Kaylee for sale

going cheap $1 and free postage any takers?????

wanna know why? not only did she throw a lovely little paddy when we were out with Kate and Amelia today when she didnt want to get back in her pushchair, we get home, and she doesnt want to go to bed for her nap, doesnt want lunch, only wants to terrorize the cats, i try for 3 hours to get her to bed to sleep, usually she sleeps for that long! in that time she trashes her newly cleaned and tidyed bedroom, i get her up, i go to the loo (for the millionth time today), she gets into the tub of margerine on the bench, grabs a handful, rubs it all over her face, her clothing, her hair, the floor, i take her clothing off, she runs away and takes her nappy off then wees on the floor, i clean up that mess, and put a new nappy on her and a bodysuit so she cant undo her nappy, she comes into the lounge and rubs vegemite sandwhiches into the freshly cleaned and vacuumed carpet, remind me again why im having another kid????? i was SO looking foward to napping when Kaylee was meant to have her nap, Darryl reckons maybe we need to put the side back on her cot, i dont want to take a step backwards, i want her to stay in a bed and perservere, are the terrible 2s hitting early?

god knows but im tearing my farkin hair out today

better go and bath my butter covered little shit.......

just popping in quickly

We won the Netball game against Jamaica! wooohoooo!! now its the fight for gold tomorrow!!

we also won another gold tonight in the 1200 (or was it 1600... sorry nappy brain) metres run, GO KIWI!!

Im loving watching the commonwealth games! Kaylee chose a great time to be sick, we have watched so much tv this week! i have a goal to get out next week and do stuff! so far i have plans for Wednesday and Friday and next weekend, but im sure the other dates will fill in fast, the amount of things i had to cancel last week, pain in the bum, but my girl is better now, so im rapt at that!

not really that much to say, still pregnant, still feeling blah, still tired and grumpy, hormonal and emotional.... did i mention grumpy? lol poor Darryl....

enjoy the rest of your weekend!

please NO meat!

lol im craving salmon and ham and surimi and marinated mussels! lol all the things i cannot have at the moment, but cannot stand MEAT i will eat chicken, but cooking up some steak last night and i could hardly hold my lunch in! Darryl thought christmas had come as he got 2 peices of steak instead of 1!!! red meat is just totally putting me off right now

i have however worked out today that i can have sushi :) now dont recoil in horror, lol if i go to my favourite sushi place (where i KNOW their rice is made up daily and they have an A rating) and get the cream cheese, pineapple and avocado ones, or the carrot, avocado and cucumber ones buy it first thing in the morning then come home and put it in my fridge, then i will be fine! WOOOHOOO!! however i will be fussy and picky and will not eat anywhere but my 2 fave places (they are VERY fussy with their hygeine and meat and veggies never mix, i have eaten in these places for years!) and will only eat these kind :)

have i justified myself enough yet? lol

7 weeks today :) BIG UPS to me! no bleeding, no cramping, no funny feelings, just HUGE bazookas, lots of tinglys in my tits, lots of weeing and nausea, ROCK ON!

Kaylee is ALOT better today, which has been nice, and my eating hasnt been to bad either, i have been the TOTAL hypercrite, and telling others to eat well and look after themselves and i havent been, i mean i have been eating a good brekkie, lunch and dinner, but come the afternoon and i just want to eat, and i want chips and crackers mostly! NOT GOOD today though has been easier and i have been sticking to fruit, however im wanting more savoury things than sweet (which is so not me) and in the food shopping i will be stocking up on hummus and carrots, celery and pita breads, keep it light, keep it tasty, keep it healthy :)

Dramas!

Having kids sure keeps you on your toes!

