4 more sleeps until Santa comes!

ohhh how exciting Christmas is in our house this year! but to be honest this year im a bit over it and ready to start the New Year!

Olivia has been unsettled the last few days, not even sleeping during the day, going to sleep in the early hours of the morning at night, so i have been surviving on not much! but all of a sudden, last night she went to sleep at 10.30pm, i didnt go to bed until later (dumbass!) thinking that she would wake again, but no, she slept until 6am! OMG BLISSSSS! she woke at 6, went down at 7, woke again at 9.30 for Plunket to come and visit and weigh her, and back asleep again at 10.30, its now 11.11am and she is still asleep! yay! It makes all the difference to my sanity, i tell you!

Ive come to the conclusion that Olivia is intolerant of Disposable nappies (weird aye!) every time i put her in one, she gets a rash, but put her in cloth and the rash goes away and stays away! Synthetic fabrics dont agree with her either, even if its a cool day she sweats so badly in them! i call Olivia my "sensitive" one as she just seems so much more vulnerable (for lack of a better word) than Kaylee ever did! She is just so damn cute though, huge smiles and goos and gaas, just lovely! She just adores Kaylee, follows her (with her eyes of course) all around the room, watches every move she does, she just loves her! Kaylee is very doting with Olivia too, finds her a dummy when she cries and loves hugging her, very nice indeed!

I have a pedicure and facial appt tomorrow, OMG i cant wait! my skin is just so crap, i cannot get it clear for the life of me, i have tried SO much and spent SO much money on it, but yet i still have blackheads and pimples and blemishes, i just hate it! i do hope though that the appt is at a quiet time and not when the neighbours trees are getting cut down (they are using our driveway, only fair since we asked them to cut the trees down! haha) the backpack on the washing line is finally gone.... only because they moved! i am pretty sure it was on the line for 3 months!

I decided at 8.30 last night that i was going to go to the Warehouse, i needed to get out of the house on my own, so i left Darryl to it and off i went, OMG it was SO busy, the whole carpark was full, i did a lot of people observing, and i come to the conclusion that there are some very weird people out there..... i cant explain too much (you never know whos reading!) but whoa.... never seen a crowd like it before!

Anyway, this is probably my last post before Christmas and New Year, So have a very Wonderful happy Christmas and a Safe and fun New Years!!

CHEERS!

xxx

4 more sleeps until Santa comes!

ohhh how exciting Christmas is in our house this year! but to be honest this year im a bit over it and ready to start the New Year!

Olivia has been unsettled the last few days, not even sleeping during the day, going to sleep in the early hours of the morning at night, so i have been surviving on not much! but all of a sudden, last night she went to sleep at 10.30pm, i didnt go to bed until later (dumbass!) thinking that she would wake again, but no, she slept until 6am! OMG BLISSSSS! she woke at 6, went down at 7, woke again at 9.30 for Plunket to come and visit and weigh her, and back asleep again at 10.30, its now 11.11am and she is still asleep! yay! It makes all the difference to my sanity, i tell you!

Ive come to the conclusion that Olivia is intolerant of Disposable nappies (weird aye!) every time i put her in one, she gets a rash, but put her in cloth and the rash goes away and stays away! Synthetic fabrics dont agree with her either, even if its a cool day she sweats so badly in them! i call Olivia my "sensitive" one as she just seems so much more vulnerable (for lack of a better word) than Kaylee ever did! She is just so damn cute though, huge smiles and goos and gaas, just lovely! She just adores Kaylee, follows her (with her eyes of course) all around the room, watches every move she does, she just loves her! Kaylee is very doting with Olivia too, finds her a dummy when she cries and loves hugging her, very nice indeed!

I have a pedicure and facial appt tomorrow, OMG i cant wait! my skin is just so crap, i cannot get it clear for the life of me, i have tried SO much and spent SO much money on it, but yet i still have blackheads and pimples and blemishes, i just hate it! i do hope though that the appt is at a quiet time and not when the neighbours trees are getting cut down (they are using our driveway, only fair since we asked them to cut the trees down! haha) the backpack on the washing line is finally gone.... only because they moved! i am pretty sure it was on the line for 3 months!

I decided at 8.30 last night that i was going to go to the Warehouse, i needed to get out of the house on my own, so i left Darryl to it and off i went, OMG it was SO busy, the whole carpark was full, i did a lot of people observing, and i come to the conclusion that there are some very weird people out there..... i cant explain too much (you never know whos reading!) but whoa.... never seen a crowd like it before!

Anyway, this is probably my last post before Christmas and New Year, So have a very Wonderful happy Christmas and a Safe and fun New Years!!

CHEERS!

xxx

Its the most wonderful time of the year!!

I LOVE Christmas, its my favourite time of the year, and its so much more special this year spending it with my 2 beautiful girls! haha Kaylee cracks me up daily, "Merry Mismas" she yells all around the house! Oh yes and Kaylee helped us to put the decorations on the tree, lmao... very pretty indeed!

They are learning all about Christmas at daycare, so she is picking up a lot this year, last year she didnt have a clue, she just liked all the presents!!

HEAPS going on around here, im trying to get heaps of bills payed, but at the same time save money, but at the same time get ready for Christmas, lmao, hmmm not working too well! All i need to do now is get the 8x10 photos printed for the Grandparents and Christmas is all done! easy! apart from food of course... Darryls family being Darryls family, they tend to take their time on decisions about who brings what, ive been asking for weeks, i will probably be told just before Christmas day... lol ahhh well :)

im trying to work out ways to save money, because come February we will be taking a bit of an increase in bills and a decrease in pay... (all for a good reason... watch this space) so im trying to be proactive now in cutting down now to help later, one thing i am going to do is put Olivia in Cloth Nappies, now i know i have talked about this in the past, and even trialled it on Kaylee, there is absolutly nothing wrong with cloth, i like them, find them pretty, i just didnt continue with them with Kaylee for various reasons (which im not going into here) So i have just purchased a few online, and will continue to purchase some more, especially ones that will last from NB (aka now) until 18mths, they have funky domes that you can make them any size you need, so that and the cloth wipes that i will use (go to spotlight and get a heap of flannelette and cut them up!) will save me around $20PW on nappies and wipes. we have cut our sky bill right back to the minimal (we dont have a TV arial at all) $38 a month and i have made changes to our phone bill (internet bill changes to happen soon) i just need to get our food bill a bit more under control and i think we will manage.

one of the main reasons for all these changes and scrimpings is that i really want to keep Kaylee where she is if at all possible for as long as possible, she is LOVING day care, it is so good for her, me and Olivia, it gives Kaylee the extra stimulation with other children and adults, provides her with activities that i couldnt do with her and i have noticed a HUGE difference in Kaylees social skills already.

