Day 1 on SureSlim

and im tired and grumpy and have one hell of a headache ALREADY!

not a nice start to my "new life" but i have committed and i will do it, its just a wee bit harder than i thought, doesnt help that im in a bad feeling sorry for myself mood, sorry, ill snap out of it!

i went for a walk again first thing with kaylee in the pram drinking her bottle

breakfast today was a lowfat unsweetend yoghurt with 100g of Strawberries and 150g of Kiwifruit (about 1 and a half) blended together with a table spoon of flax seed oil and 3 crispbread (i have to have 3 crispbread a day and i dont know what to do with them!) for brekkie i can either have eggs and veggies, cheese and veggies or yoghurt and fruit

that was ok, as i dont usually eat breakfast, i went out and met Kate at the shops had a herbal tea and a bit of a goss, then came home to work out lunch, now for lunch i can either have Chicken and veggies, egg or seafood and veggies or cheese and beans with veggies, i can eat as much lettuce, cucumber, celery, parsley and watercress as i like with a meal, so can use these to bulk meals up. so anyway for lunch i had baked salmon (a treat i got in the shopping, i hardly ever had it!) with steamed beans and lettuce, cucumber and avocado (a sub for the seed allowance i have to have each day) with a olive oil (have to have 1 Tablespoon per day) and balsamic vinegar dressing i had this at 1pm, by 3pm i was so hungry, starving infact, i think its because i usually have bread which keeps me a lot more full for a lot longer, so the stretch from 3pm-6pm was really hard, and i caved, im so pissed, i caved on my first day, at about 4pm i had to eat, i felt like i was going to fall over if i didnt eat, water just wasnt doing it, and i feel so god damn stink now because of it, hell if i cave on my FIRST DAY what is going to happen for the rest of the time?

so 6pm finally rolled around and i was able to have dinner 150 g of lean eye fillet with steamed cauli, broccolli and beans (155g worth total) so for dinner i ate 305g usually i would eat 3 times that much. then i had an apple (i have to have an apple a day)

i didnt realise how much i used to eat, this just doesnt seem enough, but maybe this is just normal and i have to get back to normality. but right now i feel horrid, my head hurts, im hungry, i want chocolate and i want carbs and i feel like crying

hopefully in a few days i will look back on this and laugh at how dum i was and its just day 1

time for bed i think