I have talked a bit lately about Kaylee being a bit off, which really isn't normal for her, we are hardly ever at the doctors (infact the Dr said to me today, I haven't seen you guys for ages!!! LOL) well this morning when I went to change her nappy, there was a lovely spotty rash, by the time I had changed her and given her some breakfast she had spots EVERYWHERE!! and was grizzly a bit lethargic and crying like she was in pain, so of course I panic and think holy crap shes got the measles or something (I think rubella/German measles are very dangerous to a pregnant woman but don't quote me on that, ask the nurse! LOL) so I rang the Dr who gave me an appt within the half hour, Darryl raced home to see how we were, by this stage Kaylee had perked up a wee bit (she saw daddy don't ya know!) and we were out the door getting in the car to the doctors, Darryl went off again to work and I raced to the doc, Kaylee grizzling all the way, we got to the doctors and Kaylee entertained all the elderly in the waiting room, making sure they all had a book or magazine each, LOL not necessarily the book or mag they may of wanted, but they got one all the same! LOL

Anyway, we get into my Doctors office and have a wee chat, she does the usual ears, nose and throat check, i show her the rash thats everywhere, she says that Kaylee is the third kid in that day (it was only 10am!) with the same thing, there is a virus going around (contaigous obviously) that makes them have a hideous sore throat and break out in a rash, what a relief that was! now at least i know that Kaylee isnt happy because of her throat, its really hard when you dont know what it is!

on a side note, im sure my boobs have grown at least 2 sizes so far since getting pregnant, they are HUGE lol just thought i would let you know! but its a good thing for me, i couldnt breastfeed Kaylee for very long, i never got engourged with her, never got let downs or huge bazookas, so hopefully i will be able to feed my new baby myself this time :) as we found out with Kaylee, formula is DAMN expensive! lol

bit boring really!

was my weekend!!

i didnt do, well, anything! i had ALL these plans, but all i really wanted to do was stay home, what i REALLY wanted was an afternoon nap, BUT i keep needing to go to the loo every 10 minutes (no im NOT exaggerating!) and was up, no shit, every hour last night, so my lovely, easy, blissful sleep i was meant to have last night, didnt happen!

I am LOVING the Commonwealth Games! I love the Olympics too and was guttered last time it was in a different time zone! im not a sporty person at all, but i love watching the Hockey (used to play as a kid dont ya know!) the swimming, the gymnastics, the triathlons, marathons, oh i just love it all! lol and being the pregnant emotional hormonal person i am right now, i bawl every time someone wins something, and it doesnt even have to be a Kiwi! lol im just so glad they worked so hard to win! ahhhh hormones!

So Tired!!!

had another crap night with Kaylee last night, and of course it was Drag Racing last night and Darryl wasnt home, so i STRUGGLED on my own, man i dont know how single mothers do it, cos i sure as hell couldnt! Kaylee was crying, i was crying, silently fuming at Darryl for being so god damn selfish going out when she is sick! i didnt get Kaylee down to sleep until around 11-11.30pm, very HARD! she seems a lot better today thank goodness, but still isnt 100% and i have cancelled my plans for tonight (i was invited out to a movie night, but im SO tired i couldnt handle it) so i can stay home and look after my baby and maybe, hopefully have a well deserved early night! i tell you what, as soon as Darryl gets home from work, its HIS turn! (can you tell im just a wee bit angry at him??) i may even have an afternoon sleep today, god knows i need it!!

so yes, my house is now turned upside down, i havent been able to put Kaylee down for about 3 days now, its a miracle i have done a few loads of washing and the dishes, i tell you! day sleeps havent even been happening!

have i vented enough yet? lol i think so!

you know what the sad thing is? i dont have very much at all to talk about other than my wee girl being sick, my life revolves around her, and when she is ill, i dont do anything else!!! but thats the way i like it for now :)

Something in the water??

i dont know, but so many kids are sick at the moment its not funny! maybe its the change of season, or the weather, or the time of the year i dont know.

Wednesday night Kaylee wouldnt go to bed until around 11.30pm, she developed a headcold, and was a bit grizzly, she woke at 12.30am, 4.30am and woke for the day at 6.30am, nice, not!