I got my haircut today, SOOOO much better, i have been holding out since Olivia was born and it just got to the stage where it was so yuk! so i feel ALOT nicer! hehe and ive also booked myself a wee Christmas present, on the friday before Christmas im getting a pedicure and facial! ohhhh yummmm i cant wait!

update :)

Sisterly love, isnt it adorable!

Hello! long time no speak! lol its been a busy ol' week in the house of Carla.

Kaylee came home from kindy on Thursday and wasnt really too good, shes picked up a wonderful Diarreah and vomiting bug, OH YAY! but its weird because it isnt full on diarreah and vomiting, its just once a day for each (and no vomiting at all yesterday) and it only seems to be at night! weird! so its been all fun and games in our house with A LOT of washing being done! (because its done at night in bed, thank GOD for underlays!) So anyway it just seems like she has a little virus and there really isnt anything else we can do apart from give her bland food and heaps of water. So no kindy for Kaylee this week, and probably lots of DVDs!

I just talked to the healthline people on the phone, ive never rung them before, wow so helpful!! i will be ringing back in a few weeks once Kaylee is 100% again to get help with her eating, great service!

lol she is sitting on the couch watching love to sing, singing 'Rere Atu' at the top of her voice, getting most of the words wrong, but its very cute!

Saturday i expressed off a whole heap of milk and went out shopping ON MY OWN! it was lovely! and wow so easy without bags, pushchairs, carseats, mischief 2 year olds! i went looking for a gift for my MW as she is discharging me today (NO FAIR!) and found a gorgeous Rimu memory box with room for a photo on the top with Paua surrounding it, just lovely and something i would love so i didnt mind giving it as a gift!

We did a fair bit of getting ready for Christmas on the weekend, getting gifts sorted and working out what to get people, we are keeping it very light this year on gifts, it just gets too expensive, but we are spending a bit on Kaylee this year, buying her a trampoline, she will just LOVE IT! it will be put up on Christmas eve so that she will see it on Christmas morning, we found a lovely gift for Olivia that was on special at the warehouse, so thats her done, and ive decided that all the grandparents for their gifts are going to get a lovely framed photo of Kaylee and Olivia, nice and cheap to do, but very special. now to take the photo! haha

ive been stocking up on little gifts throughout the year, so apart from getting the trampoline, its not working out too badly, id be SO stuck if i had to start christmas shopping now! i have a couple of business gift baskets to make up next week, and one more thing to get for my neice and nephew and something for my sisters and brother, (am thinking of getting them a Prezzie card from the post shop, cool idea!) and then i am definitely done, apart from Darryl, but he gets the same thing every year, lol, he always wants a CD of some sort and a couple of nice TShirts, i always throw a wee surprise in there too though!

I cant wait for Christmas day this year, Mum, Terry and Adele are staying with us, so Christmas morning its presents first, then breakfast (Pancakes, bacon, maple syrup and fresh fruit this year) then lots of playing with all the toys! haha and then off up to Darryls parents, HUGE family Christmas with mine and Darryls familys and a couple of other familys joining in too, heaps of cold meats, salads, desserts, drinks, yummmmmm cant wait!

i LOVE LOVE LOVE this time of year! we are getting our tree next week, for the past few years we have used a fake one, (i have allergies) but this year, as i love a real tree so much, we are going for real, so next week we are off to the tree farm to get our tree! cant wait!

1 month old

yep Olivia turned 1 month old yesterday, isnt it amazing how fast time has flown??

the days are still melting into each other to be honest and im still trying to find the balance between Olivia/Kaylee/business/housework/Darryl. Olivia feeds non stop, a lot of it is comfort, so i am using a dummy, (blardy godsend! shite my nipples hurt some days!) and i am doing a bit of expressing every day too to top her up before bed at night, and it seems to work well with Olivia sleeping around 6 hours in a row.

Today has been an unsettled day unfortunatly with Olivia going to bed for the first time at around 2pm, its now 4pm and i have NO intention of waking her, not after the constant feeding and crying that has been today!

kaylee is having a ball at kindy, the teachers were telling me today that they had music and she really got into it dancing and singing, had a great time (we do this at home too, she loves it! but they have cool musical instruments at kindy too) so im really happy that she has settled in well,

unfortunatly Kaylee has not eaten in 2 days (and counting!) its really hard as a mother seeing your child not eat, it makes me feel so dreadful and like a complete failure, i have NO idea why she is doing this, apart from being totally stubborn! BUT we will persevere and still serve her up exactly what we all eat and we are hoping that eventually she will start to eat again soon.

we arent being unreasonable in our requests for her to eat, we arent putting down dreadfully discusting food or anything like that! for example a days worth of (offered!) food usually consists of: Breakfast - Weetbix and pureed fruit or ricebubbles and yoghurt or toast and yoghurt, Morning tea - Rice wheels (they are flavoured rice crisps made by healtheries) or/and muesli bar or/and yoghurt (depending on if she had one with breakfast or not), Lunch - sandwhich (vegemite or cheese usually) a peice of fruit (she NEVER eats fruit or veggies at the moment unless pureed and hidden! its so hard! but i still offer!) and a few other bits and bobs depending on what we have in the house, Dinner - last night was chicken drumsticks, a bit of rice risotto and a pasta salad from the supermarket (easy slap up dinner!) tonight its going to be mince chowmein, i am HOPING that being mince she will at least try it! see this is where our frustration kicks in, its not like she is trying the food and not liking it, she is not even attempting ONE bite! not one! if she only tried half the stuff we KNOW that she would enjoy it!

Kindy arent having much luck either unfortunatly, she point blank refuses morning tea (fruit and then once they finish 3 peices of fruit they can have a plain bikkie) and very rarely even attempts lunch (today it was vegetarian burgers - they are a vegetarian daycare - she just ate the bread around the burger!) so she does get offered good food at most if not all of her meals! its a very rare occasion where she gets mcdonalds or takeaways, and even then she only nibbles at a few chips and nuggets, im surprised she is growing at the rate she is, lol its not food doing it thats for sure!

anyway, just needed to vent a little bit, its all so frustrating!

lol we joke that the waste disposal gets fed better than Kaylee at the moment, it gets all her meals!

week 3 pics

can you believe Olivia is 4 weeks old today!! man time flys! but ohhh so in love i am with my wee baby! and lately even more in love (is that possible??) with kaylee too, its so nice to have fantastic children!!

