BLOODY DOGS!!!

Grrrrr, yesterday was a bit of an upside down day really! All started with a text i received around 10am from Darryl telling me he was at the A&E and waiting to be seen for a dog bite!!

He was at a job up Henderson Valley, and getting ready to leave when he heard screams for help from a woman, he ran to the road and saw at another farm (very well known establishment up Henderson Valley, with a cafe and farm animals etc) a woman who was visiting said well known farm, with her child, had let her dog out (Pitbull) for a run, in a paddock full of sheep and cows!! and what does the pitty do? latches on to a sheep and wont let go, attacking the poor thing, so Darryl made Tara (our beautiful dog, tragedy if she had of got involved) stay back at the ute, and ran across the road to pull the dog off the sheep, he pulls the dog off, dog bites him on both legs, he only thought it was one leg for a while, THROUGH his thick cordery jeans! NOONE from the said farm came out to help, they would have definatly heard the cries for help from the woman if Darryl did all the way across the road, and when a guy finally did come out, hes following the sheep around slowly, basically watching it bleed and seeing how it was! Darryl said he didnt seem concerned that a dog had attacked the poor thing, and when Darryl walked past him, bleeding from his wounds, he ignored Darryl, WHO had just saved their friggin sheep! the guy also didnt acknowledge the silly woman who let her dog out into the paddock, (if it was my business i would want reperation and damages!) the woman was of course extrememly shaken up and my lovely kind hearted husband, as much as he wanted to lay into her and tell her what a dumbass she was and what the hell was she thinking, and the silly dog needed shooting etc, just helped her get the dog in her car and told her to go home, he thinks that that shook her up enough and he didnt want to add to it because she still had to drive with a child in the car.

soooo back he heads to Henderson to get seen to, he had a tetnus shot, which he said hurt soooo much more than the bites! and is on Antibiotics for a week. he definatly does not want to get an infection! he was also pissed that he has now broken his "record" lol he hasnt been to a doctor for yearrrrs at least the last 5-10! never since i have known him! but of course he gets patched up, and carrys on working! i was SO worried and i told him i wanted him home so i could look after him! but nooooo lol he was fine, he just wanted to carry on working!

he gets home around 5pm last night, lol a little bit of pride in his war wounds, but blardy scary, those dogs can KILL a person, tear them to shreds and usually they dont let go, they hold on and shake, can cause huge damage, Darryl only got puncture wounds.

So i cooked him a lovely meal of comfort food! lol Crumbed schnitzel with Thai seasoning in the crumb (real bad for you, fried in oil! i very rarely cook this because its fried and fatty!) Mashed potatos (yep with butter and milk!) and steamed corn, brocolli and carrots, lol that made his night! there was a heap of fat in this meal! lol

so after dinner i popped off to a friends Prenzel party, yummmmmm lol i would have LOVED to have tried the liquors and schnapps, but of course i kept well away from them, was a good evening though, a few people got a bit tiddly on them, im looking foward to my garlic oil and vinegarette to arrive, yummmmmm it was lovely to get out on my own, to something completely NON kid related with ADULTS and no children at all, soooo nice! im going to try to get out as much as possible before baby comes, and Darryl completely agrees and is quite happy to come home early sometimes to help out with Kaylee so i can go out, im getting back into scrapbooking, i havent done any since December and so every 2nd Wednesday night i will be out of the house, im very much looking foward to it.

lol just had a lovely Kaylee related incident, i though, ok i will sit Kaylee down with her breakfast (this is at 8am) and i will post on my blog, means she is happy watching tv and eating, and i get a few minutes to myself first thing, lmao, she got tooooo quiet with her Rice Bubbles, yoghurt and milk..... she had them everywhere! all over the floor, all up her arms, down her legs, in her hair, her face was covered, she had smeared it into her little table and chairs, it was everywhere! little bugger! so a big cleanup has just happened and a wee talk about WHY we use our spoon and not our hands.... yeah VERY messy!

anyway as we have had a pretty busy week, something on every day, we are going to stay home today, have been invited out, which i politely declined, i think it will do Kaylee well this week to have a day at home, have a good afternoon sleep and get geared up for the weekend, Darryl is working both Saturday and Sunday, so im going solo for 7 days this week :( but money talks at the moment and we are so proud of ourselves for all the bills we are paying. feeling a bit lighter in the pocket, but a lot lighter in the stress department! (business wise!)

my pregnancy is going well, im getting bigger and bigger every day it seems, lol but its quite nice to know im well over half way now and i have been finding some gorgeous items 2nd hand on trademe, for the fraction of the cost new. ahhh i love trademe! lol just have to find some more stuff to sell so i can spend some more money! lol

So frustrating!

I have NO IDEA how im going to handle a newborn and my daughter together if Kaylee keeps behaving how she is, im trying SO hard with her, we are doing so much more than normal, and so many new things too, i was hoping that this will keep her from being bored, but noooooo, i have her enrolled in the local kindy, and she should start before 2 years 6mths, but that gives me about 6 mths of tearing my hair out!