Yesterday i had 4 kids here, Kaylee, Maia (Kaylees cousin 21mths) Blake (a friends son, home schooled, age 6) and Helena (same friends daughter age 8) so busy busy household! the 2 oldest were only here for a couple of hours as their mum is in the AirForce band and had a parade on, Maia stayed for the whole day, which was fine, she is very easy to look after. however by the afternoon, MS had set in for me BIG TIME and i was rushing back and fowards to the loo feeling so nausious, and Kaylee had developed a temperature and was very grizzly and just blah! so it was a very quiet afternoon and Kaylee didnt really know what she wanted, poor thing, i kept the medicine going into her and lots of cuddles and she eventually went off to sleep about 8.30 last night, only waking once at 5.00am and then waking again at 8.30 shes still very grizzly and doesnt know what she wants, still has a wee temp, but seems to be ok, shes cuddled up on her couch with her blanket watching love to sing DVD at the moment, which seems to be keeping her happy for now, very hard to get food into her though, i managed to get a yoghurt into her for breakfast so at least she has had something, i HATE seeing my baby sick, its not fair!!

im finding that i have to keep eating to keep the nausia down, but i really cant keep eating! i have been nibbling on an apple for the past 1/2 an hour, but i cant eat all day! i am hoping that unlike with kaylee where i vomitted several times a day until over 32 weeks that this MS will die down quickly!

fingers crossed!!

the rest of yesterday....

lol well obviously i didnt come back, not because i didnt finish mind you, but because i was sooooo tired!! i did scrub down the bathroom and toilet, the paint in the bathroom didnt mark, as its proper washable paint! lol

im sure people are out to stress me out! i tell you! I cook dinner every night and Darryl does the dishes, do you think the dishes are done! NO! i come out this morning expecting a lovley clean kitchen, but nooooo i have to clean it all over again! argh!! bit of a drama last night with dinner, i had Chicken in a cassorole dish in the oven, cooking away, nice and slow, and while i was distracted Kaylee must of turned the oven up from 150 degrees to 300 degrees!!! i was on the phone with my mother and i heard all this hissing and spilling and then the kitchen filled up with smoke! so i got off the phone, and at the same time had to get the chicken out of the oven to avoid any more mess, open all the windows and doors, wave a book infront of the smoke alarm, and Kaylee decided that would be a great time to go running off down the driveway!!!!!! so im screaming for Kaylee to come back, chocking in the smoke, still trying to stop the smoke alarm and open more windows! the neighbours must of wondered what the hell was going on!!!!!

Stop laughing! it really was not funny!!!!!

however the chicken still wasnt cooked, it was just the sauce spilling over causing the mess and smoke and chaos! so i managed to save dinner, although by then i couldnt be assed so just make spicy noodles to go with it and that was it!

my daughters just walked up to me saying "poo stinky"

i think i have to go :)

Early Nesting maybe???

i dont know, but something stinks! and my house is so dirty! i didnt realise how gross it was until, well yesterday! i have scrubbed my kitchen clean (with an actual scrubbing brush! i usually do the floors with the brush but not the other surfaces.... i marked the paint though... oops!) all surfaces got done and im about to do the same with the bathroom and toilet, Darryl cant smell anything, maybe its just a preggy thing, but pooooooey! i cant go into the garage at the moment cos the catfood stinks too badly (i didnt notice it at all before btw, its just bikkies!) and im so frustrated with the clutter everywhere! i cant eat its that bad, its very hard to sit here on the computer because im looking around me and there is mess mess mess! i cant do anything but clean and tidy and im getting so angry because its not even making a dent yet!!!!!!! argh!!! Kaylee decided to empty out her packet of Rice Wheels onto the carpet, she shook them everywhere, i had just vacuumed... i cried, she cried.... i sent her to bed, we cried some more..... im going mental i tell you!!!!

Now Kaylee is asleep, after a big morning out, we met my SIL and Daniel and Maia at Chipmunks where they played all morning, im about to tidy some more, i may be back later, but if im not, you know i havent finished!!!!

im still here! :)

Hi! i havent posted for yonks i know... bit slack really, but been soooo busy! we should really be out looking at open homes today but have decided maybe we will do that tomorrow instead, we are such procrasinators!!!

we are off out to dinner tonight, a friends 30th birthday, so that should be nice, although being VERY hormonal at the moment my hair and skin look terrible! miracles will have to be made tonight i think! lol

i still have no idea what to wear as well.... :(

one good thing though is that my SIL heard we were going out tonight and offered to have Kaylee for us! how nice is that! we were just going to take her with us, but now we dont have to! yayay! can just go out and enjoy! one thing i will have to be aware of though is my drinking now, of course i have stopped drinking altogether but usually when i go to a restaurant the first thing i do is order a wine! back to OJ or Lemonade now! lol i wonder if they do non alcoholic cocktails???