Things are really busy around here lately, i havent been reading as many blogs as i have wanted to, and making even less comments on the ones i have got around to, please dont think im ignoring you!! haha im just FULL ON! Definitely silly season time methinks! I havent even got out the thankyou cards yet for Olivias gifts! i have them all written out, now just up to the addressing stage, lol its taken me a week to get this far!!!! between christmas, the business and being a new mum again, wow not much time at the moment! but im actually quite enjoying being busy i must say!

plodding along

Im slowly finding my way into a routine, hopefully i can get Olivia into a more regular pattern with feeding and sleeping, she seems to feed lately every hour and a half, which is just shitloads! so i have been using the dummy a lot with her to try and drag out the time more and then she gets a longer bigger feed which fills her up for longer (thats the idea anyway!) she is doing pretty well at night still, i think i am lucky there, she only really wakes once or twice a night, depending on what time we all go to bed.

My MW is coming this afternoon so we will see what Olivia weighs, im sure she has put on heaps, shes getting quite chubby!

im feeling terrible today, very nausious, blah, hopefully i will feel better soon, why i think im nausious is because yesterday i DID NOT STOP EATING! OMG i ate and ate and ate like i have never seen food before, i tried to stick to sandwhiches and fruit and cereal, but potato chips, mallowpuffs and icecream got a say too.... i feel so foul today! i was just HUNGRY, however today, i have only just had a bowl of cereal, but i feel so ill im definitely not hungry!

Kaylee is back at Kindy today! yesterday when Darryl dropped her off she barely battered an eyelid, waved him byebye and set about playing, they told me when i went to pick her up that she was quite shy and quiet, (which is very normal for Kaylee anyway, around strangers) but she seemed to enjoy herself, this morning when Darryl dropped her off she went straight to an activity with some other children and waved Darryl byebye and set about to it, no qualms at all about staying there and quite happy for him to leave, YAY!! so i had a lovely lie in this morning with Olivia, Darryl got Kaylee ready and only woke me so i could tie Kaylees hair up (he tried, but couldnt... he needs to practise! haha) so im so happy and so relieved that Kaylee is enjoying Kindy, and i was pretty glad she wasnt here this morning to be honest when i smashed a glass all over the kitchen floor.... it shattered and took forever to clean up! i can imagine a nosey 2 year old making it all the more harder!!

im having a bad hair day... so desperate for a haircut!!

my sleeping babies :)

taken this afternoon, i had Olivia asleep in the sling i was wearing and Kaylee in bed, so quiet and peaceful and innocent!!!!

took Kaylee for a visit to daycare today, i had to go out of the room for a bit and do some paperwork, and when i came back i watched Kaylee play, she thought i wasnt there and was having a great time, so i dont have any problems at all leaving her there, put my mind at ease completely, she didnt want to come home!!!!

its so damned muggy! im trying to find a balance for Olivia between nice and cool, but still warm, if that makes sense, at the moment she is just in a bodysuit, nothing else and has been so since lunchtime, if i put anything else on her she sweats! but im "wearing" her in the sling at the moment so she is warm enough beside me, but not sweating at all, but i wont be wearing her all the time! its great though because im hands free while still holding her!

we have no plans for this weekend, Darryl is probably working tomorrow, but thats ok, hopefully once he gets home he can help me with the housework, its such a pigsty here at the moment, ive vacuumed most of the house daily, but a couple of the bedrooms need a good going over and some more windows need washing, so thats my boring plan for this weekend! haha

hope you enjoy yours, whatever you may be doing!

Weight off my shoulders :)

Sometimes it just takes a good vent or sob to relieve yourself, i always feel SO much better after i have got it all out, my frustrations never seem as big and overwhelming and i can gain perspective again.

Thank you all so much for your messages and emails yesterday, i really do appreciate it, and im feeling heaps better today, actually things have been pretty productive around here!

Darryl got home last night with information for a daycare down the road from where he works, the wife of one of the guys he works for, got on the phone and rang a couple of daycares and found out that this daycare had an opening, 3 mornings per week, i felt a wee bit embarressed that she had done this, not because it was someone doing something i should of been doing, (LOL!) but because i had rang all the daycares around where i live, not thinking outside the square and thinking of somewhere close to where Darryl is based, i really didnt think about that, i just thought about my own travel! whereas with this place, Kaylee will go Monday, Tuesday and Thursdays from 7.30 - 12pm, Darryl can drop her off on the way to work and i will pick her up again, but it means i have those 3 mornings free to spend with Olivia, to go shopping, out for coffee (stress free!), have some ME time etc, KNOWING that Kaylee is safe, and secure and having a great time!

When we pulled up to the daycare today, Kaylees eyes boggled at the play areas, the waterplay, the paints, the crafts, the books and toys and of course the other children, she was going around saying "ohhh wow!" and really taking it all in, Darryl and her popped in yesterday for a wee bit, and we will also pop in tomorrow for a longer visit so she can get used to the teachers (who are SO lovely!) and the kids. I think it will take her a wee while to settle in, she is quite reserved, but once she makes a friend or two she is off! They provide all the food, morning tea is fruit and a plain biscuit, the only drinks they have is water (which is perfect as Water and Milk is all we give Kaylee anyway) and they provide a cooked lunch as well (vegetarian, no meat!), all included in the weekly price, so really healthy, it looked very safe and i feel SO good that we are doing this for Kaylee, she will just love it and was desperate for more interaction from children her own age. She will be able to do so much more than what i can do with her at the moment, she just loves painting and crafty things and waterplay, I did have her enrolled in a private kindy across the road from where i live, which is a lot cheaper and of course so close to home, however they only do school terms, and Kaylee probably wont be called up until January or February next year, but i am keeping her on that waiting list anyway, just to keep my options open.

So from there we went to coffeegroup at a local playgym place, Kaylee had a wonderful time on the bouncycastle, trampoline, bikes and ride on toys while i drank hotchoc and gossed with the other mums, Kaylee actually didnt want to come home! but she came home absolutly shattered, hardly ate any lunch and went to bed, i can hear her singing (ABC's) now which means she has had a 3 hour sleep, just lovely! Olivia too has been asleep for that time as well so i have been able to relax, eat, drink, tidy, wash dishes and blob on here!

Really good day, i dont feel so out of control any more!

oh and i wont be going down to mums for a few weeks yet i have decided, as we are starting Kaylee at daycare from this monday i want to get her settled and into a routine before we chop and change too much!

now i have to go shopping for some daycare clothes, lmao, things that i wont care what happens to them! Op Shop here i come!!! :D

Hard Work!

It has blown me away how much hard work having 2 kids is, i have no idea how people cope with 3 or 4 under 5! I have had to change the whole way i do things and "let go" of some common habits i had, just in order to make life smoother for myself.

