yellow! its such a bright, happy, cheerful, fun colour, i just love it!

i dont know if its a favourite number (is there such a thing?) or a lucky number, but for me, its 26, the number 26 ALWAYS comes up, and everytime i have to think of or use a number, i use 26, have done for as long as i can remember.

i am the eldest of 4, i have a brother who is 22, a sister who is 17 and a sister who is 14. i never got on with my mother when i lived at home (during the teenage years) wasnt that i was naughty, far from it, bookworm! just that our personalities are so similar (i see that NOW!) that we clashed constantly. we get on GREAT now! my father walked out on the family about 4 years ago, just walked out, no warning, and has been completely selfish ever since, chance after chance he has been given, but to miss MY wedding (not even a card!) and my daughters 2nd birthday(he has never met Kaylee), well that just makes me angry, not sad anymore. broken promises for Africa, i dont believe a damn thing, not anymore.

my earliest memory was when i was 2, we used to live in Ruawai up north, on a farm, for some dumb reason i ended up a tree, was easy to get up, not so easy to get down, i felt like i would be left there forever, Mum reckons it was only a few minutes, she heard me screaming, but i just remember feeling so alone and scared. not a nice memory, but my earliest. i can giggle about it now. but at 2, i look at Kaylee and dont ever want her to feel scared or alone, not ever.

I used to go pistol shooting (target) with my father from about 10 years of age, yep, Carla behind a gun, lol that make you scared?? i loved it, had a great time and did it for a few years.

i think Guilt and Shame are wasted emotions

i dont have a favourite season, i find i love bits about them all, i love Winter for its crisp and freshness, for its cold nights snuggled up in bed with my electric blanket, a good book, some chocolate and the rain pelting down, I love Summer days, the warmth, the sun, the beach, i love the newness of springtime and the prettyness of Autumn.

i sleep butt naked, cannot stand having PJs on and am not looking foward to when i get further on in this pregnancy and have to wear bras and breastpads to bed, because i know i will leak! lots!

i am a sexual, passionate, loving Woman, and i think thats pretty cool. except when im pregnant, the thought of sex, repulses me.

I have a fowl mouth, i try to curb it around children, but the odd obscenity pops out. im not a LOUD person, i find there is nothing more embarressing than being with someone who YELLS instead of TALKS and all of your business gets spread everywhere!!!!! lol i really want to try one day to mention (i know a few people who yell) that they may want to get their ears checked, cos they are hurting mine.... but that will probably come across REAL bitchy!

i remember one time when i was out on a walk with Kate, i decided in my madness, it would be a great time to stop at the fruit shop and do a bit of shopping, (we used to park at tennis courts and walk around a big block) except the "few" things i was going to get, turned into 2 big bags of fruit and vege and a HUGE watermelon! (stop laughing Kate!) it took us SO long to get back to our cars again, and what was even worse, was that one of the bags broke!!! so at peak hour, in Henderson, walking down one of the main roads, with loose fruit, vege and a watermelon, trying to make sure the other bag didnt break! shit it was funny, and gawd we were so tired!! i still have a giggle about that now!

My middle name is Ann, boring old Ann, i hated it as a kid, was SO jealous of everyone with COOL names and i was CARLA ANN, i hated telling people my name, lmao, yeah like i had a say in it! but without my middle name, i wouldnt be me :)

I bite my nails, have done all my life, the first time i ever grew them successfully was for my wedding, then they started just peeling away (they were SO soft!) and im back to biting again.

im the type of person that has NO diy bone in their body, if something needs doing, i call someone in, even painting a set of drawers, lol no way! couldnt do it! i would make SUCH a damn mess of it all, however there is a bookshelf in Kaylees room that needs painting, and i WILL attempt that at some stage, but for now, it can stay multicoloured!

