Thursday...

Firstly a huge congratulations to Kate, Joseph, Amelia and family on the birth of GORGEOUS Natalia!!! isnt she just stunning!!!! Welcome to the world beautiful girl! i cant wait to meet you!!!!

Secondly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATE!!!! I hope you have a wonderful day hun!! Been thinking of you heaps!!!! xxxx

ive had my Mum come and stay for the last couple of nights, she had a few days off work, so it was lovely to have her, i really didnt want her to go home though, i find it really hard having her leave again, she lives around 4 hours away so its a bit of a hike to just pop out and see her.

It doesnt help that i have been feeling a bit down lately, im not sure why, i think im just a bit lonely hence why i miss Mum, Darryl has been working heaps (great for the bills being self employed, but hard on the relationship) and ive been finding it really hard to just get out and do things, i need to try harder to get out, but the weather makes it hard, and there is only so much window shopping you can do. but i need to force myself a bit more to think of other things to do, With Kaylee i ended up with Post Natal Depression, so if i dont start kicking myself in the ass a bit more, it will probably kick in again once this bub is born, and i really dont want to get back into that hole, it really isnt nice. ive been feeling really good Morning Sickness wise, just a bit sad and lonely for some reason, im sure i will work it out...

the last 2 days have been hard with Kaylee too, poor thing ended up with vomiting and a temperature which was upsetting, but with Mum here it made it all the more easier to deal with, we were up (mostly Darryl i kept falling back asleep, was just shattered!) for most of the night on and off with her, but today she seems to be getting more like her normal self which is good.

im really looking foward to my scan on Monday, i would love to find out what im having, and i will if Darryl cant come along, (but i wont tell him because he wants a surprise) but hopefully he can come along and see his baby! i love having scans done, just to make sure everything is as it should be and just get a new little peek at my Pepi, a love it so much already! and i have a whole 21 weeks to go!! i hope it zooms by like the first 19 did!!!!