I have so many emotions and feelings running through me right now, from love through to anger, and its really hard trying to deal with them all, the way i am they chop and change at the drop of a hat anyway!

I really wish Darryl could take some time off work, the only day he has had off is the day that Olivia was born, so i feel like ive just been thrown in the deep end, here you go, give birth, and bang your on your own now, 2 kids, 1 who your trying to introduce into the world nicely and keep calm and quiet for, but the other who throws untold tantys, gets very jealous (something i AM working on) or very rough, but really at 2 doesnt understand the consequences for her actions, she doesnt understand why mummy is yelling all the time or crying for the rest of the time, she doesnt understand why mummy cant do anything with her anymore, when mummy is on the couch feeding bubba, she doesnt understand that i cant get up and play with her, that all i can do is read her books and put on dvds for her, i feel so useless and so terrible every time i turn on the tv to entertain her, i hate the fact that i have no energy or no creativity to do anything with her right now, i hate the fact that i can feel myself spirilling down and getting lower and deeper into depression, i want to stay off the meds, i really do, but i just cant stop the way im feeling.

So on Monday or Tuesday next week, im off down to Mums to stay for a while, my sister is nearly finished school so will be home, Mum finishes work at about 3 every day and has some days off, so i wont be so alone, its a hard feeling - lonelyness - i KNOW i have people i can call on, but i HATE inconveniancing people, i always feel like i do that when i call on someone, and i just cant add another emotion into it right now, i just need my family around me right now, and by me going away for a while it means that Darryl can catch up on all the work that is building up, he can work late and start early and it wont matter, and maybe just maybe by the time i get back, whenever that may be, he will have caught up enough and have enough money in the bank to have a few days off with me. its definitely times like these when im sad that we arent employed by someone, (we are selfemployed) that we dont have that sick pay, or parental leave, or annual leave to fall back on, because its definitely times like these when we need it.

More pics :)

Pics :)

Just Stuff

Wow, its a little bit different having 2 children, compared to having 1! i didnt make it out to Playgroup the other day, as much as i wanted to, there were a few nights where i was getting 2-4 hours sleep tops, and i was exhausted, devestated, buggered, stuffed, tired! lol you name it! i couldnt function properly at all and had several meltdowns! its amazing what a few extra hours sleep does though, the last couple of nights have been really good with Olivia only waking 1 or 2 times, last night was fantastic as i got 5 hours in a row, bliss!!

But i did have my first ever outing yesterday with the 2 girls on my own! i was going stir crazy at home, just felt so cooped up and didnt know if i could handle Kaylee and Olivia all by myself, so i texted Kate, and said "wanna meet for coffee!" i was SO glad she wasnt busy and i got to have adult conversation for a couple of hours!! i must however make the effort this week to go and get the skateboard attachment for the back of my buggy for Kaylee to stand on, it was ordered back at the end of August/start September and has only JUST arrived! it will make going out so much easier, as walking with a 2 year old walking is pretty slow going! (and a bit funny, she likes to walk on her own - big girl you know - and she is so random with her direction, tends to not watch where she is going!) haha i rang Darryl on the way home from the mall, so pleased with myself, lol, i did it! and it wasnt THAT hard! (i had myself a bit worked up about it!)

Olivia is doing really well, she was weighed back on Wednesday and at 12 days old was now 10g OVER her birth weight, with a gain of 150g in 5 days! i was so proud of myself for that one! i had HUGE feeding problems with Kaylee and was made to feel like the worlds worst, and this time things are going so right! but im secretly a bit sad, i want my wee bubba to stay wee for a while longer yet!!! *sobs* i just love the first few weeks, even though you are getting everything established and everything working right and your lacking so much in sleep, there is just something so special about a newborn baby, you can see their personality developing, their eyes focusing, and they are so dependant on you and only you, i just love it :)

My nipples hurt like hell today though! (just sharing! haha) they arent grazed or cracked or anything, they look fine, just overuse i think, i spent SO much of yesterday feeding Olivia, it would seem like i would just finish feeding and half an hour later she would want more! owwww! hence the 5 hour stint of sleeping last night i think, i do feel a little tied down, and really sorry for Kaylee when she needs me and i just cant do anything because im feeding Olivia, but all these little things will get ironed out, and every day seems a bit easier! its been a huge learning curve for me though!

Im so craving a Dennys Spicy Chicken Salad right now, yummmmmm

Darryls Mo is growing quite nicely, hes pretty proud of it, i still think its butt ugly!! ah well, as long as it gets shaved off by the end of the month im happy!

will try to get some more photos up real soon

Movember....

Yep Darryl is going to grow it, much to my disgust! i HATE facial hair! haha i wonder what would happen if i said im not going to shave my armpits for a month!! (ew! no i wouldnt do that!) anyway, come the end of the month he WILL shave it off (he has no choice, he knows i would come after him in his sleep!) but it will be very interesting to see how icky it looks by then! if you havent guessed he is going for the OCC handlebars look!!!!!

I did what i was scared to do today, i stepped on the scales, and im DAMN pleased i did! 98kg baby! the first time in about 5 years that i have been under 100kg! so lets keep it this way huh? im not going to "diet" but i am going to limit the chips, chocolates, hot chocolates, muffins etc that i have got into the habit of having quite often lately, way too often actually. we still eat healthy breakfasts, lunchs and dinners, i just have to watch my snacking and of course eventually start walking again. Had a yummy dinner tonight, just a beef stirfry on Basmati Rice, but i just lightly flavoured the beef with a bit of sweet chilli and a teaspoon of red curry paste, it was really nice without being saucy and too laden with flavours, yummmm

im venturing out on my own for the first time tomorrow! im a bit scared, but have all Kaylees things ready to go, and just need to sort Olivias nappy bag out, im biting the bullet and taking Kaylee to a playgroup, im pretty shit with big groups of new people that i dont know, so when Darryls sister rang me to see if i wanted her to take Kaylee to playgroup, i thought, oh what the hell, and said im coming too, be good for me to get out of the house (also means i can detour on the way home and get SUSHI for lunch!! yum!!) i have to be back home by 1pm for my midwives appt, but im sure i will enjoy being out and about, i just have to take the plunge and do it, and it shouldnt be that hard (im hoping!)

Kaylee went to work with Darryl for the afternoon today, poor thing has been getting so bored, i really dont know how to juggle her and Olivia, i will work it out im sure, but plonking Kaylee infront of the TV all the time really isnt doing her any favours (or me!) i have managed to take her to the playground a couple of times, but hopefully i will be in some kind of routine again in the next couple of weeks and Kaylee wont be so bored!!

All these new things that i have to learn! we will get there!!

FOOD!