Kaylee is a sweet child, i love her so so much, she is generally such a good girl, but (someone PLEASE tell me its a phase and they grow out of it quick!!) she is just so damn clingy! and totally misbehaves when we are out! i dont know what to do when we are out, because she completely ignores what i say, and you cant really do "time out" in a busy shopping mall! the screaming is LOUD and the kicking her legs and flinging her arms around is just ridiculous, i usually have her in the stroller, and if im not on my own, the other person (usually Darryl, today mum) helps her walk around, because i really cant chase after her, im too pregnant and blardy sore at the moment (back, arms, legs, stomach, bum, you name it, i hurt!) i KNOW she is frustrated at something, but i dont know what, because of course, she cant talk, and all we can work out is that she wants to run away and have someone chase her, ahhhh, not going to happen! i LOVE shopping, its a fave hobby of mine, but it almost brings me to tears the thought of me going somewhere on my own with her, because i KNOW she will misbehave, i dont want to be giving her sweets, because i try to avoid them anyway, and really, she should behave without them, and what happens when there are no more? more tantrums!

i should clarify, i dont go shopping like i used to when she was new, i used to be able to get out for a couple or few hours at a time, and be able to take my time, and wander around nicely, now i know she is older and try to be half an hour tops with her in the stroller, otherwise she walks (like i say with Darryl usually) and we can continue shopping. but its usually just me... and its getting hard!!!!

but its not only at the shops where im having problems, visiting people is becoming a huge issue too, we went and finally saw Kate and family today, much overdue and SO MUCH looked foward to, and met Natalia for the first time, poor Amelia was looking forward to playing with Kaylee SO much, and what did my daughter do? not only snobbed poor Amelia, but everytime Amelia went up to her "play?" Amelia would say, Kaylee would cry, and this is what Kaylee is doing, everytime she isnt getting what she wants, or everytime we are at someone elses house, (keep in mind that im not talking strangers here, she has grown up with Amelia over the last 2 years) she does this, she will not play with the other child, she will not even be civil to the other child, and it is SO embarressing, all i want is to go out and talk to the other adult, and have proper conversation, but i spend most of my time dealing to my daughter and her tantys, because that is what they are, she isnt upset, she is just being naughty! and i am SO STUCK at what to do! the first time it happened was about a month ago at a friends house, and i just put it down to Kaylee being tired, which she was, but it has happened EVERY time we have gone out since, so she misbehaves when we visit friends, she misbehaves when we go shopping, and she is extrememly clingy at home, everytime i want MY TIME i dont usually get it and im hating it! i really dont know what to do and get VERY upset about it, as much as i love Kaylee, im really starting to resent her for it.

At home she is having her day sleep less and less, which she does NEED every day, and i NEED her to have, i need that hour or two of peace, whether its to eat, or to read, or to do the blog thing, i NEED it, but for the last 2 years i have spent 100% of my time with Kaylee being mummy and i need to get back to being CARLA some of the time too, i need my identity back, i cannot eat without Kaylee helping herself with my food, i cannot go to the loo on my own, i cannot watch what i want on TV, when im online, im usually typing with 1 hand because i have Kaylee on my knee, the tantrums are becoming unbearable (when she doesnt get what she wants) and i end up locking her in her bedroom, but then im so stressed i cannot appreciate that little bit of time out that putting her in her bedroom gives me. and the grizzling for no reason, is just so ongoing!! i just dont have a clue where to go from here, its just getting too full on for me to handle, and shes not even 2 yet! apart from keeping up with timeout and continuing to stick to my guns (dont get me wrong, even though she wants it all, she does not get it, i do not let her rule my house, i am the parent, i am the adult, and i am in charge) what else do i do?? negotiation does not work, she doesnt understand it, i do try it, but she really has no idea what im trying to tell her, things like star charts etc, she is still too young for too, she has no idea how "cool" a sticker is or a stamp, argh its just so frustrating because all of a sudden im just so lost, i thought i had it down pat! now i dont have a friggin clue!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

anyway, Natalia is of course absolutly gorgeous, Kate is looking stunning, she is so slim and just glowing and SO proud of her beautiful family, Joe is being a fantastic Dad, taking it VERY seriously and doing a great job, and Amelia is a beautiful big sister, just adores Natalia, it was wonderful to see!

i got 127 photos of out honeymoon printed today, ive booked in for Scrapbooking classes again and will start next wednesday, i am VERY much looking foward to doing something for ME again, on my own, without any kids! ive been putting it off because they go so late, but the time has come where i will just have an early night the next night, i need to get out, and im desperate to get my wedding album done and finished. call it my way of nesting! i cant bend down far enough to clean out the cupboards! lol

im slowly getting around the house washing the inside of the windows, very slowly! lol hopefully they (well the insides, im too sore to do the outsides!) will all be nice and clean in time for Kaylees birthday!

so a bit of this and a bit of that going on, yes i am very hormonal, and very tired, but im still me. Sometimes just being me, just doesnt happen....

not much to say really...

we had a nice weekend, although i really cant remember what we did on Saturday.. lol probably nothing much! thats why i cant remember! oh yes, i went to th e"book look" and got a couple of things for Kaylees birthday present, Sunday we went up to Darryls parents and spent the afternoon there, the weather was great, Darryls sister and BIL were there with their kids and all the kids played wonderfully and had a lovely time in the sunshine! everyone was in a good happy mood, so it made the day even more pleasant!

today i have tried to tidy the house, but with my daughter and her messiness, esp her way of peeling off crayon wrappers, it hasnt stayed tidy for long! lol i had a few visitors this afternoon and have more visitors (with kids) coming tomorrow morning, so i wont tidy again until after they leave!

oh and a little neighbours washing update! lol well, half of it is no longer on the line, it is on the ground!!! hmmm.........