I got my first pair of glasses at age 7, i think mum still has them, they are multicoloured... lmao, they used to break all the time, and when they did, they had to be sent back to Germany to be repaired! lmao, i stopped wearing glasses at around 10, i changed schools, and the new school, well, the kids were different, i got called nerdy, lmao, looking back i was nerdy! always had my nose in the book, the library was my best friend at school, you never felt lonely in the library, it didnt matter if you were on your own then! I loved Nancy Drew, Trixie Belden, famous 5, secret 7, Babysitters club etc. i didnt wear glasses again until i was about 15 when i got my contact lenses, and now, im back to glasses again, and i LOVE them!

i keep entertained for hours sometimes clicking "next blog" on the top right hand corner of blogger, wow, ive found some weird stuff! i wonder how many people have surfed onto me accidentaly?

LMAO = Laugh My ass Off!!!!

there ya go Lisa! :p if you need to know anything else, let us know!! xx

Kate said to post 5 or so random things that noone would know about you... i was sitting there last night thinking, well shit, everyone knows everything, gawd only knows i talk a lot! But i got thinking, then at 4.30 when Kaylee woke up, i was still thinking, and at 7am when she crawled into bed with us, i woke up, and what do you know, was still thinking. i dont think i can stop or even come near 5...... and it was pretty fun going through these things in my head!

i think that im quite an interesting person, lol you may or may not agree, but i dont really care, at 24 ive had a pretty full life already, im pretty worldly!

im open and honest, and nothing i say is meant to offend anyone, if you are easily offended then your in the wrong blog im sorry!!! :p

When Kaylee watches Bob the Builder, i wonder if there will ever be an episode where Bob and Wendy get together... sad aye! lmao, i have to make it interesting somehow!

I love cooking and fine food, if you expect me to cook something nice, do not rush me, i WILL fuck it up! i love trying new foods and recipes, and working out ways to make them healthier and put my own spin on them, i have a tonne of recipe books, but never follow them to the letter, i love the pics and get ideas, also LOVE food TV on sky, get so many easy ideas from that too, lmao then i get in lazymode and cook up slap quick stirfrys all week!

i spend too much on TM, too much time, too much money, i LOVE trademe, without it, id be pretty lost! Love selling stuff and seeing the bids go up and up over what i thought the item was worth, love outbidding someone on something i wanted and winning by .50c! i am not dumb about it though, i have my limit (although last night i did buy a pair of Pink Pumas for new baby in a size 1!! they are SO cute!! lol that was an impulse buy!) and usually stick well within it!

Kaylees name is special, she is named after my mother (Kay) who's favourite name all her life has been Kaylee, she LOVES the fact that we called Kaylee, Kaylee, and adores her first grandchild to bits, lmao, its going to be funny when the next bub comes, she adores that already too and is already off buying bits and pieces!

i LOVE to dress my child nice, i have NO fashion sense when it comes to myself, but can dress Kaylee real nice, with a little help from Trademe! i find designer clothing for her, for bargain prices, then when i sell it on again, i get most of my money back, works out in the long run, a VERY cheap way to dress my child! i hate going out and seeing kids ill dressed, in ill fitting clothes, with their hair not brushed and face not washed (although i have been a bit guilty of the face washing thing! thank god for baby wipes!!!!) there is no excuse, no matter what your income, to not dress your child warmly, comfortably and tidely. it makes me feel good to have Kaylee commented on how lovely she looks, even if she is just in jeans and a top, makes me proud that i am doing a good job.

i love oysters, fresh oysters, ohhh yum! i dont have them near as much as i would like! love most seafood actually, have never tried a Kina or Paua, but would love to one day should the situation arise! very much a seafood lover, have grown up with Granddad bringing over sacks of scallops, oysters, pipis, and us opening the shells and chowing down raw! ( i can see some of you going ewwwwww!) yummmmmmm! i always hated the cleaning the oysters bit, as oysters live in the mud, so the shells are SO gross! we would spread them out on the back lawn, and hose them down, made one hell of a mess on the back lawn, mum would go NUTS (she didnt like oysters as much as us!) then myself and my sisters would sit out the back porch and eat HEAPS of them!