I NEED to get my eating under control again! it just seems to be at the moment that i just eat and eat and eat! I am trying very hard to eat healthy when i do eat, but it makes it hard when i have visitors who bring slices, cakes, muffins etc! SO HARD! I know that in order to keep up my breastmilk supply i have to eat well, BUT i can do without the chips and chocolates and biscuits, i know i can! Doesnt help also that im making up for lost time with all the things i couldnt eat during pregnancy!

Im dying to start walking again, but i do think i need to give myself maybe another week to heal properly down below, ive been walking down to the playground, around the shops/supermarket etc, however brisk walking i think is a bit down the track! i will start off slowly and build up i think, evenings with Darryl will be best, he can push one pram, i can push the other, SO much planning to do when there is 2 children instead of 1!!

I went into Farmers the other day as i was DESPERATE for some non preggy clothing! i got a pair of 3/4 pants and a singlet, i never try things on in shops, im a sucker for punishment! but i decided to be a bit adventurous and get a size smaller than my pre preggy size in both items, well, what do you know! the pants fit perfectly and the top i had to return for a size smaller! YAY! hence why i have to get this eating under control, i dont want to put back on the size that i have lost!

I have not weighed myself since having Olivia, why? because i think i may cry if i see those numbers! the last month or so of the pregnancy i felt like i did nothing but eat and eat, so, there you have it! my confessions of my bad eating habits! haha hopefully i will have everything under control again really soon, walking will definatly help, as will this lovely weather, bbq steak and salad is what we have had for dinner for the past few nights, just have to take things one step at a time i guess, but, you know me, im impatient! haha

Doing Ok

hiya :) thanks for all your nice comments, Mum got here early yesterday morning, and we were relieved to find that Granddad has made a fantastic recovery, where as the other day he couldnt even talk, he is back to his old self almost! Mum will stay maybe one or two more nights, until he is ready to be discharged from hospital, and then he may go back down with her for a bit, or he will go back home, whatever he wants to do (hes stubborn and you cant argue with him, its where i get it from apparently!)

anyway, busy times, i have visitors arriving shortly to meet Olivia, then shortly after another few visitors to meet Olivia and then Darryls family are all coming to dinner!!! its going to be a busy household for the next few hours! i better defrost some meat! haha

Busy Times!!

First things first!! HUGE congratulations to Karen and Stephan on the birth of Rachel!!! i cannot wait to see photos! so exciting!!

Things have been quite full on here the last couple of days, Olivia and Kaylee are both doing absolutly wonderfully, (im a very proud Mummy!) and Mum went home on Thursday, unfortunatly Mum had to come back again today as we got a phone call yesterday morning saying that Granddad had unfortunatly had a stroke, we only saw him last on Thursday morning when Mum brought him here for a visit, he was playing wonderfully with Kaylee and held Olivia for ages, we got some lovely pics, and then overnight he had the stroke and has just changed so much, Mum is in the hospital with him now, he is undergoing more tests and scans, although he is a little better than we initially thought, we dont know the true damage yet, or whether or not its recoverable. My Gran (his Mother) died several years ago after a series of Strokes, starting out much the same as his one did. but we will know more once Mum gets home from the hospital and then i will probably go in to see him tonight (couldnt go today as i cannot take the girls into the hospital and Darryl was working - if we go in altogether Darryl can wait in the car with the girls, and then im not too far away to BF Olivia)

Anyway, here are some very special pics taken on Thursday

GO KAREN!!

So excited to get Karens text this morning saying shes on her way to hospital! have been thinking of her all morning and cant wait to hear when her precious wee girl has arrived!!

Things are going really well here (i think so anyway!) Olivia has settled in nicely, had a bit of a rough patch yesterday evening, i didnt know if it was wind, or what it was, she just wanted to suckle on me the whole time, but not actually drink, if that makes sense, and if i pulled her off (because if they dont suck properly it really hurts your nipples!) she would scream! didnt help that Darryls parents were here and everyone was looking at me (i thought anyway!) because i didnt know how to keep her calm! (I had a wee cry when they left with Darryl, i hate hearing my kids cry!) we couldnt bring up any wind, so we put a dummy in her mouth, and wow, silence and she went to sleep! nice! come bedtime though she didnt want to go to bed on her own, so ended up sleeping on me all night, im not a sleep on my back kind of person, so even though i did sleep, it wasnt very well i dont think!

Olivia has been really good with her sleeping at night though, apart from not wanting to go in her own bed (can you blame her really? i mean she has been inside me all this time and then to be suddenly seperated, must be hard!) we tend to go to bed at 10.30pm-11pm and she wakes again around 2.30am-3.30am ish, and then sleeps through until around 7-8am, which is quite nice we thought! so really its only waking once in the night for her to feed and then sleep again! i can handle that!

Feeding is going really well too, she is latching almost first time every time, which i have just found such a great boost for my self-esteem, Kaylee never breastfed properly, never latched properly, never sucked properly, (as a result my milk never came in properly because she didnt suck enough to bring it on and she lost a lot of weight) Darryl and i would be up for hours in the night sitting there with her trying to get her on the boob, she would latch, and then a few seconds later come off, it was tiring, devestating, hard on all of us, contributed greatly to my state of mind (aka failure!) and post natal depression was a resulting factor (not just solely the breastfeeding though, other things too contributed to that i think) so i just love the fact that i can feed my baby, and feed her well this time!

i do know that its only early days, wow, can you believe that already Olivia will be a week old tomorrow!!!!!!!!

My mum has been staying since Sunday, its been SO nice, ive had awsome help, she has cooked, cleaned, done washing, dishes, entertained Kaylee, i have NO idea how im going to cope when she has gone! i will proberly be a mess by 5pm today! and i expect to have takeaways for dinner (yummm sushi, subway!) for tonight, tomorrow night and proberly Monday and Tuesday too! im looking foward to the weekend and for Darryl to be home with me, but unfortunatly because of the way work has been over the past month we dont have the luxury of him taking a week off work like we had planned :( im sure that just by taking things one step at a time, we will be fine though!

Olivia Jades Birthday

Short and Sweet!!

I had just hit 38 weeks, and was trying to not expect to go into labour within the next couple of days, as I went into labour with Kaylee at 38.1 and had her at 38.2, so I was thinking, yeah, right, NOONE goes into labour at exactly the same time, they are always either earlier or later! But I just knew something was going to happen very soon, my midwife (Jo) had even said to me at our last appointment when she was making my next appointment, “knowing you, this will be a postnatal visit, not and antenatal one!” I was happy with that statement! She also said that she thought I wouldn’t last the week, again, I was happy with that! But trying SO hard not to expect it, as I still could of gone another 4 weeks!