Kaylee had her first night in a Big Girls Bed last night! no more cot! wooohooo! well actually it still is the cot (take the side off and its a bed) but its the next step up to the even bigger big girls bed! lol shes so good! only took a couple of goes to get her to sleep, she did wake up in the night but i gave her a bottle and she slept until 8.30 this morning! shes now asleep at the moment, well i think she is, i have to check on her to make sure she hasnt got up and is playing with her toys!!

anyway i am going to go and blob for a bit before i have to get ready and look pretty, i need a tonne of makeup tonight i tell you! lol i will probably end up looking drag queeny knowing me!!!!

have a great weekend!!!

HOT!

apparently i am like a hot water bottle!

i forgot when i first got pregnant with Kaylee my temp went up a degree or so, and its done it again, im feeling very warm and even in bed last night Darryl found it hard to hug me being sooooo hot!!

I didnt tell you about my weekend!

too worked up about babys!

didnt do much on Saturday, i had farmers vouchers so while Darryl worked Kaylee and i went and spent them! got Kaylee some jeans and gumboots (she LOVES gumboots!) and a couple of pairs of shoes, so that was some nice retail therapy, then i went and did the food shopping, didnt get too many extras, was actually quite carefull this week, but it still come to $140!! im going to have to go back to budgetting again i think! and do the meat shop at the butchers, the fruit and vege shop at the fruit and vege shops! etc, makes things so much cheaper, but its a whole morning spent on shopping! lack of time means i just do the whole lot at the supermarket and end up paying a bomb!

Sunday i went out with Darryls sister and his mum and went out to Devonport to have a coffee and a browse, there are so many dainty little shops there with some fantastic things! some really reasonable, some not reasonable at all! was nice to do something with the morning, i sat gossiping with Darryls sister before i come home and Darryl and Kaylee had a great time on their own too, nice and peaceful! so it was a good weekend in all, very relaxing and pleasant!

Today has been a bit of a nightmare, i looked after Georgia again today, poor thing is a wee bit constipated so was in a bit of pain and i have never dealt with a constipated bub before so really didnt know what to do! we got their in the end and hopefully she will be a bit better tonight for her parents with some medicine!

anwyay Darryl has just got home, its not often lately that my boy has been home this early! so im going to go and make the most of it!!!!

Got some exciting news to share!!!

yup! there WAS a reason why my period didnt come! after spending an absolute fortune on pregnancy tests and spending the whole of this weekend AND last week pissing on little sticks! it has been confirmed, there is another wee bub on the way! EDD is apprx 8.11.06, and we are BLOODY rapt!!! we still havent told some of our friends and family, because we dont want to tell them over the phone or in an email, we want to tell them face to face, and we may even wait until 12 weeks to tell some of them, just because it devestated them when i miscarried last time, and then it got swept under the carpet so to speak, which we dont like at all, we will always love and miss our lost angel.

so there you have it, totally unexpected in a way, we were thinking it would take at least a few months of trying properly, and its happened first month!

all that relaxing on our honeymoon....... hehe :p

lets hope there is a sticky baby in there this time! positive thoughts and lots of relaxing and NO stress!!! :)

Lovely day :) crap weather though!!

Its horrible outside! Kaylee is in a long sleeve skivvy and long pants, even had socks on today for the first time in months! i wasnt rugged up too much though, silly me, never mind! always forget about me, as long as my girl is warm thats enough! lol i did put a pair of long pants on around midday though, you could see the prickles on my unshaven for a few days legs prick up with the goosebumps! not a good look!! lol its windy and rainy with fine sunny patches. lol wicked Auckland weather!

