not an addict!

you know what! i just read the start of my blog, where it says im addicted to food, and i realised that this addiction has gone, the past month has changed a lifetime of habits and thoughts towards food, i havent had chocolate in way over a month, and i dont want it, and when i will have it, i wont have much, it makes me ill to think about sitting down to eat a whole bar of chocolate and a whole packet of chips now. Darryl had Pringles yesterday, yum! i can eat the whole container of those, well i used to, i was quite happy with 2 chips and off i toddled. i no longer wake up in the morning and decide what to have for dinner that night, i dont revolve my shopping trips around where im going to eat afterwards, i cant remember the last time i had hot chips, or biscuits or a burger, i have really changed, and its not until now that i have realised that.

pretty cool huh!! and what better time really, being pregnant and i really have to look after myself and eat the right types of food to keep this baby happy and healthy, the thought of fatty foods just makes my stomach lurch!

Anyway the weather today is georgous, so im off to do something witht his beautiful day :)

well what do ya know! :)

hehe 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant by my dates, and noooo im not one of these people to not tell anyone until a certain time, i like sharing :)

its been a beautiful day!

the weather was just stunning today and Kaylee was bouncing off the walls, so off to the park we went, we go to this park in Mairangi Bay which is fully enclosed, so Kaylee can just go anywhere and it isnt a problem, she loves it! we met Rochelle, Daniel and Maia there and they all played happily while we sat and gossiped :)

I didnt have breakfast today, naughty i know, but i had Sushi for lunch (again, naughty i know, but i figure every so often should be ok, i mean i am not on a diet to deprive myself) and im glad i had it now, i really enjoyed it! but i wont be having it again in a hurry, too much carbs at the moment, my tummy isnt used to them :)

now the house is dead silent, Kaylee is still asleep in the car and i am making the most of the peace! actually i just finished my avon order and paying some bills, which is good to do now while Kaylee isnt tugging on my pants!

we have a busy weekend planned, as usual its housework day tomorrow, but we will probably do something outside weather permitting, i really need to get back into the garden again, its a mess! i dont know what the poor neighbours think looking at our mess!!! nevermind

then Sunday we have a bbq planned at Darryls parents house, its nice to do the family thing now and again!

its really nice to be stress free at this time of the year for once, as Darryl is self employed its usualy a really hard time of the year, work starts dropping off, i usually havent done any christmas shopping (where as this time i have nearly finished!) and things get hard, but Darryl has a tonne of work coming up, usually this time of year its quiet, but he is busy as at the moment, so we are so rapt and so happy, makes you really love christmas!

YEAH ROCK ON SANTA!!!!! :p

immm sickkkkk!!!

and it sux! i feel like death warmed up, my whole head feels 3 times the size it should be, im so blocked up, very cold and can hardly move! Kaylee also isnt very well, has an icky headcold too and just isnt herself, poor wee thing, i still have to keep going to look after her, but man its hard!

we both have a dr appt tomorrow morning, so hopefully the dr can work out if it is a virus, or a cold, or sinuses, or the start of the flu, or something else! the appt was originally for Kaylee to get her 15 mth jabs (yes 1 mth late.... nevermind!) but i dont think i will get her done if she is already sick! so i am drowning my sorrows in Orange Juice, something i am not allowed to have but i really need to keep up the vit c if i want to shake this thing!

so no weigh in for me this week, i have just cancelled my weigh in for tomorrow, it isnt fair on the people at the clinic brining me and my germs into their small office. i am loving how well my clothing is fitting though, its really great. and everyone who i see who hasnt seen me for a while is blown away, and its only the first 5kg down! rock on!

other than getting sick (started yesterday) i had a really neat weekend, we went out to Botany to go shopping on Saturday (yes shopping, again.... if shopping was a sport i would SO ROCK at it!), we love it out there and spent hours out there, Kaylee had her first ever icecream in a cone, which she LOVED it was so cute, we didnt buy anything for ourselves, but got Kaylee her summer wardrobe, so satisfying looking at her closet and seeing all the winter stuff gone and the summer stuff taken its place, i love shopping for Kaylee because i can put her in anything, one day i will love shopping for me too :)

Yesterday consisted of visitors all day, was such a lovely day it was nice sitting outside drinking and chatting, was just great, then Darryl cooked dinner on the bbq and Kaylee and i snuggled on the couch and rested, we were well looked after!