Wintery weather!!

lol at the moment its 8 degrees outside my house! in the middle of the damn day!! thank goodness its 21-22 inside! we are not going anywhere i tell you! not today! its cold, and windy, however it hasnt rained all day, damn it, i could of got more washing done if i was on to it!

that was my daily weather report... lmao :p

Thanks for all your comments on my pic! im finding it hard finding Maternity wear, i brought something on TM thinking it wont fit, it would be too small, (its only a L, im usually an XL) but its actually a little big for me.... give me a few months and a bigger stomach! lol ill fill it out nicely! but im just putting up with all my old rags for now, just until i get bigger, trying to avoid spending too much on maternity clothes, i will only be wearing them for another few months!

we are feeling heaps better, i still have a snot nose as does Kaylee, but that is it, no other cold symtoms, just have to get rid of all the snot! ohhh why oh why does a 2 yr old think its the done thing to wipe snot allllllll over her face and clothes BEFORE coming to mummy for a tissue?????? gross!

i have a couple of things coming up this week, my friend B is having a "Book Look" tomorrow afternoon, which is basically just a tupperware party (type of layout) with books! i have said to Darryl that i only want to get one thing, and that is another Potty book, as Kaylee LOVES hers so much it is completely demolished! and then my friend K is having a Prenzels party on Thursday night, once again i have limited myself to one thing only and that will be some Garlic Oil, i can really go overboard at things like this, so if i set my limits first, i know what im spending and that is it for me! but ohhh the new Avocado Dressing sounds devine too.... i have just sold a heap of stuff on TradeMe so will have a few dollars to spend!

One thing i have noticed lately re: food is that i really dont want it, and im quite happy to stop at one thing, AND im always choosing the healthy option on anything that i get, the thought of fatty foods reallllly makes me ill. and not just full on fatty food either, im a HUGE bread/rice/pasta fan, and my portions of these have significantly dropped, we end up with leftovers from dinner EVERY night, even though we are now feeding Kaylee exactly what we are eating, so there are 3 meals coming out of what used to be 2, and now there is enough for 4, even though im cooking the same amount, does that make sense??? and even though i am now serving up half the amount i used to eat on my plate, i still cannot usually eat it all. however in saying that, it must be enough for me, my baby is thriving, my health is great, and also im not depriving myself of anything (apart from the mammoth list of listeria risks!) if i want chocolate, i have it, chips, i have some, i just dont polish off the whole block, or the whole bag, put a few in a bowl and that does me. just for a small example, two of my fave takeaways (apart from sushi and subway! yummmm guess where im going as soon as i give birth!!) are Hell Pizza and Burger Fuel, we have had both recently and i used to be able to eat 1 snack size pizza and 1 sides of Samosas and Garlic Mayo, allllll to myself! we got it the other day and i could only manage half the pizza (2 sml slices) and 4 mini samosas (which is like a quater of the box!) a few days later we got Burger Fuel, and usually i can eat a whole burger and a punnet of spud chips with Aioli, i couldnt finish my burger, managed a little over half of it and only had 4-5 chips, just couldnt do it, was struggling, both days i had only eaten a small amount during the day (usually toast and tomato! yummmm!) and i was starving by the time dinner came around, its just surprising to me that i have lost so much of my appetite, but i think its something good for me!! :D

Welcome to Blogland Lou :) will come and check on you soon!

oh yeah... neighbours washing is still on the line..... ew...

20 week pic :) taken just now!

Half way!!!!!

20 weeks todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! how farkin exciting is that! 6am i heard Darryl stirring, and i said "guess what!?" he was like, "yeahhhhhhh wtf you waking me up for!" lol i said, baby will be here in 20 weeks! he went "yup" then rolled over and went back to sleep! lol secretly though, i know hes happy!

ive been out all day shopping, really i shouldnt of gone anywhere, but apart from going to my scan on Monday, i havent been out of the house for over a week and i was so bored!!! i REALLLLLY want to go and visit Kate and Joseph and Amelia and Natalia, but because we are all stuffy with a cold im keeping my germys away from that gorgeous precious wee family!!! soon though!! im feeling HEAPS better, still have a sore throat and icky nose, but feeling a lot happier and a lot more in control of myself and emotions (HAH! you wait, tomorrow ill be a blubbering mess again!) Kaylee is a wee bit better too, shes started teething again, i can tell by her red cheeks and red bum, always a sure fire way to tell teething its on its way again for you new mummys to be! nothing else is helping her except Pamol, which i dont give her often, lol when i went to the chemist to get her some more, the pharmecist was surprised that this is the first bottle i had brought for her since she was born! (she got one bottle when she was born of Pamol, and its lasted nearly 2 years!!!) but the Pamol is helping her heaps this time, which is great, i find it hard when shes in pain and if something helps her, then im all for it!

