Quack quack quack quack quack cockadoodledoo..

lol my daughter is LOVING the Wiggles!!! gets a bit sad when i know all the words too..... :D

ahhh i need to get out more!!

im in a bit of an indecisive mood today, lmao, ALL about food, we dont have much as its food shopping time, we dont have enough eggs to bake a cake, enough sugar for biscuits, any butter at all, which completely cuts the above two out anyway! lmao, i realllly want chips and cake, reallll healthy aye! not! ahhh well, dont have them here so not really an issue huh!!??

Kaylee is going through yet another growth spurt, this one is VERY obvious to me, the amount of food she is going through is amazing!!! she has just turned 2, is in size 3 clothes, and by the rate she is going will be mostly in size 4s by the summer time....!!!

I went out to dinner last night, at Prego on Ponsonby, for one of Darryls cousins, her baby shower, so that was a lot of fun, and the food was SO good! was nice to get out with no kids and no men! but i will definatly be taking Darryl back there again very soon, yummmmmm!!! i had Terekihi (i SO spelt that wrong! you know, the fish!) on a risotto with a side salad, was delish and so fresh!

Im going through a bit of an image transformation at the moment (i do this from time to time!) a wee while ago i threw away EVERYTHING that was either

a: Ugly (why did i even THINK that looked nice!)
b: ill fitting (at least HALF of my wardrobe! once again, WHY!!!)
c: frumpy (you wear frumpy you FEEL frumpy!)
d: old (yeah ok, you wore that at high school, 6 years ago!!!!!!)

so now i own VERY little! lol most of my wardrobe are now preggy clothes, apart from 2 tops, 2 skirts, a couple of singlets and 3/4 pants (for working out) and a pair of jeans!!! lmao, can see a shopping trip coming along once baby is born! now i just need to look for some nice chunky coloured jewellery, as most of what i have now is black, why they dont make nice things in other colours, i dont know, or could it be that im just attracted to black on black on black???

Now i just have to learn how to do my makeup properly, lol sometimes i get the whole put on with a trowel look! do my hair like the hairdresser does it! (WHY can you never get it the same again!) and lose 20kg and i will be just puurrrrrfect! lmao ahhh ok, at least the first two i can do right now!!!

Has anyone got any recommendations for an electric frying pan?? we go through these things SO often, we use it for everything, stirfrys, curries, steaming, frying, searing, you name it! and the teflon stuff always comes off it, drives us mental! BUT we always choose the teflon coated ones as we dont need to use much if any oil, but we go through one every 1-2 years, so we are thinking of getting one that isnt teflon coated, but they are dearer, and also im wondering, will my food stick like shit if i dont use much oil??? oh the frustrations of the frying pan!! lmao

Can you tell my brain is flicking from one thought to the next, lol very quickly!!!!!

ohhhh forgot to say, neighbours washing got taken down at around 6 weeks 5days ish (lol we were onto counting daily!) however they have now had a backpack hanging on their line for nearly 2 weeks, so we are back to counting again!!!! hahahahaha

Lucky :)

You know with so much going on in the world, and even on our own doorstep at the moment, i consider myself pretty damn lucky and lately, even the things that usually get to me, are not, and i guess that maybe im just looking at the world, and myself in a different light, and realising at the same time, that some things are just no big deal.

I havent slept well (i.e 6-8 hours) for over a week now, i cannot get comfortable, have to pee a lot! have an extrememly active baby at nights, and Kaylee has started waking having nightmares. So all of these things combined, have made for a huge lack of sleep, and yes, im tired, exhausted actually, but i find all of the above "inconveniances" not "inconveniances" at all, but blessings, and that gives me the energy i need to keep on with my days.

We are SO blessed to have Kaylee, now 2 years old, she has given us more joy than we could EVER imagine, her nightmares are a pain, and we are trying a few things to work out how she can get a good nights sleep too, tonight its a night light, so we will give that a go for a week and see if that helps, but we have a healthy, happy, well mannered (well sometimes! - we are getting there!) beautiful breath of fresh air, wee girl, who we would die for, no question about it, and we are thankful for her every damn day.