Kaylee woke a couple of times during the night, as did i, but i ended up on the couch watching cartoons at 3am this morning and ended up falling asleep until 7ish when Darryl come back in

my post is all over the place today im sorry! my fingers hurt from typing! back to the couch and Dr Phil for me!

Measurement day!

ok quick post while Kaylee is quiet, i have vacuuming, dishes and dusting to do!

Weigh in today, lost another 1.7kg! total of 5kgs so far!!! i am very happy with this, i also had my measurements taken and get this! i have lost a total of 18.5cm from my chest, waist and hips!! *doing the shaky bum dance!!!* i am very happy with this, im shrinking! i lost the most from my waist, which must be the reason i can squeeze into the 16s!

ive spent most of today running around doing errands, and after the vacuuming im gunna relax! im trying to think of a treat i can have for losing the 5kgs.... might have a bubble bath!!!

Kaylee is dancing to the music here! while the parcel is going around 

Playing pass the parcel 

First driving lessons with Daddy!! 

Having a run around at the party 

My Pretty girl just before going to the birthday party 

very busy weekend!

well it was a very busy weekend here!

Friday night Darryl got home nice and early and we decided to go out for dinner, originally it was going to be takeaways on the beach (something healthy of course!) but we realised that we had NO food in the house and NEEDED to do the food shopping, so we headed over to Albany, stopped at Subway to get a kids pack for Kaylee (those things rock!) and rocked on over to a Thai place we hadnt tried before. they mucked up our order and it ended up with Darryl being finished his meal before i even got mine, but that worked out really well as Kaylee started getting grumpy and so i played with her while he ate and vice versa. The meals were really nice, i had a Prawn, Cashew and veggie dish and Darryl had a curry. like i said, really nice, but the service sucked! they came to get my wine glass, asked if i wanted another wine, i said no thanks, they saw my water glass was empty and took 1/2 an hour to fill it up! we had to ask to get it done!!! so back to our old haunts we will go! one nice place we go to is in Albany Village and the other is in Takapuna. I love Thai, its just so fresh and light and tasty! oh yeah and i went really light on the rice i had too, i didnt get a spicy dish so didnt feel i needed rice, and then we went and spent a fortune on the food shopping.... pain in the bum but we hadnt been shopping in two weeks (apart from fruit and vege), so we needed a fair bit!

On Saturday Kaylee and I took off shopping to find Georgia a Birthday present, Then Darryl, Kaylee and I went over to Devonport to take Kaylee to the park and so we could get out for a drive, but it rained! So we drove around for a bit, went into the city and up to Borders bookshop, had a browse for half an hour or so and then went on home again

Sunday was Georgias first birthday party, the weather cleared up nicely and there was a tonne of food! i stuck to lean meats and salad, and yes i had a wee bit of birthday cake and pav! Kaylee had a lot of fun, running around the whole time we were there, she was stuffed by the end of it though! but it was a great day, Georgia got a tonne of presents (as they do on their birthday!) and by the time we got back home both Kaylee and i went to bed and slept for 2 hours! we were all just a wee bit buggered!!

I am not weighing in tomorrow as i have Coffee Group in the morning, we are going to the zoo, but on Wednesdy is my week 4 weigh in and 1st measurements, im looking foward to it! i can feel im shrinking, i got into a size 16 pair of pants the other day BIG WAHOOOO!!! i was very rapt at that indeed!

Fabbo weather!

it is just awesome weather today! just stunning! my daughter is in an authoritive mood however and is on her 2nd sleep today because of it!