anyway, off the trail, SHOPPING! lol i popped out to Milford (they have all kinds of nicknacky cool little shops!) and spent a good few hours just browsing with my SIL and her daughter, and of course Kaylee, well.... Kaylee decided it would be a great idea to grizzle, most of the way around! made it very hard, we always try really hard to include her when we are out, so she just isnt sitting in her pushchair the whole time, and she goes on rides and eats with us and browses the clothes shops (its so cute, she looks at things like i do, and says 'ohhhhhh nice'!!!) but today she didnt know what she wanted and even a carasol ride couldnt cheer her up, so she had a little nap on the way home and then i put her to bed with a bottle when we got home, and she woke up SO much better, but i didnt get to do the food shopping on the way home like i intended and not only do we have NO meat and NO veggies and NO fruit (except lemons and kiwifruit!) but we also have NO nappies and NO rubbish bags and NO tissues left!!! toilet paper hurts my nose! lol

we are trying to work out what carseat to get for Kaylee, we think we have it sussed, then another option comes up, its frustrating! because we can only really afford to buy 1 carseat, we have decided baby can go into what Kaylee is in now (it is a from newborn to 18 kg carseat) and then that means we dont have to buy a capsule, and we will put Kaylee into the next size carseat up, a booster, but we dont want her without a harness just yet, which means we need a convertable booster, its mind boggling how many there are to choose from! lol when we chose Kaylees carseat we just brought one that looked georgous and snuggly! turns out we did make a good choice, but we did no research into it and really didnt have a clue what we were buying! have a couple of years with a kid and man, the possibilities are endless! we THINK we have found one we like that suits us for now, means when baby is ready to go into a booster, she can have Kaylees and Kaylee can then go into a half booster..... i think.....

lol you confused yet?? we are too!!!

all else fails, we will just sell it on Trademe if it doesnt suit!!!

forgot to mention yesterday, the scan picked up that my placenter is Anterior, which isnt a problem at all, but it does explain why my MW finds it hard to find the heartbeat and why babys movements feel so dull! nice to have explainations on these little things sometimes! but once baby gets a bit bigger then the placenter should move and i will feel big thuds again!

oh and Rach, yep we do have a name for baby, and i may tell you, one day :) if youve been a good girl!!! :p

Scan Pics

ok the first pic is the side profile of the face
the 2nd pic is 2 shots of her legs, in the right hand shot you can see her legs crossed!
the 3rd shot is another profile, with her hand up to her face, you can see her arm bent
the last shot is her little feet :) 5 gorgeous toes on each!

Can you keep a secret???

hehe :)

We had our 20 week scan today (im 20 weeks this wednesday, can you believe!!!) unfortunatly Darryl couldnt make it, as hard as he tried to get there, it just wouldnt of happened, and i got to see our gorgeous baby GIRL!!! she is just stunning, i will try to get some pics up later tonight, but Darryl has to do it because i have no idea about computer crap!!! even at 20 weeks i can see similaritys to Kaylee!! same lips even!

i know that we werent going to find out, but we had many reasons for finding out, the main one being me (this is just my way of thinking) being able to bond with my baby girl, i can name her now and know who she is and have 20 weeks to get used to the fact that she is a girl and we can prepare ourselves for her, Darryl and i had a long talk about this last night and i said to him that i did want to find out (he knew this anyway) but if he didnt i wouldnt, i know i said before if he didnt make it to the scan i would find out, but really if he still didnt want to know then i wouldnt of found out. anyway im sitting in the waiting room and i get this text "find out what it is, tell me, i want to know" i sent back "are you sure??" and yep he was sure, so find out i did, and to be honest, as soon as the doppler went on my stomach there it ALL was! lol ass in the air she was flashing her bits, and the sonographer said, "well i can tell you right now that its the girl, there you go, perfect view!!" and THEN baby crossed her legs!!! hehe GOOD GIRL!!! so to be honest i would have seen it all and known anyway!!! so we had a great scan, 31 pics in all and a dvd, we dont have a scanner so i cant scan the pics, i think Darryl was saying something about taking stills from the dvd... not sure how that works, but hes the computer dude, so he will work it out im sure! then i can show you our wee girl!!

now a HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to Emily on her wonderful news!! another little blogger babe on the way! hehe gotta love it! and another HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to Karen for the news that she too has a wee girl on the way! haha not only do we share the same due date, but both having girls too! very cool!

a very cool day! :D

Rainy days!!

The Thunder! The Lightening! The pouring rain!!! isnt it just all amazing!!!! So nice when you dont have to go anywhere and can just snuggle up inside and listen to the weather take over!!! The thunder has been so loud its shaking our house and windows! makes you jump every time! I do feel sorry for the people over on the North Shore that were on the news tonight, their house was struck by lightening! noone hurt, but what a mess!!!