Darryl and i physically met for the first time on the 12th of February 2001 outside Club Physical at Westgate, he had just finished at the Gym, called me up, and i went over at around 5pm, we talked until well after 9 and i just knew then that he was something special, lmao, that all sounds a bit weird aye, ok, Darryl and i "met" on NZ Dating website, i was TOTALLY the opposite to what he was looking for, but i thought he sounded ok, so i msged him anyway, there were no pics involved, so the first time we met was the first time we saw each other! (i made him stand up to see how tall he was! lmao!) we talked on the phone a few times, first, then, from the day we met, we have barely spent a day apart since! we moved in together about 3 weeks after we met, found our own little place in Royal Heights, we werent there for long before we moved into his parents place to "save money" (yeah right!) then moved to Massey, now we live in Hobsonville, and LOVE living here! We were married on the 12th of February 2006, 5 years to the day we met.

My first ever Cassette Tape was Bon Jovi, Slippery when wet, my Dads girlfriend gave it to me (long story, him and my mum were married for over 20 years!! ohhh the things i have found out since!) I was 4 years old, and i STILL love Bon Jovi, my first ever CD was "Tiffany" (my parents thought i would like it.... ummmm ok....!) cant say i like her! one of my fave albums of all time would have to be Alanis Morrisettes Jagged Little Pill, i adore Kiwi music, LOVE Rock, Hip Hop, Rap (even the gangsta stuff! adore 2Pac!) R&B, slow jams, infact i love all music full stop, cant say though that im too keen on heavy metal and country and western, icky....

I love having short hair, as much as everyone says i suit it longer, i love it short, its easy, its light, its fun, its me :) i also love experimenting with colour, i remember when i was 16 a friend and i dyed our hair purple with the Fudge paintbox colours, lol as i had brown hair and blonde streaks, we didnt do too badly, my blonde friend though, lmao, you can imagine how bright her purple was!

Stupid people piss me off, especially stupid people who have kids, grrrrr (and no im not talking mentally, im talking just dumb, not thinking people) feel sorry for the kids, they dont have a shit show really, i have no patience for dumb asses that breed.

I love wine, rum, RTDs, but i hate getting drunk, i hate losing control of myself, tiddly is ok, but to lose control, thats scary. have only ever been drunk a couple of times in my life, lmao Kate on the other hand..... (:p jk hun!)

i love a good book, ive always loved reading, and i find it awsome when i get a good book and cant put it down until i have finished, dont do it enough anymore. im right into crime, murder, forensic novels, yeah! im also enjoying mind puzzles, Sudoku rocks! when i became a mum i stopped thinking, and it was only about a year ago where i realised that i was in complete auto mode, there was no thinking involved in anything i did, now i enjoy doing research online on different topics that interest me, love doing mind puzzles, love a good challenge, Darryl and i sit down with a sudoku each, mine is easy (because im not that good yet!) and Darryls is usually hard, and we try to beat each other at doing them, lol

i love how much i LOVE Kaylee and bub, i get such warm fuzzis and all teary when i think of just how much i adore my children, and cherish them, and im real proud of myself with how i raise Kaylee, god help anyone who tries to tell me how to raise my child though, lol i definatly do it MY WAY! i get SO upset though with all the news around lately, some people should never be blessed with a beautiful child, makes me so ill to think of what these children go through sometimes.

im a shy person (no really!) and am always very nervous meeting new people, takes a wee while to come out of my shell. a lot of that has been since i had Post Natal Depression with Kaylee, i still suffer from Depression on and off, but manage to manage it ok without pills for now (was on Prozac with PND though) i keep in close contact with my dr, and really dont like to fuck around when it comes to depression, i would never take anything without my Dr knowing, would never take anything someone else said works, you have to be careful with what you take, even if it is "natural" Rescue Remedy ROCKS though! lmao we have bottles of that everywhere!

i am about a cm off 6 ft tall, finding pants is a BITCH lmao as is finding tops long enough, its been easier finding clothes to fit while pregnant than it has while not pregnant! drives me mental! lmao

see told you i can talk :) will have to do a part 2 i think! thats if any of you made it this far without falling asleep!!!!!

