Shopping!

i went shopping today, my feet are killing me from all the walking! lol normally when Kate and I go shopping we have been a million times before, so we know what we like, we go to a few shops, just wander then go home, i just spent 4.5 hours YES THAT IS RIGHT!! at St Lukes mall with my good friend and Maid of Honour to be Belinda and her daughter Georgia, who is 10 mths.

i did get some great deals though, Esprit had a sale, which i love their kids clothes, they gave you a scratchy when you walked in, and you got the discount of which your scratchy determained, in my case 30% so i got Kaylee a really cute hat and 2 tee shirts, i saw lots in Pumpkin Patch that i loved, but i know they have a sale coming up, and i will shop there then, why pay full price when you can get discount i say!

i did get the BIGGEST bargain ever from KMart, a pair of shoes, ok they are 2 sizes too big for Kaylee at the mo, but she will grow in to them! they are cute little black ones, perfect for good, rrp was $29.95 i paid..... $2!!!!! holy crap!! im so rapt with my buy, lol

i was meant to pick up the sureslim paperwork today to fill in, but i havent got over that way yet, will try tomorrow morning first thing, there is no hurry as Darryl has to go in to show ID for the HP forms and he can only do that on a Saturday, so we have time :) im not piking!

although i have been naughty today, i have been so god damn good lately, trying hard to make the right choices and remain as healthy as possible, but not missing out (if that at all makes sense!) but today i caved, i could of had healthy subway, or sushi for lunch, but noooo i had a Kebab, it was yuck, i only ate a bit of it before i was full, and it was just blah and boring, give me my subway or sushi any day! and then i had, not one, but 2 dunkin donuts.... now i feel bloated and yuk! this isnt food i would normally eat anyway, but it just didnt do anything for me, ick

ok over it now.......

freaky how Kates posting from Australia, lol cant even keep away from the puter while your over there can you hun!!!!

good day :)

Well lunch yesterday went well, Darryls mums birthday, we went to a place in Albany Village, its real scrummy and reasonably priced, the only prob we have with it, both times we have been, the service is s l o w, you wait for ages for your food, maybe thats a good thing, i drank a lot of water (and 1 OJ) in the time we were waiting, so when i got my meal (healthy choice, grilled salmon kebabs on Taboulli salad with yoghurt, mint and cucumber dressing on the side) it was a tiny portion, and i GAWKED at it for a bit, but it was enough... i did cave a bit at the start as we shared bread and hummus, but i dont think i did too badly.

then last night cooking dinner, i cooked Kaylee and Darryl potatos, and i didnt have any, i thought hey, no time but the present to do without! so i had more water, steamed carrots, brocolli and cauli, and a lovely piece of eye fillet steak. i wasnt hungry at the end of it either, which really surprised me, as i have always though that to be full, i will need to eat starchy carbs, i thought that is what they are there for... i guess by myself learning good habits now, i will be teaching my daughter right from the start. it is very important to me to have a healthy child. i was quite proud yesterday of my (well almost) completely healthy low fat day!

im having lunch a little later today, as Rochelle (Darryls sister) is bringing sushi (my fave) after Maias (my neice age 15 mths) swimming lesson, im watching Daniel (my Nephew age 3) while they are out, so i have had an apple, hopefully that will tide me over.

im wondering how many of you are not breakfast people? i know with any diet, breakfast is a huge must, i really dont do well with breakfast, it makes me feel very ill, how did you get into eating it? is it just a matter of routine and getting used to it? i would love to know

i am trying a new AVON moisteriser today, im going to go and wash it off, its so not me, i only used a little and my skin has gone all icky and oily, i think its made for more mature skin which dries easy. blah! back to my usual one i think!

I have made a decision......