I woke up the next day (38.1 weeks) and at around 10am I felt her definitely drop down, and it did take my breath away! I had some minor pains afterwards and carried on having regular minor contractions for the rest of the evening.

We had a Mortgage Broker arrive at our house (pre arranged appointment) at around 6pm and went about doing a bit of talking and paperwork, we were just tying up the loose ends and doing a bit of photocopying (about 7pm) when I was standing talking to the guy and I felt my waters break, EW! GUSH! I had to quickly excuse myself and go and get cleaned up! The contractions were getting a bit stronger, so I called Kate, and she came over, but unfortunately by the time she got here the contractions stopped altogether! Kate went back home and we went to bed, (10pm)

I woke again at around 1am with definite strong regular contractions, whoa! Now I remember this pain! I managed to hold off until about 2.30am when I woke Darryl as I wanted him to make me wheatbags and get me panadol! We rang Jo at around 3-3.30am-ish, I was ready to pack up and go to hospital, like hell was I going to do another several hours of this! Give me the drugs!!!

Darryl was getting a bit worried as the contractions were coming a lot faster and I was in serious agony, I found it really hard to breathe through the contractions by now and started to feel myself lose control and my body take over, that was difficult for me because I hate losing control. Darryl ran me a bath and the midwife arrived just as I hopped in, Darryl said to the midwife, “shall we go to hospital, im really worried about how long this will go for” the midwife told him that judging by how I was acting, there was NO time!

I was in the bath for around 15-20 minutes and had definitely lost control by then, Darryl was pumping the rescue remedy into me and then I said “I have to push” the midwife said “no you don’t, not yet, don’t push” then she put her hand between my legs and was like “hmm ok if you want to push you either have to stay right under the water or get out of the bath” I wanted out of the bath and onto the bed by then, I was helped out of the bath and walked into my bedroom, I made it to the end corner of my bed, and I said I have to push NOW!” so things went down on the floor under where I was standing, to protect it, (Kate arrived at this time, and she thought I was just getting internals done, she had no idea I was ready to go! She was in the lounge with Kaylee - who had woken up at 3am and was on the couch watching cartoons… we were not arguing with her!)

I could definitely feel the head moving down and out, I was pushing but not too hard really, gravity kind of did its thing for me and really helped, the head come out, and straight away she started crying, it was such a relief that this was nearly over, I had to push the shoulders out, and Olivia Jade was born, 4.22am on Friday 27 October 2006. She was passed up between my legs; I remember the cord rubbing a bit on my fanny, ohhh such agony! Kate came in and took some photos, (no I will not be sharing them!) and I made it back onto my bed holding my new baby girl and delivered the placenta with a couple of pushes, its such a relief once that is out, its finally all over, you just feel so free again!

I stayed holding Olivia for a long time afterwards, Darryl cut the cord once it stopped pulsing and Kaylee came in to meet her new sister, was a very sweet moment.

Jo checked Olivia over and she was weighed at 7pds 6oz, 50cm long, Apgar score of 10, i finally got up off the bed and had a shower, was an amazing shower, I tell you! It just felt so good to have a hot shower after so much intense pain. Then I was dressed and was sitting in the lounge by 6.30am with Darryl, Kaylee, Olivia, Kate, Natalia and Jo and ready to start my day as a mum of 2 now! I felt so good, and so happy, and apart from being a bit sore and tender, perfectly normal, able to walk and talk, it was just so nice to stay home, be in my own surroundings and have my own bathroom! I don’t regret it for a minute and im pretty sure I had the perfect homebirth, I just found it so calm and relaxed and peaceful.

Olivia has been a dream, she is feeding well, sleeping well, hardly cries (only when its feed time!) and its just been so wonderful to add her into our family, Kaylee is a fantastic big sister, has lots of kisses and cuddles for Olivia, and is so sweet and gentle, although does need a bit of reminding now and again! It will take us a bit of adjusting and a lot of time management, but we will just enjoy the ride for now.

a few pics

SHE IS HERE!!

Olivia Jade was born this morning at 4.22am weighing 7pds 6oz, she is beautiful and we are all doing fine! 3 hour labour!!!

more details and pics to follow

ohhhhh owwwww!!!!!

nothing much happened last night, so Kate went back home and put Natalia to bed (and hopefully she is getting some sleep now too!) i woke up about 1am with noticable contractions and now they are OWWWWWW

Its Time BABY!!!!

yup, im definatly in labour, my waters broke haha just as we were about 5 min from saying goodbye to the Mortgage guy! poor man, i had to rush out of the room! Im not having full on contractions yet, still mild, but Kate is on her way over soon and the midwife is well informed!

HOW FREAKY! 38 weeks, 1 day, just like when i went into labour with Kaylee!!!!!!

when things start getting too full on, Kate will update for me, theres another BLOGGER BABY on the way!!! yippeeeee!!!!!!

Fingers crossed for me please everyone!!! have been having pains since this morning, but they are getting more regular, and more ouchy!

CMON BABY!

haha i was this far along exactly (38.1) when i went into labour with Kaylee, so wouldnt it be nice to do that 2 in a row! ive been tidying the house, and am wishing Darryl home soon so he can vacuum for me! i want a spotless house for this bubba to enter the world in!

we have a Mortgage manager coming at 6, lmao, i KNEW if i made an appt with someone something would happen!

i just hope its not a false alarm and all this is for NOTHING!! but owwwwwwww!!! :D

We will keep you posted!!

38 Weeks!

Pics

Kitchen Before:

Kitchen after:

A bit of coloured glass makes a huge difference doesnt it!!

and just because... :P

38 weeks today, will try and get Darryl to take some proper shots later this evening, i feel HUGE! scary to think that in 2 days time i will be the same time along as what i was giving birth to Kaylee!!

Tuesday

While im sitting on my ass on the computer, i thought i would do a wee update!

Had my midwife over this morning, baby has descended RIGHT down, hence the bowling ball between the legs feeling, and also the little gushes i was having, she thinks as the head was moving down it was pushing extra bits of fluid out. She thinks its highly probable that she will hear from me by the end of the week, but then she also wishes she was psycic so she could tell exactly when things will start happening! LOL then i said to her, 'yeah but i could still go overdue'... she said, 'you could, but you wont!' haha, only baby knows when baby wants to come out really! I guess im a little scared of going full term, or even overdue, Kaylee was 8pd 7oz 2 weeks early, add on 2 weeks for full term, or even 4 weeks going overdue, and that makes a damn big baby!