Thursday! :)

Which means tomorrow is Friday! lol being a stay at home mum, whos husband works 6 days a week (Monday to Saturday) you would wonder why Friday is my all time fave day of the week, lmao, you know what? i have NO idea! just love Fridays, love that its the end of the week and a new beginning starts after a (usually!) nice weekend.

Im quite enjoying Rockstar Supernova, we didnt watch it much at the start (although my faves then are still my faves now!) and were a bit iffy about where it was heading etc, but we are having fun watching it, i havent been playing music much lately in the house, always have the radio on in the car, but at home, its kids songs! lmao, so its nice to have some adult entertainment! cant wait for MTV to start soon too, that will be cool, August 18 i think, great that its Kiwi based, as we love our kiwi music, be great to see what they play!

we have been trying to bring the laughter back into our house, we used to always tell jokes, or random things, and have been just so damn serious lately, its so not us, and we are loving laughing again. Hence the little jokes, share the happyness people! have some fun! life doesnt have to be serious ALL the time!!

Ive stayed home for most of this week, its ben quite nice just having quite home time with Kaylee, i havent done my hair for nearly a week! lmao, its real short, so it doesnt matter too much, but looks alot better with some mousse, hairspray and other crap in it! lmao

just rambling really :D

A woman walks into a pharmacy and asks the pharmacist for some arsenic. He asks, "What for?"She says, "I want to kill my husband"He says, "Sorry, I can't do that."She then reaches into her handbag and pulls out a photo of her husband in bed with the pharmacist's wife and hands it to him.He says, "You didn't tell me you had a prescription..."

A redneck family are visiting a big city for the first time. The father and son are in the hotel lobby when the spot an elevator. "What's that Paw?" The boy asked. "I ain't never did see nothin' like that in my life" Replied the father. Seconds later an old frail woman walks in the hotel door and hobbles to the elevator. She presses the button with her cain, waits for the doors to open and gets in. The father and son, still amazed by this contraption, continue to watch. They hear a ping noise and the doors open again. Out steps a beautiful 20 year old busty blonde. The father looks at his son and says "Go get your Maw !"

Kaylee, pics taken yesterday

Wednesday

this week is zooming by pretty fast, and im 26 weeks along today, means (like Karen said yesterday!) that we both only have 98 days or 14 weeks to go until our due dates, holy poooos!

Kaylee is being such a classic lately, some real hardcase things coming out of her mouth, and shes doing some real hardcase things too, this morning i was standing at the kitchen sink doing the dishes, and i heard the rubbish bag behind me rustling, i turn around and Kaylee is standing there with just a singlet on, no nappy, no pants, no top! i said, wheres your clothes?? shes said "oh, there gone" lmao, then she toddles off, in a nuddy, gets her potty, sits down, and says "i do wees ok mum?" i said "OK!" lol she stands up, looks into the potty, says "ohhh nooo no weeees mum!" and toddles off again!!! HARD CASE! so i say, Kaylee where has your nappy gone??, she goes to the bin, pulls it out, "here it is!" lmao, she had taken it off, put it in the bin, got out her potty all ready to do wees, lol, btw, she didnt do wees.... :) one day! i ended up putting her in Overalls, as no sooner as i had put a nappy back on her, then she was in a nuddy again! overalls keep the clothes and the nappy on!

lmao i read something on Teletext last night that cracked me up (have been skipping the news lately, makes me cry, some people make me so sick...... grrrr!) the post shop sell .45c stamps right? BUT they can no longer sell them for .45c, as we cant use .5c coins, they can sell them for .50c or 2 for .90c people are getting real shitty with it..... ok typing that it doesnt seem funny.... lol oh well :P