We are SO blessed to have bubba on the way, shes an active wee thing, especially between 11pm-4am! and loves playing trampoline on my bladder, keeps me rushing to the loo every few minutes, but this may well be my last pregnancy, so every wee kick, punch, roll that she does, i just adore and enjoy so much, i cannot for the life of me find a reason to curse it, i cannot wait to meet her, but not before her time of course :) with only about 14 weeks to go, time is flying by VERY fast! and buying all the new things to get ready for her coming, just gets me so much more excited!

I am very lucky in my marriage, everything is pretty much 50/50, im not treated like a slave, i do have the right to put my foot down when i want to, and that is respected, and i get told often that i do a great job at being a mother and a wife, im not the best housekeeper, infact i suck! creative clutter... yeah ok, lol just mess really! always clean, just dont expect my house to be spotless and youll be fine! im not the greatest chef, but i rock up some pretty tasty meals at times! we always have food on the table, (even if its spagetti on toast if we havent done the food shopping for a while!) bills are always paid (if a little late sometimes due to my forgetfulness!!) and my child is always clothed appropriately for the weather, is neat and tidy, and with a bit of hard work and budgeting, ive pretty much got our business out of the shit, im very proud of that.

im 24 years old, and im damn proud of my life, i have my problems, like anyone, i have a few wee enemys in this world, but really dont have time for that, i usually say it like it is, and just ok, is never good enough. i have goals and ambitions, but not until i have raised my children, and got our business under control, but dreams are there for a reason, they keep me striving for better, and i dont think thats a bad thing :) its got me where i am today. "Many of lifes failures, are people who did not know how close they were to success, when they gave up."

Enjoy the life you have, its the only one your ever going to get, you might as well life a good one!

There was a song out when i was at College (high school) called Sunscreen, i loved this song, it always made me think and for that, it always made me happy.

Sunscreen, by Mary Schmich:

Wear sunscreen.If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

Thursday

I decided that i missed my daughter WAYYY too much, lmao, we had a great time while she was away, ate out heaps, socialised a wee bit, slept in a wee bit, but MAN i missed her! so 1 day early, without telling anyone (hehe) i went down to Te Puke to see my baby! Kaylee had a great time at her Nana's, went to the beach, did gardening, heaps of time outside, just a wonderful time with heapppps of extra attention from my 2 sisters aswell, but she was pleased to see me, and wouldnt let me out of her sight, i even had to sleep with her last night! she wouldnt settle until i came to bed!

So we have just got back home now, Kaylee is playing with her blocks and mummy is MEANT to be getting dinner ready! lmao.... have NO idea what to have though!

Went and brought a new carseat for baby on Tuesday, so thats one more thing off our ever growing list of things we "need", i had a hammock and stand arrive the other day, i brought it off an online friend, and its all wrapped up lovely, so as much as i want to get it out and play with it, its better off keeping in its package for now! so we are slowly getting prepared, Kaylees cot has been taken down and is sitting in the garage, needs a clean up, but doesnt need to be put up again until next year sometime.

Sunday :)

Man what a quiet weekend! I dropped Kaylee to Mum on Friday as planned, made for a very QUIET trip home, and we are missing her like CRAZY! i even rung Mum today to see if i could go down there on Wednesday to stay, because i miss her so much! thats one of my instincts, the other is to make the most of this and go down on Thursday as planned and enjoy Wednesday and Wednesday night! the house is just SO empty without her, we are a little bit lost to be honest!

we are being taken out for dinner tomorrow night, by a couple of friends of ours, Darryl did a favour for them, as they always do favours for us, so we always try to recipricate, but they want to take us for dinner! hell im not gunna say no!!!!

We went out to dinner last night, i was SO looking foward to it, thinking it would be just devine, it was just average unfortunatly and a few things were not as i expected! wahhh no fair! never mind, another night where we didnt cook, so its all good!