We are being REALLY lazy for dinner tonight, Hells Pizza has just been delivered! ohhh yum! so thats our treat for the week, naughty aye!!! (Well ok, also the Caramello bar of chocolate in the cupboard.....) the 8 kilos (yes 8! would you believe!) i have lost so far this pregnancy, may start creeping back on, i just have to be careful i think, not make this too much of a habit!

I looked after my neice this morning, so her and Kaylee had fun playing which was good, and really we have just had a quiet afternoon, havent done a thing! Tomorrow we have to pop out to the shops then out to New Lynn to Dennys for lunch for a friends birthday.

Poor Kaylee has come down a bit unwell today, all stuffed up with a cold that shes picked up from somewhere, all snuffly and croaky and not happy, so ive been out to the chemist and shes now dosed up on Pamol and Dimetapp and covered in Vicks Vapour rub, and hopefully she will shake it real quick, i hope so!!! not only is it awful for her having a cold, its a busy week ahead and im hoping not to cancel a thing this time!!! i will give her until Monday afternoon to see if she is ok, then if not i will take her to the Doctors.

I have my 20 week Anatomy scan on Monday, im SOOOOo excited and cant wait to see baby again! we have FINALLY decided on names, and Darryl actually suggested some too!!!

as a side note, do you think its weird that our neighbours (only been next door for about 5 weeks) have had their washing on the line (can see it from our house - im not THAT nosey!) for the past 4 weeks??? its starting to go green and grow!!!!! we just think its really odd is all..... :)

I am so in love...

With my little girl! she just lights up my life every day, its like she knows when im sad, Kaylee will come up to me and just say "hug?" and hold up her arms, and ohhh its the best medicine ever! She will undo the zip on my jacket and tickle my chest saying "ticklytickly!" she walks out of our bedroom after going through all our drawers, all dressed up in our clothes saying "awww peetty!" (pretty) when she sits her dolly on the potty, and says "ohh good girl, you did weeeeees!" when she sits on the couch and sings "oopsy oopsy pider" (incy wincy spider) or "gookle gookle wittle tar" (twinkle twinkle little star) and does all the actions, and i know its me that has taught her, me that has done well with her and all my time and effort and love really does pay off and she just makes me so god damn proud to be her mother, shes such an individual, such a happy wee soul, has such a great imagination and is also so loving and caring and soft and gentle, but boisterous and noisy and full on too.

Yep i love her :)

Thursday...

Firstly a huge congratulations to Kate, Joseph, Amelia and family on the birth of GORGEOUS Natalia!!! isnt she just stunning!!!! Welcome to the world beautiful girl! i cant wait to meet you!!!!

Secondly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATE!!!! I hope you have a wonderful day hun!! Been thinking of you heaps!!!! xxxx

ive had my Mum come and stay for the last couple of nights, she had a few days off work, so it was lovely to have her, i really didnt want her to go home though, i find it really hard having her leave again, she lives around 4 hours away so its a bit of a hike to just pop out and see her.

It doesnt help that i have been feeling a bit down lately, im not sure why, i think im just a bit lonely hence why i miss Mum, Darryl has been working heaps (great for the bills being self employed, but hard on the relationship) and ive been finding it really hard to just get out and do things, i need to try harder to get out, but the weather makes it hard, and there is only so much window shopping you can do. but i need to force myself a bit more to think of other things to do, With Kaylee i ended up with Post Natal Depression, so if i dont start kicking myself in the ass a bit more, it will probably kick in again once this bub is born, and i really dont want to get back into that hole, it really isnt nice. ive been feeling really good Morning Sickness wise, just a bit sad and lonely for some reason, im sure i will work it out...

the last 2 days have been hard with Kaylee too, poor thing ended up with vomiting and a temperature which was upsetting, but with Mum here it made it all the more easier to deal with, we were up (mostly Darryl i kept falling back asleep, was just shattered!) for most of the night on and off with her, but today she seems to be getting more like her normal self which is good.

im really looking foward to my scan on Monday, i would love to find out what im having, and i will if Darryl cant come along, (but i wont tell him because he wants a surprise) but hopefully he can come along and see his baby! i love having scans done, just to make sure everything is as it should be and just get a new little peek at my Pepi, a love it so much already! and i have a whole 21 weeks to go!! i hope it zooms by like the first 19 did!!!!

ohh baby baby its a wild world!

wow, this weather is amazing! our neighbours gate has even blown off!!! im just glad that we still have power! a lot of Auckland had no power at all today, bit of a mess really!

the lid of the sandpit has blown away (was weighed down!) my potted trees in the back yard have blown over, and there is rubbish (blown over the fence and out of the mailbox by the looks) everywhere! there will be a lovely cleanup once its fine again!!!

so a lovely day it has been staying home, all tucked up and warm, doing A LOT of colouring in! (Kaylees newest favourite thing)

i booked my next scan in today, so next Monday morning we will be going back and having another look at our wee bub! im really excited and cannot wait to see him/her again!!!

i cannot believe im already half way there, its amazing how fast it has all gone (i probably say that wayyy too often!) and im having a lot of fun getting everything organised! we really only need 3 more items, and they are a new carseat for Kaylee so baby can go straight into the one Kaylee is using now, a change table (saves my poor back!) and a basinett option for my buggy (not a necessity, just something i want!) there are plenty more things that i really want, but i have to be practical, and most things cost an arm and a leg and really how often would some things get used? i really dont think too often in this house!