Darryl made the nicest Lasagne for dinner last night, so we have enough for dinner tonight too, yummm and 2 nights off cooking for me! yay!

ive been doing a lot of thinking about what to do with our bedroom to accomodate baby, we need to work out how we are going to best utilise the space we have, i set up her hammock and stand yesterday and had to take it down pretty quick, lmao its HUGE, the hammock would be great if we had a screw in the wall (cant do that in this house unfortunatly) but the stand itself is MASSIVE! i really want to use it, but have nowhere to put it! lmao... ahhh my impulse buys! im tempted to sell it again, i dunno, will have to work that one out i think!

Nutritional Advice

For those of you who think you should watch what you eat.. here's the FINAL word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting Medical studies.

1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Aussies, British or Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Aussies, British or Americans.

3. The Japanese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Aussies, British or Americans.

4. The Italians drink excessive amounts of red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Aussies, British or Americans.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beer and eat lots of sausages and fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Aussies, British or Americans.

CONCLUSION: Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

She's asleep!!!!

well, i hope she is, lmao im too scared to poke my head in incase i get the lovely "Hi Mummy!" the last few days have been REALLY hard at getting her to have a day sleep, she does indeed still need one, as i need her to have one! ahhhh blisssss!!!!

I walked out into the lounge this morning, and Kaylee was into my wallet (had stolen it off the bench wee madam!) and putting all the coins into her money box!! lol dammit! there was about $20 in there! her money box is one that you cannot open without ruining it, lol nevermind!

i spent a lot of this morning on the floor with Kaylee, apparently building a house with the blocks, lmao, except whenever we got one wall up, she would stand up and kick it down!!! then of course its "uh ohhhh whatta mess!" a lot of giggling and back to building again! lots of fun!!!

We did end up doing the food shopping last night, was good to have some food in the cupboard, but yet, lol im still indesisive about what i want to eat!!! Darryl thinks its just a hormonal preggy thing because my brain is all up the whops too, lol i tend to agree with him!

Had a phone call from my landlord before, LOVE my landlords btw, they SO rock, and Darryl and I will be off curtain shopping on Saturday for our bedroom! NICE! we pay, they will refund us back, and we can choose anything we want, from whereever we want, cant wait!!! means i can get a new duvet to match, lol LOVE matching stuff! when we chose our lounge curtains we got them to match our furniture!!!! and we are getting a new Mixer on our kitchen sink, and a new waste disposal unit too! lol now i just need to see if we can get new carpet, paint and a new dishwasher and we will be away!! lmao, one day maybe, i LOVE living here, its nice to be appreciated and to be allowed to do what we want, our walls have been empty for so long, and i said to the LL the other day, can we put more pics up, lol they had been wondering why we didnt do it sooner! (we see them every 3 months and talk to them often - the LL isnt the owner but a property manager who liases with the owner) but i need to find matching frames first i think, unless i get some art as well, ahhh decisions!!! im thinking brown for the bedroom, not a shit brown, more neutral, but then we can do SO much with that, hmmmm will have to talk to Darryl about it i guess so he has an opinion too!!!!!

its like doing up our own house without it being our own house! lol i like it!

you know after all this time on Blogger, i still havent quite worked out how to do the photo thing properly (lol read the instructions Carla! - yeah, one day!) i can add them, but they all end up in a row and i cant seem to move them, i did try using that "hello" program but it interferred with my virus thingi so we got rid of it, one day i will work these computer things out, lol and when i do, there will probably be all new stuff out again!!!!!!!! ahh technology!

Two men were out on the golf course when they suddenly catch up a pair of ladies which were holding up the two men. They decide they were going to ask to play through when the first man get half way there then turns around suddenly and walks back too the other man saying 'I can't go over there, one of them is my wife and the other is my mistress' "ok i go" replys the other man he begins walking and turns around about half way there and goes running back to the other man... "Small world!"