Im gunna do it, I am going to join Sureslim. I am going to be tough on myself, I mean really, apart from 30kgs, what do i have to lose? nothing, im just being greedy, listen to myself, oooo poor me, cant have this, cant have that, man imagine if i was allergic to certain things, wouldnt be allowed them then either would i, so i have made the concious decision to do without for a while, and give something else a go, i have to teach myself how to eat again, and how to eat well. so yeah, this week, while i wait for everything to process (takes 7-10 days for bloods etc) i will make healthy decisions, like today i will be going out to lunch for Darryls mums birthday, however the place we are going to i know has nice salads and healthy grilled meals (they also have crap, but i keep away from that anyway) so i will make a healthy decision on what to have.

my weekend was a little boring really, we just cruised on Saturday, got some housework done (inside and out) and did some visiting. Sunday i was ILL again, i spent most of the day in bed, i was nausous and headachey and achey all over, nothing would shake it, so I slept a lot! but this morning i am fine, but it is a bad hair day....

My hair is the longest it has probably ever been in my life, i hate it, i despise long hair (on me), i have very thick hair, which doesnt help, so i have a heavy head right now! im growing it out for the wedding, so i can get married with a nice hair do, ohhh the things we do! lol i am a short cropped hair do kind of girl, so i cant wait until after the wedding to chop it all off again! Darryl doesnt want me to cut it, he likes it, but as i said to him, he doesnt have to wear it!!!

Advantages Of Being A Woman:

Why it's better to be a Woman!
1. We got off the Titanic first.
2. We get to flirt with systems support men who always return our calls, and are nice to us when we blow up our computers.
3. Our boyfriend's clothes make us look elfin & gorgeous. Guys look like complete idiots in ours. 4. We can be groupies. Male groupies are stalkers.
5. We can cry and get off speeding fines.
6. We've never lusted after a cartoon character or the central female figure in a computer game.
7. Taxis stop for us.
8. Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance.
9. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
10. Free drinks, Free dinners, Free movies ... (you get the point).
11. We can hug our friends without wondering if she thinks we're gay.
12. We can hug our friends without wondering if WE'RE gay.
13. New lipstick gives us a whole new lease on life.
14. It's possible to live our whole lives without ever taking a group shower.
15. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.
16. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
17. We can congratulate our team-mate without ever touching her butt.
18. If we have a zit, we know how to conceal it.
19. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
20. If we're dumb, some people will find it cute.
21. We don't have to memorize Caddyshack or Fletch to fit in.
22. We have the ability to dress ourselves.
23. We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.
24. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we're aware that we look like an idiot.
25. Our friends won't think we're weird if we ask whether there's spinach in our teeth.
26. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
27. We'll never regret piercing our ears.
28. We can fully assess a person just by looking at their shoes.
29. We know which glass was ours by the lipstick mark.
30. We have enough sense to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions.

Cherish your children.....

you know its times like these that makes you realise just how much your child means to you, at the moment there is a we 18 mth old boy missing in Hamilton, has been missing since apprx 3pm, he wandered off, i can only imagine the horror and pain his family must be going through, i can only imagine how scared this wee boy is. this has really got to me, i have been following it here: http://www.trademe.co.nz/structure/messageboard/show_messages.asp?id=5945980&threadid=5945980 this thread shows how many caring people there are out there, and this is only a fraction, i can only hope and pray that this little one makes it home safe. All i want to do is get Kaylee out of bed, and cuddle her and never ever let her go, i love her so much, she is my world, i could never imagine how hard this could ever be to go through and i hope it NEVER to happen. your children are special, they are a gift, look after them, love them and give them an extra hug and kiss today..... i hope this wee boy comes home soon

Just after this post, the wee boy was found, safe, apparently someone had him for over 2 hours before contacting the police, i dont know why, seems stupid, but i am so relieved, and so happy he is home safe, he was found over 2km from where his house is, a long way for an 18 mth old baby to go. im watching my daughter chattering away, eating her tiny teddy, and im just so god damn lucky to have her, she is the best gift i have ever been given

OOPS! yes it is a daffodil!

lol I have no idea where "Sunflower" came from! and yes i do know the difference! sorry! (im talking about Kaylees pics below BTW)

well..... i have A LOT of thinking to do... i went to the Sureslim presentation and basically what it is, is this: no bread (apart from crispbread and mountain bread), no pasta, no rice, no noodles, no potatoes, no junk food (obviously), no alcohol, no sugar, and very low salt. you have to weigh EVERYTHING except for water based veggies (lettuce, cucumber etc) and drink 2l water + a day. the water i can do, the no alcohol, no sugar, low salt i can do, the bread, rice and noodles..... i dont know if i can do it.

