Lucky :)

You know with so much going on in the world, and even on our own doorstep at the moment, i consider myself pretty damn lucky and lately, even the things that usually get to me, are not, and i guess that maybe im just looking at the world, and myself in a different light, and realising at the same time, that some things are just no big deal.

I havent slept well (i.e 6-8 hours) for over a week now, i cannot get comfortable, have to pee a lot! have an extrememly active baby at nights, and Kaylee has started waking having nightmares. So all of these things combined, have made for a huge lack of sleep, and yes, im tired, exhausted actually, but i find all of the above "inconveniances" not "inconveniances" at all, but blessings, and that gives me the energy i need to keep on with my days.

We are SO blessed to have Kaylee, now 2 years old, she has given us more joy than we could EVER imagine, her nightmares are a pain, and we are trying a few things to work out how she can get a good nights sleep too, tonight its a night light, so we will give that a go for a week and see if that helps, but we have a healthy, happy, well mannered (well sometimes! - we are getting there!) beautiful breath of fresh air, wee girl, who we would die for, no question about it, and we are thankful for her every damn day.

We are SO blessed to have bubba on the way, shes an active wee thing, especially between 11pm-4am! and loves playing trampoline on my bladder, keeps me rushing to the loo every few minutes, but this may well be my last pregnancy, so every wee kick, punch, roll that she does, i just adore and enjoy so much, i cannot for the life of me find a reason to curse it, i cannot wait to meet her, but not before her time of course :) with only about 14 weeks to go, time is flying by VERY fast! and buying all the new things to get ready for her coming, just gets me so much more excited!

I am very lucky in my marriage, everything is pretty much 50/50, im not treated like a slave, i do have the right to put my foot down when i want to, and that is respected, and i get told often that i do a great job at being a mother and a wife, im not the best housekeeper, infact i suck! creative clutter... yeah ok, lol just mess really! always clean, just dont expect my house to be spotless and youll be fine! im not the greatest chef, but i rock up some pretty tasty meals at times! we always have food on the table, (even if its spagetti on toast if we havent done the food shopping for a while!) bills are always paid (if a little late sometimes due to my forgetfulness!!) and my child is always clothed appropriately for the weather, is neat and tidy, and with a bit of hard work and budgeting, ive pretty much got our business out of the shit, im very proud of that.

im 24 years old, and im damn proud of my life, i have my problems, like anyone, i have a few wee enemys in this world, but really dont have time for that, i usually say it like it is, and just ok, is never good enough. i have goals and ambitions, but not until i have raised my children, and got our business under control, but dreams are there for a reason, they keep me striving for better, and i dont think thats a bad thing :) its got me where i am today. "Many of lifes failures, are people who did not know how close they were to success, when they gave up."

Enjoy the life you have, its the only one your ever going to get, you might as well life a good one!

There was a song out when i was at College (high school) called Sunscreen, i loved this song, it always made me think and for that, it always made me happy.

Sunscreen, by Mary Schmich:

Wear sunscreen.If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.