Theres no going back now!!

we have actually had to keep overalls on Kaylee the last 2 days, just because we havent been home, and there would be no way we could toilet train her when we are out all of the time, im shit scared of her weeing in the middle of the shops! so we are doing Nappies while out and undies at home, and so far, we are doing O.K! she has only done a teeny wee on the loo before holding on again, i think it freaked her out, then once i got the pullup back on she let go, i think its the security of having something around her bum, and if there isnt the security of it there she gets a bit scared. but of course it was a huge deal for doing wees on the loo (even though it was just a trickle) and she enjoyed her lollipop! (which we have now changed to an M&M as lollipops are just too big!) but we havent had a repeat performance yet but thats ok, i know its a slow process. she seems SO proud of herself while wearing undies, its very cute! She is a lot happier sitting on the loo than she is on the potty, so we are just keeping it up with the loo, makes her happier and we want to keep it all as positive as possible.

we have had a nice weekend, just busy, which has made me pretty tired, but its also been a productive weekend and apart from Kaylees room (which needs a total uphaul and sortout!) which she loves to re mess every day! the house is spotless, its great! with Kaylees room, we will be spending a bit of time on it, dismantleing the cot and giving it a good clean in preperation for the new baby, setting up the cot in our bedroom, setting up the bed for Kaylee to go into and sorting her toys and clothes out properly, so thats a WHOLE weekends work... maybe next week!!!

we had friends over to dinner last night, i cooked a roast chicken, and lots of veggies and they brought home made Apple Pie and icecream, YUMMMMMMM it was SO good!

Tomorrow im hoping to be able to pop out and visit Kate (is that still ok mate?) that is of course unless she is otherwise engaged with a much more important appt! (you never know!) and then im going out to Karaka on Tuesday morning to visit my friend who had her baby boy a couple of weeks ago, then Mum will be out sometime in the afternoon staying for a couple of nights, it will be nice to have some advice on the Toilet Training, shes done it enough!!!

Darryl and i are working through all our options in regards to the baby being born, we are actually thinking of maybe going out to Birthcare in Parnell, which is a lovely small maternity hospital, and when you stay you are only in a room with one other person and you share an ensuite, (you can pay for a private room and ensuite, but that is $300 a night!!) which im a lot more comfortable with than last time at Waitakere i had to walk forever to get to a loo that i shared with god knows how many others, and after birth, well, lets just say the less people you share a loo with, the better! there are so many discusting people out there, i would hate to know what their houses look like.... and we have decided that i really do need to stay somewhere for a few nights to get as much help as possible with breastfeeding and careing for the baby, i found last time i was just left on my own (others have had great experiances at Waitakere, i just did not, and i had a slack midwife as well which didnt help) i just think that as long as i can get as much support and help as available to me this time then i may have a better go at things like getting breastfeeding properly established etc. but as i said, we are just working through our options and what is available to us :)

just thinking outloud really! :)

Theres no going back now!!

we have actually had to keep overalls on Kaylee the last 2 days, just because we havent been home, and there would be no way we could toilet train her when we are out all of the time, im shit scared of her weeing in the middle of the shops! so we are doing Nappies while out and undies at home, and so far, we are doing O.K! she has only done a teeny wee on the loo before holding on again, i think it freaked her out, then once i got the pullup back on she let go, i think its the security of having something around her bum, and if there isnt the security of it there she gets a bit scared. but of course it was a huge deal for doing wees on the loo (even though it was just a trickle) and she enjoyed her lollipop! (which we have now changed to an M&M as lollipops are just too big!) but we havent had a repeat performance yet but thats ok, i know its a slow process. she seems SO proud of herself while wearing undies, its very cute! She is a lot happier sitting on the loo than she is on the potty, so we are just keeping it up with the loo, makes her happier and we want to keep it all as positive as possible.

we have had a nice weekend, just busy, which has made me pretty tired, but its also been a productive weekend and apart from Kaylees room (which needs a total uphaul and sortout!) which she loves to re mess every day! the house is spotless, its great! with Kaylees room, we will be spending a bit of time on it, dismantleing the cot and giving it a good clean in preperation for the new baby, setting up the cot in our bedroom, setting up the bed for Kaylee to go into and sorting her toys and clothes out properly, so thats a WHOLE weekends work... maybe next week!!!

we had friends over to dinner last night, i cooked a roast chicken, and lots of veggies and they brought home made Apple Pie and icecream, YUMMMMMMM it was SO good!

Tomorrow im hoping to be able to pop out and visit Kate (is that still ok mate?) that is of course unless she is otherwise engaged with a much more important appt! (you never know!) and then im going out to Karaka on Tuesday morning to visit my friend who had her baby boy a couple of weeks ago, then Mum will be out sometime in the afternoon staying for a couple of nights, it will be nice to have some advice on the Toilet Training, shes done it enough!!!