Like Linda has said in my comments, i really do think i would battle to keep the weight off, as these are the first types of food i would go back to. i could handle it if they said you could choose, say a slice of bread or a 1/4 c of rice, that would be cool. but all my meals are either rice and something, potato and something, pasta and something, you know? i guess it is just a matter of changing my habits, and REALLY thinking about what i was to have to eat, because it is quite limited without Carbs! i kind of knew in a way that it was like this, and had accepted it, i guess i shouldnt of thought about it as much as i have, but i have! lol

the way they work it is, you are very limited in what you can have until you lose your weight, then they gradually add food back into your diet (this is when i could have my carbs again) so really you are limited for only a few months, as you lose the weight rather quickly.

Another thing against this kind of diet is family.... what if we were to be invited out to dinner? or lunch? with our familys it ALWAYS involves bread, rice, pasta etcetc, which is the main meal, at the moment i dont want to tell any of them what i am thinking, sabotage will come into play. you know how it goes... a little bit of this wont hurt you... a bit of this turns into a slice of that which turns into one massive big mess. they mean well, but just dont think really, and then there is the "hows the diet going' and "should you be eating that" just bugs me, and when i get shitty i eat, so i would rather avoid it BUT if they didnt know i was on a diet plan, they would be more like "have this... why not?.... are you on ANOTHER diet???" which is when all the other comments above would come in

so while i am thinking about it, (because i AM still thinking about it) i will put some steps for myself into play, aim for 2L+ water a day, 3 meals a day, if i want a snack i have fruit here, at least 7-8 servings of veggies and fruit a day (easily done, today i have had lettuce, tomato, cucumber, apple, pear, banana, kiwifruit, orange and havent even thought about dinner yet!), and lower the carb intake, maybe half a cup instead of a cup, 1 slice instead of 2 etcetc

because what is the point of thinking about starting a strict diet, and not starting to control yourself now? should i sit and eat junk until i decide?? hell no

i have more talking with Darryl to do, and more talking to a few people on the SS plan, and we will see what happens......

busy day!

we had a fantastic day today, thought it would rain us out on the way (was raining on the motorway) so we went to the zoo, then did a lap of western springs, although i really wasnt wearing the BEST shoes to do all the walking in, got blisters on my soles... oh well! then we went to the body shop sale, there was A LOT of Papaya shower gels lol but quite a few other things too, i got a couple of Dewberry shower gels (my fave) and a loofah and nail brush. Cost $17 for the lot! bargain!

i woke up this morning with a headache.... it has lasted all day, which has been horrid, cant shake it at all, so it will be an early night for me. im looking foward to the presentation in the morning, i am hoping though that this headache will be gone by then! time for a hot bath i think!

hey thanks everyone for your comments, its nice you are reading all about me, lol hope i dont bore you all too much and you come back again! im definatly taking all your comments on board, its really great to hear from you!

will post tomorrow after the presentation to let you know what i have decided!!!!

Going to the Zoo!

yup today Kaylee and I are joining Kate and Amelia and we are off to the Zoo, i really should get a yearly pass like Kate has, will have to talk Darryl into that, then we can go all the time, brilliant place for a walk, i mean how many times can you say you went out and did some steps today and saw the elephants, lions and giraffes!! Then we may do a lap or 2 (gossiping all the way of course) of Western Springs and then we are off shopping (yes AGAIN!!) there is apparently (heard this through the TM msg board) a bodyshop sale on today at the showgrounds, i LOVE body shop stuff, yummo!