Went over to Kates this morning, Kaylee had a play with Amelia and Bella and i chewed Kates ears off talking :o) lol then when i got home i quickly got changed and met a friend and her mother in law and her mother inlaws friends for lunch at the Yacht club at the marina down the road from me, lol didnt even know the food was there! there is even a cafe there!

i dont know what i have planned for this weekend yet, i think im going out with Darryls sister and their mother on Sunday for a girly shop and lunch, and Darryl is working tomorrow, so Kaylee and I may go to farmers to spend some vouchers i have heating up my wallet! Bella was wearing some cool jeans today from there that i have to find!!! :)

STILL no period here and STILL no positive pregnancy test, i dont care what one happens, i just either want a positive test or a period (never thought i would ever wish my period to come!) it sux not knowing whats happening with my own body!!!!!!

Have a great weekend! its got VERY quiet here, i think i better find the mischief!!! :)

Bad day!!

Im feeling a bit BLAH really, my period is at least 2 days late now, which means that when it does come its going to be heavy and horrible, im feeling all bloated and a wee bit down to be honest. looking after 2 kids is so hard!

I had Georgia again yesterday and her and Kaylee were so naughty! they literally ran to each room and trashed the house, the hit each other, pushed each other, screamed, yelled, tripped each other up, jumped on each other, snached toys, oh my god! i was crazy by the time Georgia left and Darryl got home! they both went down about lunch time (after they refused to eat any!) for 2 hours and i spent that time baking (something i do when im upset) and tidying up their mess, they got up after 2 hours and trashed the house again!!! its not like i didnt do anything with them either! we had a full on day which would have been great if they were well behaved! we drew pictures, played playdoh, went in the sandpit, the water trough (Green thing on a stand with toys in it that i fill with water), we did singing and dancing and read books, i have a rocking seesaw thing that they played on for yonks, so they shouldnt of been bored!! lol

i was SO relieved when Belinda come to get Georgia, who had by then gained a nice temperature and ended up being sick all night with her mum and dad up with her.... a reaction to the MMR vaccination she had recently, Kaylee had the same thing, its a bit icky.

Then i got Kaylee ready for bed, finally starting to calm her down after reading a billion books! Darryl got home from work and as soon as he walked in the door i burst in to tears, i was so relieved to see him! i just let go, he reassured me that yes we will be able to pay the bills and that yes it is still ok to get pregnant as not every day will be like that and all this other stuff that had been just building up came out, so Darryl ordered Pizza Hutt for dinner as neither of us was going to cook at 8pm at night and we sat in the pig sty of my house (which i still havent cleaned!) and ate crap for dinner and just blobbed for the rest of the night.

im quite blocked up with sinus congestion at the moment which isnt helping me at the moment either and it just seems like i cant keep up with the world and i cant get ontop of anything, i clean the house, which takes a couple of hours, the next day it looks like i have done nothing, we try to save and get on top of all our bills, but they are piling up again, i cant go back to work as what i would earn would barely cover Kaylees daycare expenses and petrol, so its not worth it, i thought about doing home care, but after yesterday that has put me off completely, i have a business idea that i would LOVE to do, but have to wait until ALL bills are paid for before i do that as i need capital to go ahead with it, just feeling a little bit lost at the moment as to what my place on this earth is for, im sure i will work it out

i guess really it all comes down to TOTM, i can feel it coming, and like i said its so late, i have ALWAYS had bad periods and i always get so hormonal and emotional and down and nothing seems to go right, and i always look back in a weeks time and wonder about myself, wonder why i got so worked up and so unhappy, but i always do it, every month without fail, just part of getting my monthly i guess, the sooner i get pregnant the better, i cant wait to not have it anymore!!!!!

i love this blog, its my page, i dont really care what anyone else thinks of what i write, as it feels good for me to get it all out and i guess it helps emotionally too as i always feel a little more refreshed afterwards too.

better start on the clean up... then off down the road to get nappies, we are right out! might even go through the drive through coffee down the rd from me and get a nice Mocha or something, a little treat :) ive never been a coffee drinker, but i have been loving it lately, always trim of course!