I have a man coming over this afternoon to install the new glass splashback in the kitchen, so i have been busy today stripping the kitchen benches back to nothing (must say, looks nice! i have a lot of bench clutter!) and giving the walls a good scrub, i cannot wait for it to go in though, will make cleaning SO much easier! will try to get a pic up later to show you what it looks like.

Just when you need good turnover (being selfemployed) and great moneyflo coming in because of an extra addition to the family coming soon, work drops off, whats with that?!?!?! its SO dead right now, there are signs it will pick up very soon, but things are getting tight! not nice to have extra money stress at the moment, the last thing we need! doesnt help that Darryl rung me today saying his ute is having brake probs, will cost $600+ for the part! holy crap!!!! damn stupid cars! we were looking at trading in my car and getting a new one, as mine is starting to have a few probs, but what we have decided to do is when it comes up for refinance very shortly, refinance it adding on a bit extra and use that bit extra to fix it up so its as good as new, sure beats adding on a whole new car! not the brainiest thing to do!

another not the brainiest thing to do, but something we are doing anyway (:P) is getting a Mortgage Broker out, hes coming out on Thursday night (unless we are having a baby of course!) and we will be applying for a mortgage, we dont have any house in mind, we dont have any price in mind, we want to just start the ball rolling a little to see WHAT we can get, HOW much repayments will be, WHETHER its justifiable doing it now or waiting till later (the amount we pay in rent is nearly equivalent to a mortgage) and how it works being self-employed first home buyers! he seemed to have a lot of ideas and a lot of knowledge, and the worst they can say is no, we cant find anyone that will take you on. Then at least we know and we can go from there, if they say yes, we can find someone who will give you such amount, then we can go from there too. Not something we will do lightly, not something we will do without talking to a lot of other people first. but i think something we do have to do. if we dont start now, what are Auckland house prices going to be in another few years OUCH! Our big plan is to buy cheap and crap, but with potential, fix it up quickly, flick it off with a profit, and wahla, we have a larger deposit for the next house, and keep doing this a couple of times until we make a bit of capital gain and start our personal financial portfolio... i have NO idea if my big plan will work, lmao, i know nothing about buying houses, nothing about DIY, but hey, gotta start somewhere!

Also business wise, a lot of ideas are running around in peoples brains at the moment, so heaps of potential there too, heaps of things starting to happen, cant say too much more, and things are still a wee while away yet, but its nice to know that things ARE happening! even though its a bit slow at the moment, it doesnt phase us too much, just have to be a bit strict with the old budget!

Not too much else going on in the life of Carla right now, Kaylee is being brillient, which is nice! it helps a lot that she is starting to talk a lot clearer so can tell me what she wants, makes communication so much easier, she learnt how to peddle her tricycle the other evening, that was a big accomplishment for all of us really! was very exciting! she still has a bit of getting used to it to do, but it was very cool seeing that happen! tantrums have been few and far between the last few days as well which has been a huge relief!

Im having an indecisive day today when it comes to what to eat... so far today i have drunk a lot of water, and had a slice of cheese and a yoghurt! lmao, not much! im thinking of making myself some toast... but then i have to decide what to have on it! Darryl has cooked dinner the last 4 or so nights, which has been great for me, i get to late afternoon and cant move at the moment, so sore! but im thinking i may cook for him tonight, chicken fettucine... yummm (not the healthiest i know, but the boy deserves a treat!) the warmer lighter weather has been nice too, we have been having lots of bbq steak and salad, love it! i havent weighed myself for several weeks, and to be honest, i dont want to, i really dont see a point at the moment when there isnt anything i can do about it, once baby comes out, we will go from there!

Moving along

Not too much has been going on the last few days, but just thought i would give an update, just in case anyone was worried! (haha! :p)

Still having very regular BH contractions, some dont bother me, some i really have to stop what im doing and breathe a bit! I noticed from about yesterday arvo some of my mucus plug is starting to come away, and (ew probably tmi, sorry, but this is my diary so i have to say to keep record!) looser bowel motions too. so things are definatly happening, but then things could still be a few weeks away yet, you just never know when it comes to having a baby, they usually start arriving when you least expect it! My midwife however is back from today YAHHOOOO!! and i see her again on Tuesday morning first thing, which im looking foward to.

ive had a cruisy day today, i went out this morning, leaving Darryl and Kaylee at home (doing housework, washing, cleaning! yay!) and popped into the Baby Factory to get a couple of car window blinds, a sleeping wedge and bassinett mattress protector, then popped into Pumpkin Patch to get a couple of things for Kaylee who is growing so fast out of all her clothing! (and shoes!) and got baby a cute little all-in-one which was on special (half price) so will add that to her collection of clothing, most of which has come from Trademe, god i love Trademe! lol what was my life without it!!

Then i stopped into the Bakery on the way home and got some fresh bread and a couple of slices for lunch, and Darryls parents popped in for lunch, so that was nice, entertained Kaylee quite well!

Darryl has just cleaned out the garage (well as much as you can with the amount of crap we have!) and has just gone to the clothing bins with bags and bags of my old clothes, which ROCKS because it means that i have NOTHING but maternity clothing now, lmao, no frumpy clothing, no blackblackblack and once baby is born, i will NEED to go clothes shopping and find clothes that fit nice and SUIT me! so im looking foward to that, i cant just go back to the frumpys and make-do!

i would LOVE to hire a wardrobe consultant... its on my list of things to do, but hmmm they are pretty expensive!! Xmas pressie from Darryl and the girls maybe?? we shall see!! one thing i will be definatly doing though is getting a makeup consult done where they will show me how to apply and hopefully i will be rid of my mask face once and for all! (yes i do know its there, no, i have NO idea what im doing wrong! haha)

anyway, its nana nap time, lol i might as well make the most of it now!!!

have a lovely long weekend if your having one, Darryl is back to work on Monday, but as he has had today and tomorrow off, its still a nice weekend! No idea what we are up to tomorrow, more relaxing? god i hope so!!!

37 weeks! YEEEHHAAAA!!!

Firstly, yesterday i hit the magical 37 week mark, means that baby can come at any time now, she is classed as "full term" so any time between NOW and 5 weeks time (god i hope not!) she will be in this world with us!

Blogger dinner on Tuesday night was lovely! was SO nice to meet everyone, a few people i didnt get to talk to as much as i would of liked, but im sure i will see them again some time! my photos didnt turn out too well at all, i have a nasty red eye habit and everything was just a little too dark... lmao, ahhh well budding photographer i am NOT! but have a look at Kates blog for pics. very friendly bunch of people, absolutly genuine beautiful woman, love it! and Thanks Lee-Anne for the LLB! you know what a preggy girl likes! haha! Also huge thanks to Emily for organising it, hopefully her, Phil and Jonny are having a fab time!! im sure they are!

