my heart is broken
unfortunalty im not pregnant anymore, i feel like my heart is being ripped in two, its so hard to deal with, its hard to type about, its hard to talk about, its hard to think about. im so guttered that i miscarried, im so guttered that i will never get to know this child, whether its a boy or a girl, what their personality is like, what they would have looked like, im so guttered that Kaylee has missed out this time on a little brother or sister and im guttered that we have missed out on our baby.
it hurts, im angry, im frustrated, im sad, all these emotions and all this pain. its really just not fair. i just have to take heart i think that it just wasnt meant to be this time, it will happen again one day, we just have more time with just Kaylee now and we have to cherish that
i wont post for a while, i think i need time to myself to grieve and mourn and scream and yell. i dont know how long it will take though.....
8 comments:
I'm so sorry hun, I can't say anything to make you feel better I know. This is probably gonna be the hardest thing you have ever done and I am heartbroken for you. I wish with all my heart that it could be different. :-( Sending you all my love, and to Darryl too.
Sorry to hear what has happened!
I am thinking of you and your family, Take care:)
Carla
I know from experience that what you are going through is the most painful thing anyone woman can ever go through! My thoughts are with you and Darryl at this sad sad time. I too have my days when I think of my angels and wonder what they would be like etc...
Here is a wee poem that I got from Jo after I had my 2nd miscarriage and I thought I would share it with you:
How do I say goodbye ... when I didn't get to say hello?
I want so bad to keep you ... how do I let you go?
I have so many dreams, so much love I want to share
There's nothing I can do ...why is life unfair?
You're my perfect angel...I dreamed you long ago
I never got to hold you but it breaks my heart to let you go
The pain and confusion I feel inside
I can not explain...I can not describe
God will rock you in your cradle and watch you as you sleep
I will love you in my heart ... it's all I get to keep
you are blessed my child ... you're in heaven up above
You'll never be alone...you have all of our love
All my love Carla
Karen
Such sad news, I'm so sorry for your loss. Take your time with your grieving and mourning, and we will all be here for you when you come back.
Carla I am so sorry to hear your sad news. Take care of your self & take as much time as you need to grieve. You have a lot of support here.
There isn't really much I can say except that I'm sorry to hear your news. Take care of yourself.
I'm so sorry about your loss. I know how truly gutting it is. Take your time and mourn your loss. My thoughts are with you.
AWW I am sorry to hear of your loss, what a hard time for you and yours.
thinking of you,
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