The Cross Trainer i borrowed rocks! im jumping on for 10-15 minutes at a time a few times a day, going to work towards an hour a day on it, but for now 1/2 an hour is my target, its brillient i can really feel it when im using it and having something when i have the tv on is great!

I have Georgias (Belindas daughter) 1st birthday party on Sunday, but other than that have a nice quiet weekend planned. Darryl is going away for Saturday night down Matamata way, so Saturday and Sat night i have the house all to myself, i think i might get a bit bored! will have to find a good book at the shops so i can curl up and read!

anyway, i hope you all have a fantastic weekend! make the most of this weather!!!!

Lovely day in the sunshine!

well, its just stunning here in Auckland today! and i have had a really great day :)

my friend Belinda invited me over for lunch, so i went over to her house at about 10.30ish, doing some errands on the way, i got there and we decided to go shopping (as ya do, remember i am the shopping queen!) so we popped out to Henderson to Kmart and Briscoes etc, well, call me the bargain queen of the century (yes, again, im so rapt!) we were wandering around Briscoes and they had some in store specials to clear stock, i got 2 square platters (was $44.99 each) 1 rectangle Platter ( was $44.99) 1 chip and dip set (was 44.99) and 5 cup and saucer sets (was $7.99 each) for a grand total of........... $13.00!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP! total saving of $161.92!!!!! now if that isnt the biggest bargain youve ever heard of then let me know!!!

Anyway, once we got home again and buzzed over our savings, we put the girls in the paddle pool (Belinda has a 1 year old daughter named Georgia) and ate some lunch, then home i have toddled :) i brought back with me Belindas Cross Training machine which i will start using tonight, ive found getting out for a walk difficult at times and this means even if Kaylees asleep i can exercise, we have an exercycle which we lent to Darryls parents, who have since told us it is theirs now and it is covered in tape where it has been broken.... sooo pissed about that but it is a whole other story that i wont get into now, but that is one thing that gets me, is when you lend something to someone and it comes back ruined!!! happened a few times to me recently. i must admit i borrow some things from friends and forget i have them so they have to ask me for them back, i am so forgetful, something i want to work on one day! but at least when they do ask for them and i give them back they are still in the condition i got them in, no less, argghhhh pet peeve here anyway!

ok time to put my daughter to bed!

Happy days are here again!!

i have the tune of that song in my head, so gay... lol and those words above are the only ones i know! i just hum the rest!!!

i have an apology to make! my spelling sux!! and i was just reading Kates post and she was talking about spellcheck, well what do ya know! there is one! yeah.. Blonde... duh!

ok i had my week 3 weigh in this week! 1.2kgs lost! that is a new total for me of arund 3.5kgs in 3 weeks! i am very happy about that, especially since i went away, but i kept away from the bread, potatos, pasta and rice and its done me good! im still keeping up the water intake, i didnt get a walk at all last week which im a bit mad at myself about as that was something i promised myself to do, walk every day. i have found it quite hard getting out to walk, its been a busy time! but like i said, i will work on it.

My weekend was great, its so nice going down to mums, her and my 2 sisters absolutly dote on Kaylee and she gets so spoilt which i love, they change her, feed her, bath her and Kaylee loves it, we were outside kicking the ball around, playing on the floor, at one point there was 5 of us singing to her, i love being down there with mum, its so nice having someone to call on, i miss her dreadfully when we come back home, i dont get the same family support from Darryls family that i do from mum

nothing else is new really so i thought i would do what Kate did on hers, its pretty cool and made me think! and it will help you get to know me a little more!