Yesterday got a bit interesting, as ive nicely informed you all, ive been a bit leaky and achey the last 5 days or so, i rang the backup MW yesterday for a bit of a chat (my midwife is in Bali until about Sunday i think) and she was a bit worried that it may have been my waters leaking, so we dropped Kaylee off at Darryls sisters, and we toddled (or waddled!) into North Shore hospital, we hadnt as yet done a hospital tour, we werent intending to as we are planning on a home birth, but it was nice to have a look around (not with a tour though!) and see that the staff were lovely and friendly, the place was so clean and modern and didnt smell! (i have this thing with hospitals... i tend to get sick WHEN i go to them rather than going to them BECAUSE im sick.. its a smell thing, lmao...) so i had a lovely lie down for an hour or so, hooked up to a contraction moniter and a heartrate moniter, measuring my contractions (about every 5 minutes at the moment, just braxton hicks, lots i feel, lots i dont at the moment) and babys heartbeat, i also had a couple of tests done, but it looks like everything is A OK and we just wait it out now, was nice to meet the backup midwife too though because it looks like she will be the midwife my midwife calls for the homebirth (they have two in attendance for the birth)

Soooo lmao my hospital bag is packed and in the car just in case, the carseat is installed, just in case, Kaylees bags ive had packed for a couple of days (for if she stays away from home) and all we need now is a BABY! lmao you can come OUT now!!! :D

Tuesday

hi de hi campers!

Not too much going on here, just trying to take it easy, however im having a huge nesting spell at the moment, lmao you should of seen me bossing Darryl around last night, "put these here, NO HERE! ok no not there.... yeah where you had them..." hahaha a LOT of rolled eyes going on from him i tell you! i have this NEED to get things sorted and tidyed and washed and cleaned, my job for the next few days is to wash the inside of all the windows in the house, and clean the sills, seems like ive only just done them and i need to do them again, one of these constant jobs i guess!

i have been having little niggly pains on and off for the past few days, no painfree Braxton Hicks anymore, but just SOOOO different than with Kaylee, i never had any pains UNTIL i was in labor! now every little pain i get i have to stop getting excited, yesterday arvo and last night was pretty painful though, took panadol and went to sleep with my wheatbag, only (yeah ONLY!) woke 3 times to pee last night, has to be a record! so i really felt like i got some sleep, the night before was awful, couldnt get to sleep until 11.30pm and woke again about 1am and clock watched until 6am where i finally fell asleep until about 9. so last nights sleep was very much needed!

im very much looking foward to going out tonight to dinner with the Auckland bloggers, very cool, i cant wait to meet you all! ill be the one with the huge belly btw! haha! (and sober as a mule and drinking only LLBs! haha!)

anyway better go back to doing the mummy thing! i have my neice here at the moment too, so better feed them!

will see some of you tonight!!!

Niggles and leakage

haha can hear you all now, "ewwwwwwww" and yep it SO is! but its a good thing too, means my body is getting all ready and preparing for childbirth. YAY! All sorts of pains and niggles going on, heaps of leakage in more places than one (thats ALL im going to say!) movement slowing down a lot, and im soooooo tired! hardly slept at all last night, back and forth to the loo countless times, but i did get to rest in bed this morning until around 10.30am, Darryl brought me honey toast and water for breakfast and him and Kaylee have gone out to run errands, so i have a wonderfully quiet house.

Should really do some housework... but i wont! i have been ordered (by Darryl) not to do anything! He even cooked dinner last night, yummy BBQ steak and salad, was JUST what i felt like, YUM!

Darryl and I have decided on a new project. Our Grandparents, we will start with them and here is what we are going to do (starting with Darryls Gparents as they are the oldest).

with a recorder of some sort (dictaphone) we are going to get basically their life story, where they were born, their family tree, their early memories, kindergarten, primary school, high school, first jobs etc, then each perspective on how they met, what they first thought of each other (love at first sight? etc) when they were married, how old they were, when the children came along, where they have lived, what they have done, what they still want to do with the rest of their lives. etcetcetc. we will go through and scan all their photos so that we have copies, we will type out their life stories (to have a hard copy) and i will do a scrapbook on them. We thought this is a cool way of preserving something for our children, giving me something to do, helping Darryl learn more about his Grandparents now, and the family something to refer to when the time comes and they are no longer with us.

Then once this is done we will do my Grandparents (a fair bit younger than Darryls) then Darryls parents, and then my parents. so that hopefully we will have our whole family history in scrapbook form (with written documents) sitting in our book cabinet.

Im getting quite excited about it, i have done a mini project about my Grandmother when i was a lot younger and learnt so much then, i cannot wait to get more indepth with everyone and have a good idea of who we are, and who our children are. Im doing a lot of browsing for papers, embellishments etc that i will be able to use, and i know im nuts starting something now, so close to when baby comes, but i feel it is SO important to have some kind of family documentation somewhere, when our Grandparents depart, how will we know their stories then?

We got a lot of loose ends tied up yesterday, i went and got fitted for Maternity Bras, hows this for cool, im 2 SIZES smaller than i thought i was (from an 18 to a 14!) and 1 cup bigger (holy crap F cup!) than i thought i was last week! haha! feels nice to have a bra that fits well! and i love having SOMETHING in my wardrobe that is a size 14! even if its an undergarment! We picked up the carrycot for my buggy yesterday and so thats all put together and made up ready for baby, we also tried installing the new baby capsule in the car, hmmm, it doesnt farkin fit! so im off to the Manufacturers on Monday (hopefully) to get them to fit it and get their thoughts, for me baby is sitting wayyy too upright, and i dont like that at all. But its a big possibility that i may have to take it back (thats if they will take it back, ive had it for a few months before trying it, dammit!) and just use the convertible carseat that i already have here. ahhhh well, never mind!

i got a DAMN BLUE FACE on trademe yesterday, my own stupid fault, i sold an item last week and thought it would cost a certain amount for postage, but it didnt, and as Darryl posted it, the first i heard of it was when a blue face was posted on me (Neutral - bascically unhappy with me) waaaaaah! i wanted to cry! i ALWAYS ask Darryl what the items got posted for just in case things like this happen, but ive had so much on my mind this time that i didnt, soo im a bit pissed at myself! but i sent the buyer an email apologising, and telling her for future reference its always nicer to email the seller first to see if they can rectify the situation before placing feedback, and asking for her bank details so that i can refund her $3.10 overcharge on postage, which is what i would always do anyway if something went for less than i thought! but ohhhh in my hormonal state it was just what i didnt need!

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i had some scrapping goodies arrive today, and i couldnt wait to have a play!!

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