Darryl and i are working through all our options in regards to the baby being born, we are actually thinking of maybe going out to Birthcare in Parnell, which is a lovely small maternity hospital, and when you stay you are only in a room with one other person and you share an ensuite, (you can pay for a private room and ensuite, but that is $300 a night!!) which im a lot more comfortable with than last time at Waitakere i had to walk forever to get to a loo that i shared with god knows how many others, and after birth, well, lets just say the less people you share a loo with, the better! there are so many discusting people out there, i would hate to know what their houses look like.... and we have decided that i really do need to stay somewhere for a few nights to get as much help as possible with breastfeeding and careing for the baby, i found last time i was just left on my own (others have had great experiances at Waitakere, i just did not, and i had a slack midwife as well which didnt help) i just think that as long as i can get as much support and help as available to me this time then i may have a better go at things like getting breastfeeding properly established etc. but as i said, we are just working through our options and what is available to us :)

just thinking outloud really! :)

ohhhh yukky.....

i thought i could handle going out today.... but naaaa im finding it hard enough sitting upright without wanting to spew.... havent spewed yet... but its comin....

Sorry Kate!!!! xxxx

THIS SUXXXXXXXXX!!!!! can i yell and scream and throw a tanty???????? not going to achieve much is it... so yes i did speak too soon the other day saying i was feeling great etc, because im right back to square 1! i cant wait for the couple of days next week when im feeling fine again

food doesnt taste anywhere near as good when you know its going to come up and youll have to taste it all over again.... have i grossed you out enough yet????

my little girl is growing up... not only is she 2 in a months time, but she has decided that she no longer wants to wear a nappy..... blardy hell! i dont need this yet!!! she gets fully undressed (singlet, pants everything!) takes off her nappy, and puts it in the rubbish, saying "no nappy" i had knickers on her before, she thought they were pretty smart, but she decided that those were too constrictive for her too, and off they come, she sat on the potty for ages, we read together and played, but nope, "oh, no wee wees" as she says! or "nup, no pooooos" hmmmm but do you think i could get the nappy back on her..... nearly 2 hours without one was enough for me! so finally she is now dressed with a nappy on again, but what a mission! and yup, you guessed it, i dont have a blardy clue about toilet training, so once she is in bed for her afternoon sleep im trawling for info on how on earth to start and what im meant to be doing! i have no idea!!!!

have an OK weekend planned, tomorrow night we have some friends coming over with their little boy for dinner, havent had them over for a long time, its been a bit wierd really... so i invited them over for dinner, so tomorrow and tonight will be filled with housework (that i should be doing now, but cant be stuffed, so Darryl and I will finish it tonight!) and food shopping and cooking etc, dumb ass me said i will do a roast chicken.... im tempted to get a bbq chicken from the supermarket and take the credit for it! lol mmmm reckon they would be able to tell????? so roast chicken, brocolli and cauli and cheese sauce, roast veggies and steamed beans and peas and carrots for dinner tomorrow night.... first time in a long time ive actually had something planned ahead! oh.. and packet gravy... lol i so cant make gravy from scratch and the thought of all that fat... eww ick!

Sunday we are all off to Chipmunks for the morning for Maias birthday, they are all feeling sooo much better (my soup did it... i reckon!!) which is great, and the kids will have a play, while we sit and drink coffee... and talk shit probably! :D

its actually a really busy month for birthdays, Maias was the 7th, Kates is the 15th (hehe) my friend Belindas is the 18th, then i have a "book look" to go to (like a tupperware party, but with kids books, very cool) on the 24th and a Prenzels party (ohhhh yum!) on the 29th... no alcohol tastings for me of course, but the dessert toppings and the oils are to die for! so im looking foward to getting some more Garlic infused and Chilli infused Olive oils... but im HOPING that i will be well enough to go to those 2 parties, i dont like having things at my house, but i LOVE going to them!

time to get off the computer, my head is spinning... need more water!!!! :)

Soup Glorious Soup!!!

Have i ever mentioned before how i LOVE soup?? lmao i even eat veggies i HATE in soup, yummmmmmm i have a HUGE pot of it bubbling away on my stove, bacon hock, potato, pumpkin, onion, carrot, celery and a tonne of soup mix mmmmmm it smells soooooo good!!!

Rochelle (Darryls sister) is sick with Laryngytis (i so spelt that wrong! sorry!) and Maia (age 2 today) is just getting over a terrible bout of Croup (awful time of year for kidlets isnt it!) so their household is, well, on hold! so i have said to them i will bring over some soup to them for their dinner, at least they have one good meal in their tummy!! so soup for everyones dinner! lol

however when i was slicing some pumpkin up, i managed to slice the side of my finger open... yeah... duh i know! and just so happened that at the same time i blocked up (Darryls job tonight to unblock!) the waste disposal!!!! awful blardy thing! luckily Kaylee was (and still is! yeah!) in bed sleeping, so i didnt have to worry about my nosey parker getting in the way!

shes having a lovely sleep actually... lmao probably because she woke us up at 6am! at the side of our bed, patting Darryl going "daddddddddyyyyyyyyyy" and then "agoobledegookdegooobegook" as they do! we tried getting her back to sleep, but nup she wouldnt have a bar of it, "nup no nighnighs!!" So Kaylee and i stayed in bed and watched cartoons all morning! slack tart aye! lol shes still pretty grizzly and there is a peek of a new tooth, just one however! i wish they would both come at once!!!

im finding as the days go by im not as sick in the morning, i actually feel pretty normal, come early evening im a bit blah, but Darryl is usually home by then, so its ok, getting pretty managable, hopefully it stays that way!