Had a lovely day yesterday, i had a nice sleep in and then Darryl and I went to lunch and then off shopping, i got a couple of pairs of pants (was getting VERY desperate!) and a couple of tops, so i feel almost human again! tomorrow i have my hair appt, (and midwifes appt, and house inspection AND dinner! lol busy day!) so a new cut and colour is being planned, i LOVE getting my hair done, makes me feel so new and fresh! and with new clothes (they actually fit! ROCK ON!) i will feel great!!

Today has consisted of staying at home and cleaning heaps out! man we aquire some junk! we have taken Kaylees cot down and now she just has a bed, such a little girls room now! and ive washed some baby blankets, i had loaned them out and they came back to me discusting.... why people dont look after other peoples things is beyond me, you do them a favor by lending them things, saves THEM money, ends up costing you money because you have to replace them because of how they treated them, grrrrrr!!!!

Anyway, busy day tomorrow, so i better go relax for a bit!!

Tuesday

Yep, its Tuesday, and lately im leading a pretty boring life, just staying home. Kaylee has been pretty sick and is on antibiotics for a chest infection, add to that teething, a bang on the head (she has a bruise on her eye from tripping onto her plastic table - nice when i have Plunket tomorrow!) a persistant cough that just wont go away, and oh its fun in this house! im trying to give her a tonne of attention, more than usual anyway, but shes very clingi and grumpy and just not happy, hopefully in a couple of days she will be a lot better!

Im dropping her down to mums on Friday, so i get until the following Thursday without her, as much as i will MISS her like anything, i do need the break, and am definatly looking foward to the sleep ins! im mostly looking foward to getting my hair done, IF my hairdresser ever calls me back!! lol i will try to call her a bit later on, im hoping to get in on Saturday, as its my EDD from the miscarriage i had, i need to do something for ME on that day, even though i have this precious baby inside of me now, it will still be a hard day for me.

has anyone else noticed how much fruit and veggies have gone up in price??? holy crap! i paid $4 for a lettuce and nearly $5 for a cucumber the other day, admittedly it was at the supermarket and not the fruit shop where i usually get everything, but mannn couldnt believe it!

sad :(

im still around, dont have much to say, its been a sad weekend.... lots has happened.

what i will say is Emily & Jonny are definatly in all my thoughts and prayers right now.

just not fair.

Happy Birthday Kaylee!!!!!!

My god where does the time go! my beautiful baby is 2! Happy birthday my darling, we love you SO much!!!!!

I dont know why my profile bar has decided it would rather live down the bottom of the page, lmao, if anyone knows how to fix it, can you email me????

Have a lovely day everyone!

Birthday party pics

just a few pics from today, im shattered, and DEFINATLY not cooking tonight! lol so 2nd night in a row of takeaways tonight unfortunatly........ burger fuel last night, Hell Pizza tonight.... we have my 2 sisters, Grandma and mum here tonight, lol so we have to feed them! if it was just us we wouldnt bother! Have Amelias birthday party tomorrow morning, so that will be fun, im looking foward to sitting down and hogging Natalia :p i didnt get a chance today! but it was a nice day, and Kaylee really enjoyed it, shes getting a week bit grumpy at the moment, dinner and straight to bed tonight!

Still alive...

not much to report really, just trying to get Kaylees birthday organised, her party is on Saturday, my baby is 2! VERY scary! (well not until Monday, but still scary!)

other than that i have been pottering around, i got a couple of my friends kids (aged 10 & 12 on school holidays) over the other day to do some housework for me that i have been finding hard to keep up with, so all my cupboards have been cleaned out and my windows washed, lots of tidying up and general cleaning, so it was nice to not have to be the one doing that for once! i paid them $15 each, lol and will be getting them back next week to wash our cars and do my gardening! i still need to find someone to clean my oven! lol

we have had a real busy time the last couple of weeks, full of visiting and visitors, so a quiet day at home today is happening, lmao infact Kaylee is still in her pjs! tomorrow will be very busy, last minute food shopping (for salad ingrediants for club sandwhiches! ham and cheerios!) last minute tidying and vacuuming, and chocolate crackle and cake making! Kaylee is going to Rochelles for the day to play with her cousins and i will get a few hours to myself to sort everything out, nice!

now just hope for fine weather on Saturday! lol has anyone seen the weather report???