Twelve movies I like

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the original one, seen it a million times and still love it!)
The Shawshank Redemption
Grease
Forest Gump
The Green Mile
Armegeddon
50 first dates
The Sound of Music
Charlies Angels
Monsters Inc
Oceans 11
The Bourne Identity

Eleven good bands/ Artists

Crowded House
Brooke Fraser
Dave Dobbyn
The Exponants
Split Enz (yes i know some of these bands dont exist anymore, and yes i love NZ music)
2Pac
Janet Jackson
Michael Jackson (his old stuff)
No Doubt/Gwen Stefani (huge fave of mine, this lady rocks!)
Mariah Carey
Fur Patrol

10 Things about me

I am 23 years old, born 10 January 1982, makes me a stubborn Capricorn goat :)
im addicted to the internet, an obsession i am working on slowly (When Kaylee sleeps i surf!)
im the eldest of 4 Children, 1 brother John, who is 21, my sister Adele who is 16, and my other sister Belinda who is 13
im a perfume freak, i panic when i leave the house not smelling pretty!
I always wanted to become a teacher, but am unsure if its something i could do now
im very impatient
I met Darryl on the internet, met him in real life 5 years to the day we will be getting married
im a closet geek
i want 6 children, but Darryl only wants 2
I want to move to Tauranga to be closer to my mum... Darryl doesnt!

Nine good friends

Kime (My best friend at Primary school, still in contact and friends now)
Julie (My best friend in early college, until she moved, still in contact and friends now)
Belinda (met as both our partners are car geeks, she will be my Maid of Honour at my wedding)
Kerryn (Darryls best man to be's wife, met her when she came to Darryls 30th birthday, turned into a really good friend)
Kate (my ww buddy! used to go walking every day before the kids came along (on the same day dont forget) and now we are real good mates, always nice to have someone to bitch to that doesnt judge, we dont see each other as often as we should, 16mth olds keep us on our toes!!!)
Darryl (my best friend, lover, soulmate, wonderful father of my child, person i can tell ANYTHING too)
Benjamin (VERY good friend from yonks back, hes in Ireland now, has a fantastic job, so jealous of him and miss him lots)
Rochelle (Darryls sister, we are like chalk and cheese when it comes to our beliefs, our ways of bringing up our kids and our views of society, but get on well and our kids love the time together)
Jo (my other WW buddy who also turned into be a fabbo friend, love her to bits, shes my rock, im hers, we bitch and moan to each other all the time, no judging, no pregidices, just understanding, cant wait to see her again at our wedding!)

Eight favourite foods or Drink

Coruba and Coke
Sprite Zero
Grapefruits and Grapefruit Juice
Strawberries
Chocolate
Sweet and Tangy Chips
Sushi
Subway (Chicken Fillet with double Lettuce and cucumber, and tomato with Mayo and Sweet chilli sauce!)

Seven Things I wear daily

Perfume (my faves are Arden Beauty, Rare Gold, Gucci Rush 2 and Babydoll
Contacts
underware
Deoderant (i hate smelling so wear 2, Mitchum Roll on and Rexona Soray on top)
Kaylees Breakfast (i so need to learn to get dressed after i have fed her!)
Sunglasses (Kaylee broke my ones though, had some funky dirty dogs, so now im stuck with Darryls crap rejects until i find more i like!)
My Engagement ring

Six things I hate

Prejudice against other living creatures of all kinds, there is no need for it
People who think they need to kill or harm to get what they want or put their views across
Selfishness
People who are "Always Right"
Onions
Dog Poo in the park (drives me nuts! we have a dog and ALWAYS clean up after her)

Five things I do daily

Shower
Cook (Either Dinner or Lunch or both)
Hug and kiss my daughter and tell her how much i love her
Hug and Kiss Darryl and tell him how much i love him
Sing "the wheels on the bus go round and round" a million times, its Kaylees favourite!

Four Shows I watch

CSI
The Amzing Race
24
SHORTLAND STREET!!