You know i never used to eat so much as i do now, even a couple of months ago i was eating sensibly, and i have been searching and searching and i cannot for the life of me work out why i started eating like crap again, is it emotional? i really dont know, like i said in Kates blog comments yesterday, i dont get that rumbly tummy feeling, i dont FEEL hungry, so why do i need to eat until i am full where i was never hungry in the first place? i think in order to get my eating under control i need to work this out.

As a kid i never ate junk food, never, we couldnt afford it, and we ate very small portions, it was enough (most of the time) so when i got my first job, i could afford all the things i could never have, and i would eat junk, a lot of it, it is embarressing, chips, chocolate, lollies, candyfloss, all the time. i dont know if i was trying to catch up on what i missed out on as a kid, or if i just got greedy, i just ate so much crap, and hid it too, "hibernate" as mum called it, in my room and eat. i shudder now when i think about just how much i ate in one sitting, it was A LOT and for a skinny girl (as i once was) it was one hell of a shame. so now a few years down the track, i still hide my food, if i eat junk, i dont usually do it infront of people, i do it on my own, im ashamed of it, but i still do it. hopefully i can really get it under control soon, because the only person i am really lieing to, is myself.....

I could never understand why i got fat, until i realised all the sugar i was eating was the contributing factor to start with, i have never, and still dont, like deep fried foods, they make me feel sick and discusting and 9 times out of 10 i end up puking afterwards, just so gross, but i guess these arent the only foods that make you fat aye?

Drink to Shrink!

im so proud of me! lol i have drunk 3 glasses of water so far, had 2 oranges and a yoghurt. i dont do breakfast, so that was tonnes for me, i feel bloated... lol glug glug

2 more sleeps until the Sure Slim seminar thingi, im getting quite excited about it really, i like the one on one thing they have, i dont get much out of meetings with everyone sitting in a row listening to one person, thats just me, i find that really dull, then of course i dont hear what is being said

Kaylee wasnt too well yesterday, she is a lot better today, but yesterday her temp was up and she was grizzly, i think more teeth are coming through, but do you think i can get into her mouth to see! even brushing her teeth is a mission!

the weather hasnt been the flashest, so getting out walking isnt happeneing, it would be ok if i didnt have Kaylee, but to take her outside would just be cruel. Darryls parents have our exercycle, we loaned it to them while i was pregnant, so we will try to get that back, then i can ride while tv is on!

I demoed at Tupperware party last night, was fun, i always enjoy getting out and doing Tupperware parties, i meet some great (yeah... and not so great, but thats ok!) people, and get paid for doing it! but it is more than the money for me, it has given me a new self confidence in myself, i HAVE to stand up in front of a group of people, have their eyes on me and talk about the products, i am loving how that is making me feel, i have to get dressed nicely, put on makeup, do my hair and be professional, and i LOVE that.


Update: 8.50pm: I drank 2 litres of water today! im so proud of myself, hehe just had to share, small achievements huh!

ooo look!! :)

i got a comment on my blog! someone is watching me!!! HI Leighanne!!!

im really trying to pump the water through me today, i realised i was only having like 1 or 2 glasses per day! so not good enough, and they do say you have to drink to shrink, so im going to get one of the Tupperware 2L jugs and every day fill it to the brim and aim to drink the whole thing, and still have my herbal teas (mmm rasberry and Echinacea! yum!) on top of that, man im gunna be pissing like a race horse!!!

ok, a bit more about me, i talk a lot.... lol i used to be very shy, until i realised it doesnt really get me anywhere in life! i am still quite reserved though, i hold a lot in, which is the main reason i started blogging :) i have to get it all out sometimes!! better on here than in Darryls ear... lol one day it will fall off! (his ear i mean) im a Tupperware Demonstrator, and an Avon lady, love both my hobby jobs, my full time job is being a mum, which i love, esp when i go out shopping, and can enjoy the day time if it is fine weather (which it SO isnt at the moment!) I swear a lot... bad thing, horrible habit, i try not to do it around Kaylee, sometimes it slips out, but she hasnt said any bad words yet! (fingers crossed, touch wood!), another bad habit of mine (yeah i have a few!) is i bite my nails... i have done all my life, and i can NEVER remember doing it, Darryl reckons i do it in my sleep, maybe one day i will have pretty nails! lol thats enough for now, might scare you all away!!!!! (well i presume there is a few of you, HI! cos the counter is going up!)

