Going to the Zoo!

yup today Kaylee and I are joining Kate and Amelia and we are off to the Zoo, i really should get a yearly pass like Kate has, will have to talk Darryl into that, then we can go all the time, brilliant place for a walk, i mean how many times can you say you went out and did some steps today and saw the elephants, lions and giraffes!! Then we may do a lap or 2 (gossiping all the way of course) of Western Springs and then we are off shopping (yes AGAIN!!) there is apparently (heard this through the TM msg board) a bodyshop sale on today at the showgrounds, i LOVE body shop stuff, yummo!

You know i never used to eat so much as i do now, even a couple of months ago i was eating sensibly, and i have been searching and searching and i cannot for the life of me work out why i started eating like crap again, is it emotional? i really dont know, like i said in Kates blog comments yesterday, i dont get that rumbly tummy feeling, i dont FEEL hungry, so why do i need to eat until i am full where i was never hungry in the first place? i think in order to get my eating under control i need to work this out.

As a kid i never ate junk food, never, we couldnt afford it, and we ate very small portions, it was enough (most of the time) so when i got my first job, i could afford all the things i could never have, and i would eat junk, a lot of it, it is embarressing, chips, chocolate, lollies, candyfloss, all the time. i dont know if i was trying to catch up on what i missed out on as a kid, or if i just got greedy, i just ate so much crap, and hid it too, "hibernate" as mum called it, in my room and eat. i shudder now when i think about just how much i ate in one sitting, it was A LOT and for a skinny girl (as i once was) it was one hell of a shame. so now a few years down the track, i still hide my food, if i eat junk, i dont usually do it infront of people, i do it on my own, im ashamed of it, but i still do it. hopefully i can really get it under control soon, because the only person i am really lieing to, is myself.....

I could never understand why i got fat, until i realised all the sugar i was eating was the contributing factor to start with, i have never, and still dont, like deep fried foods, they make me feel sick and discusting and 9 times out of 10 i end up puking afterwards, just so gross, but i guess these arent the only foods that make you fat aye?