18 weeks today! i think baby has moved further towards my back, my stomach is no where near as large as it was a couple of weeks ago and i dont feel so heavy and ick, but it means baby's movements have died down as well, very very dull feeling, but they are still there :)

even though this pregnancy is going very fast for me, nearly half way already! i REALLY want my baby NOW!!! i can wait to meet him/her and have Kaylee meet her little brother or sister, its all so exciting really!!!!

Bit bored really....

Just kind of sitting around not doing much, but not wanting to do much either, you know? well, when i say not doing much, ive done the housework and 4 loads of washing today, BUT id much rather be out an about, but i just dont trust myself out at the moment, i seem to spew at the most inappropriate times! i was meant to go out and visit a friend of mine today or Friday, she had her baby boy a week or so ago but they live an hour away and i reallllllly cant drive that far this week, it would stuff me! 2 hours driving in one day, so i said to her i am hoping that i get out sometime next week, im busting for a cuddle!!!

A friend of mine is due over for a visit shortly, our 2 girls are 10 days apart, and she is due 5 days before me with her #2, they found out today that they are having a wee boy, so thats lovely news too, they are rapt! in a way i REALLY want to find out what we are having, (we wont though, the decision has been made!) just to be more prepared for when baby does come, and so i dont keep calling baby IT all the time! but the surprise at the end will be so worth it i think!

its my neices 2nd birthday tomorrow, (her and Kaylee are 5 weeks apart) however they are all sick, so we are keeping away until they are definatly well again, dont want any bugs in my house! so Kaylee and i might pop out to a toy shop or somewhere tomorrow to find her a little present...

i really dont have much to say today..... if i go on, then i will be going onnnnnnnn......

hopefully tomorrow is more exciting!!!!!

Monday Monday....

Last night, i had this overwhelming craving for Burger Rings... haha, has to be one of the very few junk few cravings i have had with this pregnancy so far, all i usually feel like is salad or fruit! not even meat! so i said to Darryl, i really feel like Burger Rings, his eyes went CHA-CHING! and he said, well, i feel like chips and chocolate! lmao his cravings are worse than mine! So off to the shop i toddled, i was doing a Tuna Pasta salad for dinner and we were out of Tuna, so i was off to the shop anyway, but anyone would think my husband was the pregnant one! his "cravings" are worse than mine! mmmm but now i have a lovely Tuna pasta salad in the fridge that i may be nibbling on all day, its my fave! all it is, is Tuna, ( i use 2 small tins or one large one) a tin of crushed pineapple, a cup or 2 of mixed veggies and mayo, all mixed into the pasta, and it ALWAYS tastes better the next day! mmmmm yum, for someone feeling so nausious, lol its not going to stop me eating that dish!

I think Kaylee is teething... she has been so grizzly and SO irritable and crying at every little thing, not to mention dribbling! she hasnt dribbled in yonks! i may have to give her some Pamol i think... if she will take it! you never know with these 2 (or nearly 2!) year olds! seems like everyone around her age has the icky teeth coming through again, must be my turn! not that i can get right into her mouth to see!

my weekend has been o.k Saturday Darryl and Kaylee went out for the morning doing car stuff, boring... i stayed home and enjoyed my quiet time! Saturday evening i went downhill big time and it was like a normal puking day, just in the night time, however Darryl was there to see how bad i get, he was a bit shocked i think, had no idea that even though i told him i get bad, how bad i got, maybe he thought i was making it up, i dont know, i guess things dont seem real until you are there to see it happen!

Yesterday was well... interesting... Darryls Nana has been a little down lately, (whole lot of that side of the family issues...) so i thought it would be nice to get together with a couple of Darryls cousins and their husband/Wife and have a nice family lunch.... Well Nana wasnt in a happy mood that day anyway, and didnt really want to spend time with the Grandchildren (Darryls age) that she rarely sees, you could feel the tension in the house and it ended up a little bit of a mess! lmao ohhh well, can only try aye! i wasnt feeling to shit hot from the night befores episode (it really takes it out of you!) and it was really hard trying to keep conversation going (that was appropriate infront of elder people, we have no problems talking any other time!) oh well, i tried! lol

lmao, Kaylee just brought me a dolly (one leg is missing for some reason!) and a sanitry pad from the bathroom drawer! shes trying to put the "nappy" on dolly! very cute, i took some pics with my phone, when Darryl gets home i will get him to up load them for me!

Anyway, Darryl is at work, just another day when you need the money, no holiday here! and i better get my girl some morning tea, enjoy the rest of your Queens Birthday! (when it isnt even her birthday... i so dont get it...!)