Three places I have lived

Whakatane
Swanson
Massey

Two Things I want

To Move to Tauranga, i REALLY miss my mum
To own our own home one day

One Person I want to see right now

Darryl, i would love him to be home right now, its so nice having family time

hehe long post today, but you got to know me more!

take care all!

what a week! TGIF!!!!

ahhh the weekend is nearly here, i am SO looking foward to it! Darryl is taking Monday off and we are going to have a long weekend down at mums in Te Puke, we SO deserve it!

thanks guys for your comments the other day, i was so down and so pissed off, it is really good to have this blog just to have a bitch and get it all out more than anything!

well i am sitting here absolutly shattered, we had the night from hell with Kaylee, we are really lucky with her as she is hardly ever ill, she keeps so well, but last night she ended up with a 39 degree temp and she did vomit once, so she spent the night in our bed, we finally got her to sleep at about 1am with us (she never sleeps with us, doesnt like it) and we tossed and turned all night, it doesnt work having her in the bed with us, we have like 1/4 of the bed and she has the rest!!!! so at about 6am she went into her own bed and Darryl went off to work and i slept until 8 when the alarm went off!

anyway, i had eggs for breakfast and chicken and brocolli for lunch, but i burnt it unfortunatly, so it tasted like crap, never mind! but i have yet been out this week for a walk, i always go to, but either Kaylee is asleep or i end up oging out to do something else.... have to not make excuses next week i think

normans funeral tonight

get the tissues ready girls!!!!

week 2

this week has been CRAP! i have had major issues with my father (long story, he walked out on the family a few years ago) who decided to call me for the first time in a year this week to let me know that he wont be helping pay for the wedding even though when we got engaged he said "oh i better start saving for the wedding" and when he got his retirement pay out, i was going to get $15,000, then it was $10,000, then it was $5000, then it was nothing cos he spent it all on crap, anyway because he is helping his gf pay for her sons wedding, and the mercedes is costing to much to run and the trip to America they are taking with my 2 sisters next year will cost a bit too, he wont be able to contribute, but he is more than happy to come up AT MY COST!...... yup majorly PISSED OFF here! So i let rip and told him what an irresponcible person he was and he has a responcibility for 4 children, not just 2, and its about time he stepped up and acted like a man and had some responcability etcetcetc, yeah i did my nana. i also told him that its not "if he will be contributing" it is "how much are you contributing you dont have a choice" might seem harsh to some of you, but my daughter is now 16mths old and he has never met her, ive given up being nice to him, it doesnt get me anywhere, he moved and i heard through my sisters, i didnt get any notification or address or ph number, he changed his mobile ph number (the only number i had for him) and didnt tell anyone, even though im 23 i feel so god damn rejected and i have had enough, hence the outburst, i also told him he will be contributing or he will not be coming, i am not paying for his meal and drinks ontop of everything else, once again might seem harsh, but ive had enough.

when i email him i never get him reply, only his gf whom i have never met (who also tried to tell me what kind of wedding i should have and that its too expensive, once again, never met this lady), he makes promises he never keeps, didnt send his Granddaughter (his only one) a christmas present, or even ring to see how her first christmas went, he moved all the way down to Christchurch, and has since moved to wellington, both times i have tried to track him down and had to hear from someone else where he lived. He tried to tell me that it would cost him thousands to come to my wedding, airfares, motel, rental car, etcetc he has known for over 3 years that this day was coming and 3 mths to go he complains about it ARGH! now i know he lied to me too as we have friends coming from Wellington, and even though it is expensive to come up by plane (so not thousands like he said though, i set him straight there!) they are driving up, im so lucky to have good friends who will do that for me, esp when my father wont drive up because it means he has to take a day off work for it, hell in a couple of months he is taking weeks off work for his gfs sons wedding in America, and i am his daughter in Auckland who he cant take the time off to see. sux dont it

anyway, that has set my mood for the week, and my eating for the week, i have been out walking a few times, not every day, i have been busy as well, but the lolly jar has been hit BIG TIME and i just have felt like crap all week. so yes my week 2 was a flop, i gained 600g, i deserve every bit of it, but Dawn (my consultant) was so lovely, i was near in tears because i knew what the scales would say, and she gave me a leafelt on stress, told me what it can do to you, and also told me her dads a bit of a dick too, made me feel so much better

but hey tomorrow is a new day, we will carry on and we will do the best we can with what we have

but god it feels good to get all that out!!!! :p