where does the time go??
Wow, time sure does fly, my baby turns one on Saturday, can you believe it!!! i keep saying to Darryl that we just need to have another one to have a little teeny bub in the house again! not yet though, not until im off meds and the kids are a bit older, but im just amazed at how the past year has flown by.
i feel like i have to grieve a bit, i havent been the mother that i wanted to be, and i have (well i feel like i have) missed out a lot with Olivia, and Kaylee, but Olivias first year is the most important and for most of it i havent been myself, i will just have to have a wine to compensate :p
So we have a nice party planned for Olivia (well... more for me!) on Saturday which i am very much looking foward to, so i should have some photos to show you afterwards
so, whats been going on with me then?
i feel great! the meds are FINALLY doing their thing, im able to do more, think clearer and be a better mother, this last week has been fantastic and i feel like a whole different person, im still taking baby steps and not pushing myself too much.
Saturday is going to be a huge mission for me going back into the entertainer role that i love, but ive just done easy food, chips and dips and crackers and cheese, things in packets that i can just put on plates, real easy! im trying to make my life as easy as possible
oh and i have to gloat, because i never thought i would get this far, im still breastfeeding Olivia! so that is 1 year i have been breastfeeding, a huge achievement from someone who couldnt feed their first baby, im very proud of myself!
so this is me at the moment, happy, healthy and getting better, thank you all so much for your love and support and kind words, it means the world to me :)
xxx