anyway, i just realised that i havent had anything to eat today, doesnt help when there is nothing in the cupboard... im not hungry though, must be all the water!!! might go get subway :p

off to the mall

Kaylee and I went out to Onehunga DressMart today with Kate and Amelia, was a bit of a fizzer, we didnt see anything we liked at all! i find it hard to resist food, and hot drinks when i am out, Kate and I have a bit of a ritual where before we go shopping we have a coffee and a cake, i will have to change habits a bit i think and have a cuppa tea or herbal tea instead, then at least i am still having a hot drink, but am having a "safe" one, not one full of milk. so anyway, today i had a White Chocolate Mocha from starbucks and a chocolate muffin, i am a bit pissed at myself cos they had low fat muffins and i didnt take that option, i went full fat all the way....

Even though the mall was a bit of a fizzer we walked around it several times, so got lots of exercise in! and we arent a pair who walks slow either, we walk pretty quick, which is better than dawdling!

Kate is on a healthy lifestyle change too, she has her ups and downs like all of us, but on a whole she does really well, i look up to her in that sense. its nice to have someone positive to talk to when it comes to weight loss.

I got a call from SureSlim today, im still not 100% sure it is what i want to do, as it is a huge committment and i am unsure if i am ready for that or not, but we are going to a seminar on Saturday at 10am to see if it is right or not.

Am taking Kaylee to Jumping Jacks in Henderson shortly for coffee group, should be fun, Kaylee loves playing with all the kids her age and the toys, she is in a bit of a bad mood today, but hopefully will be ok!!

Kaylee trying to eat sunflower! 

More pics of Kaylee with sunflower 

Darryl and Kaylee 

my stats

you know i havent given out my stats yet, im 23 years old, born 10th Jan 1982, im 5"11 and weigh *gasp* 108kgs..... not the nicest thing in the world to own up to, but its here now and im going to leave it!!!

my first post in my first ever blog....

and i dont think anyone will be reading this for a long time but me.... but thats ok

i have been having a long hard look at myself lately, and i have come up with a few conclusions...

1- im addicted to food, any kind of food, doesnt matter if it is good food or bad food i eat too much and i eat a lot

2 - i dont drink enough water, i dont drink enough anything full stop, its not good enough really and i dont know whats stopping me, i need to work that out

3 - i dont get off my ass enough, i love walking, i dont know what stops me from doing it, apart from the weather being aweful at the moment, when it is fine weather, i still dont get off my ass...

4 - im always craving, whether it be sugar or salt, i crave, that has to be overcome, too much junk

5 - i get down about being fat, so i eat more, whats with that?? its just stupid and it has to stop

6 - i eat way to much carbs, potatos, rice, pasta, noodles, breads, way to much, its just wrong...

these are the main things (problems) that i have identified with myself, and i need to overcome all of this in order to start losing weight.

i never wanted to be a fat bride, i have 5 months till my wedding (Feb 12 2006) and i dont want to be the size i am now.

i have been talking to Darryl, and am going to look into SureSlim, where they take blood tests etc to help you work out what you should and shouldnt be eating. i have done weight watchers a couple of times before, it doesnt work for me, i hate counting points and used to blow all my points on lollies or chocolate and then starve the rest of the day. just wasnt working really....

anyway, we shall see what sureslim is like, i think you go to a mini seminar before you sign up so you know what to expect etc, so i look foward to learning more about it, but before hand i have set myself a goal (1 new goal a week for now) to drink at least 8 glasses of water (inc herbal tea) per day. i will let you know how i get on :)

Kaylee and i on Kaylees first birthday 

Kaylee age 14 months